suddenly i am reminded of something i've read in a bk...if u leave e window of ur heart open for another person to enter...once e person leaves...e empty window cannot be closed...and forever more...a draught will continue to fill e rm in ur heart.

i find myself afraid of forgetting u. therefore i keep revising all ur weird quirks by retelling them all e time to whoever wld spare me their ears...i've nvr felt like this before...but...yest........after our conversation i felt a draught...and i noe tt i have opened my window...it's too late...u were nvr meant to live in my heart so i graciously allowed u to leave helping u in ur deceit tt u nvr came into my heart...

u stir e dust in my heart as i write this blog...u told me so many contradictory things i dunno wat to think. u told me tt is a guy likes a gal he will ask her out. u said u seldom ask gals out unless u feel something for e gal. then u say u haven't liked a gal for a long time. then u asked me out. NEXT...u told me yest tt u will nvr initiate a conversation online..well...u just did today. so wat am i supposed to do??

i live in my vast rm..with open windows...draughts come in freezing me. so cold.

Thanks for visiting me in my lil rm. u may leave now...i dun want u in my rm...u simply seek to remind me of my incompleteness. i try pushing u towards ur gf...i try so hard to deprive u of a place in my heart...but seeing tt i have failed...i am trying to deprive myself of e place in urs.

and damnit...y u ask me out then say i not free nvm! but i am damn free!!! idiot! u okie not?!! i need theraphy!! retail therapy sounds gd...i want get a mp3player...lalala...=p too stressed...must relieve it in some way. talk to E can puke blood. *looks for cd-rom to install quivering silence* *installation failed* *pls install Cement to seal window before proceeding. And uninstall prog E from the parent directory of Life before trying again*

(WAH! my IT knowledge not too bad...quite a bit of jargon)

ANYWAY!! guess wat!!!!!! i must be fated for NUS since my big face appeared in e newspaper under an NUS article...lol...i shall take a photo for e marticulation card tmr and will submit e relevant docs on sat. cheerios! =)

PS: i wonder y anyone bothers to read my whiny blog. i have no choice!! my life ain't tt interesting except for my complete disaster of a love life. A need to explore new themes...i shall take note of tt...

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