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05.15.05 (6:29 pm) [edit]
picked this very quiet time to come online noeing tt everyone else is either working or in sch...well...i shall try to articulate how i feel...
1. abt myself: i love myself and want to cont as such...sometimes i find myself doing e weirdest things on impulse...sometimes i totally screw up...sometimes i doubt myself and my abilities...but all in all i am a confident young lady and tt rox. i have lotsa frens so i guess tt most ppl agree on my lovable nature...lol BHB!! okie...i guess my flaws are over-confidence, impulsiveness, draggy sometimes, too complicated a life or rather love life...
2. abt da: i really pray tt he can love me. well...u see...yest my nick was 'tell me if i can cont to believe' and when i said hi to him...he changed his nick to 'i love. ----' dunno if e 4 -s mean 4 alphabets....oh well (btw...my name is 4 alphabets to him coz he calls me kit 1) anyway! e next session he changed e nick to something like comeflywithme...then i told him tt later i fly until lost now...then he said at least u get to fly and gave me a big smile icon :D . Well...then i said tt i dun mind as long as we are lost together..and he laffed. then i asked him to guess who i like and he said E...then i said huh and ask E wat?? (act blur) then he said he just joking lahz...then i said okie...then i said he really dumb and said tt yy dunnit guess one she just knows. then he said 'then she clever lorz' then i said 'then u slow lorz' then when i went zzz...i said bye u slow person and he did a ;p. (which i think is highly symbolic of e possibility tt he does noe) SHLD I TELL HIM IN HIS FACE?????
3. abt E: nvr quite articulated this as well as i wld now. qi, shan, ting as all attached..my best frens...shaz attached too...as a best fren of them...i wldn't want anyone to come in betwn their r/s even if e r/s is failing or at a dry spell...if someone were to come in betwn them i wld absolutely detest tt woman, curse tt woman, loath e woman even if i dunno her...may sound harsh but she is affecting my fren. i wldn't care if she really loves e guy or if e guy really loves her...it's just wrong. i can only live by wat i believe in...a prisoner of my own beliefs. if da is to get attached today...it will be e day i really try to be his fren just his fren...so......in conclusion...i cannot be such a person whom i will loath coz i wld despise myself.
Conclusion: abt me: i fix a mould for myself tt only someone strong can live out...i dunno if i am strong enuf but i noe no other mould.
1. abt myself: i love myself and want to cont as such...sometimes i find myself doing e weirdest things on impulse...sometimes i totally screw up...sometimes i doubt myself and my abilities...but all in all i am a confident young lady and tt rox. i have lotsa frens so i guess tt most ppl agree on my lovable nature...lol BHB!! okie...i guess my flaws are over-confidence, impulsiveness, draggy sometimes, too complicated a life or rather love life...
2. abt da: i really pray tt he can love me. well...u see...yest my nick was 'tell me if i can cont to believe' and when i said hi to him...he changed his nick to 'i love. ----' dunno if e 4 -s mean 4 alphabets....oh well (btw...my name is 4 alphabets to him coz he calls me kit 1) anyway! e next session he changed e nick to something like comeflywithme...then i told him tt later i fly until lost now...then he said at least u get to fly and gave me a big smile icon :D . Well...then i said tt i dun mind as long as we are lost together..and he laffed. then i asked him to guess who i like and he said E...then i said huh and ask E wat?? (act blur) then he said he just joking lahz...then i said okie...then i said he really dumb and said tt yy dunnit guess one she just knows. then he said 'then she clever lorz' then i said 'then u slow lorz' then when i went zzz...i said bye u slow person and he did a ;p. (which i think is highly symbolic of e possibility tt he does noe) SHLD I TELL HIM IN HIS FACE?????
3. abt E: nvr quite articulated this as well as i wld now. qi, shan, ting as all attached..my best frens...shaz attached too...as a best fren of them...i wldn't want anyone to come in betwn their r/s even if e r/s is failing or at a dry spell...if someone were to come in betwn them i wld absolutely detest tt woman, curse tt woman, loath e woman even if i dunno her...may sound harsh but she is affecting my fren. i wldn't care if she really loves e guy or if e guy really loves her...it's just wrong. i can only live by wat i believe in...a prisoner of my own beliefs. if da is to get attached today...it will be e day i really try to be his fren just his fren...so......in conclusion...i cannot be such a person whom i will loath coz i wld despise myself.
Conclusion: abt me: i fix a mould for myself tt only someone strong can live out...i dunno if i am strong enuf but i noe no other mould.