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04.27.05 (6:13 am) [edit]
我不能为你 不顾一切的崩溃
除非这样子能保证 你挽回
got tt from a sammi cheng song....quite relevant to my feelings this moment...i cannot give up everything for da...becoz i am too strong...i cannot be depressed forever. self-indulgent pity is not for me...i am still e best. =p even if u dun appreciate it.
Anyway...sometimes i wonder wat is running thru e minds of ppl ard me..like
1) cleaner auntie...she has a daughter and she tells me tt e things i have are cute and how she wish her daughter cld have them too...i think auntie is such a nice woman and she must love her daughter a lot....she wants e best for her...but cannot afford it...kinda sad...somemore today she wanted to take half day off since her daughter sick...jesty won't even let her go when jesty herself will go off to buy ice cream or just disappear...i bet when ryan (her nephew) is sick...she will rush off...sometimes e world is unfair.
2) jesty...seems like her hobby is scolding ppl...i wonder y...is it a masking of inner insecurities...she treats her nephew like her own son...guarding him selfishly...bringing him out...calling him to ask him to drink more water....i wld hate to have a sister like tt...in her conversations...she nvr mentions e mother of ryan...e loneliness of a careerwoman...i see jesty as my alterego...e me to avoid...she is similar to me and i do admire some things abt her...but no doubt she leads a sad life of unreal relationships...of which there is only one true one she holds tenaciously to...
3) e vagrant i saw on my way home...cars were moving quickly...heavy traffic...cargo trucks...he doesn't even glance in e direction of traffic...just walks ahead seemingly with a death wish...wat is he thinking?? is his life so wasted...he believes it's worth nothing. no one will shed a tear??
i cannot spend my whole life waiting for u...my life will be super sad...i am not like some ou xiang ju person who can wait forever for e same person...coz reality is not a drama whereby e protagonist comes back...reality has taught me tt waiting forever will prob be e outcome. i am selfish. i will be happy. with or w/o u. Treat tt as me fulfilling ur wish for u...and for everyone who wishes me happiness
除非这样子能保证 你挽回
got tt from a sammi cheng song....quite relevant to my feelings this moment...i cannot give up everything for da...becoz i am too strong...i cannot be depressed forever. self-indulgent pity is not for me...i am still e best. =p even if u dun appreciate it.
Anyway...sometimes i wonder wat is running thru e minds of ppl ard me..like
1) cleaner auntie...she has a daughter and she tells me tt e things i have are cute and how she wish her daughter cld have them too...i think auntie is such a nice woman and she must love her daughter a lot....she wants e best for her...but cannot afford it...kinda sad...somemore today she wanted to take half day off since her daughter sick...jesty won't even let her go when jesty herself will go off to buy ice cream or just disappear...i bet when ryan (her nephew) is sick...she will rush off...sometimes e world is unfair.
2) jesty...seems like her hobby is scolding ppl...i wonder y...is it a masking of inner insecurities...she treats her nephew like her own son...guarding him selfishly...bringing him out...calling him to ask him to drink more water....i wld hate to have a sister like tt...in her conversations...she nvr mentions e mother of ryan...e loneliness of a careerwoman...i see jesty as my alterego...e me to avoid...she is similar to me and i do admire some things abt her...but no doubt she leads a sad life of unreal relationships...of which there is only one true one she holds tenaciously to...
3) e vagrant i saw on my way home...cars were moving quickly...heavy traffic...cargo trucks...he doesn't even glance in e direction of traffic...just walks ahead seemingly with a death wish...wat is he thinking?? is his life so wasted...he believes it's worth nothing. no one will shed a tear??
i cannot spend my whole life waiting for u...my life will be super sad...i am not like some ou xiang ju person who can wait forever for e same person...coz reality is not a drama whereby e protagonist comes back...reality has taught me tt waiting forever will prob be e outcome. i am selfish. i will be happy. with or w/o u. Treat tt as me fulfilling ur wish for u...and for everyone who wishes me happiness