HEY! can put diff colour for my words...muahahhaaha.....


PERHAPS....for me...love is an luxury item i nvr cld afford. SORRY to those who hate pink...lol...it's a pinkish entry. Perhaps it is fated for i nvr like those who love me. either tt...or it is simply impossible...of coz u may argue tt i am e one who defines my boundaries and thus i limit myself. HOWEVER...we are all trapped by our own beliefs so u have no right to criticize me.


Sam is going off to US to study. TOTALLY cool. However, i'm not sam...i cannot leave all financial issues to faith and God...like God can only show u e way...he won't appear and give u money lahz...so still must work for it myself. I believe tt my best shot at an uni edu (w/o having to drop out halfway due to financial constraints) is in sg. Glorious green and clean city (we're not tt green really.)


wat else...hmmmmm....i am still head over heels over waist over hair over every part of my body in love with da i guess...can't believe i am so mad....WELL...at least my workplace is fun..challenging so takes my mind off things...including how badly e choir is functioning..lol...keeps my mind off how weird someone has been acting...keeps my mind off my seemingly unrequited but totally overwhelming love...over some guy who thinks he likes me just coz i remind him of his ex...to take my mind off this guy at work who seems so like corn and adorable in his own way...OFF tons of things. tt's y i stick with my job despite e pay. coz it is a ot of rest for me...doesn't tire me at all..but rather recharges me.=)


Today e SMU interview was great...it was fun chatting with e lecturers and cracking dumb jokes and telling them abt myself. perhaps i do love talking abt myself...abt e dev of a person...abt quotes and inspirational msgs...all these qualities will prob make me a great motivational speaker...sis is rite...tt can be my calling after i retire. Talks on being young at heart, on biz, on strategies, on willpower, how to study...watever crap. EASY money and totally fun wheeeeee~~~~~


Corn's getting married soon. I'll be invited. Somehow...i dun feel a tinge of regret or sadness or even envy. I feel a sense of peace i haven't had in yrs...i slight sense of bliss for he has found his happiness and i noe tt happiness will follow him and me in future whereever life leads us...even if life leads us apart we will noe tt e other is happy somewhere else in this world. Rox on~