i pondered upon this...a possible candidate is corn...but i guess not...coz i understand e significance of his existance in my life. perhaps if i meet him...he will tell me how he felt...since i nvr cld profess to understand him...just as i dun understand da. something abt me and ppl i dun understand? erhaps. yest i met up with shan and talk cock for a bit...i realised something acutely...we're all growing up...lol...gonna be 20 in abt 15 months for me. suddenly all so grown up. lol...realised tt coz i saw shan with lipstick/gloss mahz...lol...

i guess of all of them i'm still e most heck care abt e way i look...still e one with e most tao hua yun yet cannot get attached...lol...still e same old me. still e jumpy lil gal who's always laffing and smiling. Thinking back..........my maturity seems to be concealed till time of need.but i noe tt this grp of ppl shan ting qi has walked with me thru many seasons of my life. ppl walk in and out of our lives and these are e ppl whom i wish will nvr leave.

i asked myself if i want to go for e camp...and i found myself asking wat for?? so tt he an hurt me during his 'off' spells....so tt i can stand there and feel hurt and F can feel it coz he can feel tt kinda thing?? so tt daniel can read my mind and inform me of it?? wat for. but still i want to go....look at him and let him noe tt no matter wat happens....i will be ard. so yupz. anyway...i wrote a poem...a tad too early though...

Roses have faded
Violets are dead.
Valentines is over,
Yet........
i'm still missing u.

lol...sudden wave of inspiration on e 190 bus...=D