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11.05.04 (10:41 pm) [edit]
i'm lucky..and special...coz i have e gift of laughter..=)
and laffing makes me happy.
currently as i sit here......i wonder if JE is eons away from me...in terms of psychological dist..just feel tt i dunno him any longer........he's still e same joker...nvr finish qns for exams-JE...but....something's just diff...everytime i say he's changed..he will rep 'learn from u one'....i wonder if i sense some bitterness in him...his comments getting more sacrastic and i may go as far as to say caustic...ppl change...i guess tt i'll just have to get used to this new JE bahz...
nowadays sometimes dun feel like talking on msn esp at nite...sometimes just want some peace and quiet to myself...some time being alone with me. =)...it feels nice...being alone with myself..it made me realise tt i'm special and always will be...and tt i wld love to befriend myself...if i was given a choice to choose a different personality..i wld turn it down...coz i have abit of everything in myself really.....and they pretty much work in my advantage....i love myself whether it is tt happy bouncy me cracking stupid jokes and laffing over nothing or tt quiet brooding me thinking abt life.....i love both sides of me.....
talking to Y rox...he always makes me believe in myself...makes me think tt i really am e best...he always highlights all e gd things abt me as if i am flawless....i realised tt i wld love to have Y as a bro....it's e most comfy r/s we can forge...w/o compromising any of our beliefs, values or interests...i dun like e Y tt will watch a chi serial and rush to tell me...neither do i like e kit who keeps bumping into walls. this is gd.let it continue this way.
i'm starting to study more today...tt's gd....i wrote a to-do list and i'm halfway thru...thanks to God-given strength...i want to be e best...coz 'the most disgraceful thing one can do is to give up, coz she is effectively giving up on herself'....translated from e 9pm tv show.....i won't give up on myself.....no matter wat..i came to pj as e best they have in e arts fac...and i will leave as e best. i won't settle for 2nd best next to some murali...not academic wise at least....i want to make a speech of balancing leadership and studies....i want to be who i am capable of being...and not who i am comfortable of being w/o changing anything......so!! i'm gonna study. =)
and laffing makes me happy.
currently as i sit here......i wonder if JE is eons away from me...in terms of psychological dist..just feel tt i dunno him any longer........he's still e same joker...nvr finish qns for exams-JE...but....something's just diff...everytime i say he's changed..he will rep 'learn from u one'....i wonder if i sense some bitterness in him...his comments getting more sacrastic and i may go as far as to say caustic...ppl change...i guess tt i'll just have to get used to this new JE bahz...
nowadays sometimes dun feel like talking on msn esp at nite...sometimes just want some peace and quiet to myself...some time being alone with me. =)...it feels nice...being alone with myself..it made me realise tt i'm special and always will be...and tt i wld love to befriend myself...if i was given a choice to choose a different personality..i wld turn it down...coz i have abit of everything in myself really.....and they pretty much work in my advantage....i love myself whether it is tt happy bouncy me cracking stupid jokes and laffing over nothing or tt quiet brooding me thinking abt life.....i love both sides of me.....
talking to Y rox...he always makes me believe in myself...makes me think tt i really am e best...he always highlights all e gd things abt me as if i am flawless....i realised tt i wld love to have Y as a bro....it's e most comfy r/s we can forge...w/o compromising any of our beliefs, values or interests...i dun like e Y tt will watch a chi serial and rush to tell me...neither do i like e kit who keeps bumping into walls. this is gd.let it continue this way.
i'm starting to study more today...tt's gd....i wrote a to-do list and i'm halfway thru...thanks to God-given strength...i want to be e best...coz 'the most disgraceful thing one can do is to give up, coz she is effectively giving up on herself'....translated from e 9pm tv show.....i won't give up on myself.....no matter wat..i came to pj as e best they have in e arts fac...and i will leave as e best. i won't settle for 2nd best next to some murali...not academic wise at least....i want to make a speech of balancing leadership and studies....i want to be who i am capable of being...and not who i am comfortable of being w/o changing anything......so!! i'm gonna study. =)