so many times
10.31.04 (5:06 am) [edit]
so many times........
you walked into my life
then u walked out.
so many times........
u made me believe
then dashed my hopes.
so many times........
u left me grinning to myself
then you let my tears flow.
so many times........
u came so near
then left.
so many times........
and this is another time,
that i allowed you to come so close,
just to hurt me again.
corn. does tt ans all e qns u all have in mind? i smsed him today seeking e support tt i knew only he could give me to pull me thru this period...i said tt i am completely sick and tired of studying...and he told me it's a tough time but i will go thru it and excel. he told me to have faith and to nvr give up...he told me tt giving up is not part of my char.....then i asked him how much he knew abt me.....we seldom talk but he nvr surprises me by how much he noes or at least how accurate his reading of me is........then i told him i tot of wat gift to give him le........(frankly....when i told my bro i'm folding stars for da and will fold somemore as a xmas gift..my bro told me to fold 999 for da...and i tot to myself...i'll only do such a uber silly thing for corn)......and corn started laffing and said it's still so early and i shld conc on my exams first and e best gift i can give him is gd results...so i said he sounds like a teacher again and tt he's been most encouraging and i'll go study rite then...then he replied laffing tt i nvr fail to brighten his day and asked me to jiayou...tt made me think...wat did i do?? all i did was grumble abt studies....so i told him tt and he replied 'a simple msg from a great student like u makes a world of a diff'......tt just wow-ed me....in a way......it set me apart i guess......and i dunno him smsing any other student anymore (not from my batch at least)...so i replied tt since he likes my smses so much..i'll sms him more but he can't complain when i get irritating and he said 'of course not. more than happy to recieve your msg'.........
tt may mean so lil to u ppl reading it....but to me it meant tt he din dismiss me as an ex student or he wldn't have said tt i brightened his day.....i dun think any teacher will say tt as a form of politeness..it's just unneccessary......it's amazing how he can make me start running in e oppo direction with just a line...amazing how he can summon such intense emotions from me...just simply amazing how after 4 yrs......i still can't claim tt i dun love him anymore.
i think i have a prob. i somehow always fall for guys who blow hot and cold on me. =X
you walked into my life
then u walked out.
so many times........
u made me believe
then dashed my hopes.
so many times........
u left me grinning to myself
then you let my tears flow.
so many times........
u came so near
then left.
so many times........
and this is another time,
that i allowed you to come so close,
just to hurt me again.
corn. does tt ans all e qns u all have in mind? i smsed him today seeking e support tt i knew only he could give me to pull me thru this period...i said tt i am completely sick and tired of studying...and he told me it's a tough time but i will go thru it and excel. he told me to have faith and to nvr give up...he told me tt giving up is not part of my char.....then i asked him how much he knew abt me.....we seldom talk but he nvr surprises me by how much he noes or at least how accurate his reading of me is........then i told him i tot of wat gift to give him le........(frankly....when i told my bro i'm folding stars for da and will fold somemore as a xmas gift..my bro told me to fold 999 for da...and i tot to myself...i'll only do such a uber silly thing for corn)......and corn started laffing and said it's still so early and i shld conc on my exams first and e best gift i can give him is gd results...so i said he sounds like a teacher again and tt he's been most encouraging and i'll go study rite then...then he replied laffing tt i nvr fail to brighten his day and asked me to jiayou...tt made me think...wat did i do?? all i did was grumble abt studies....so i told him tt and he replied 'a simple msg from a great student like u makes a world of a diff'......tt just wow-ed me....in a way......it set me apart i guess......and i dunno him smsing any other student anymore (not from my batch at least)...so i replied tt since he likes my smses so much..i'll sms him more but he can't complain when i get irritating and he said 'of course not. more than happy to recieve your msg'.........
tt may mean so lil to u ppl reading it....but to me it meant tt he din dismiss me as an ex student or he wldn't have said tt i brightened his day.....i dun think any teacher will say tt as a form of politeness..it's just unneccessary......it's amazing how he can make me start running in e oppo direction with just a line...amazing how he can summon such intense emotions from me...just simply amazing how after 4 yrs......i still can't claim tt i dun love him anymore.
i think i have a prob. i somehow always fall for guys who blow hot and cold on me. =X