i keep getting this feeling tt i'm sinking deeper and deeper into e water...can't breathe.......just sinking inch by inch....talking to HIM now..conversation not really on a happy note........everything started with us talking abt going concert and f and stuff..and i cldn't outtalk his logic in not inviting f...then to change e topic..i asked abt his ex...and he asked me i noe her mehz..well..i dun but he told me stuff before and i realised tt he stopped telling me much things....and he said tt tt's coz he doesn't see a pt in explaining things..well..tt's like not seeing a pt in making me understand things.....to me at least. then he told me tt he doesn't like when ppl noe too much abt him and i dunno too much yet.....he keeps his emotions in..and he keeps them well....to me tt's like talking to a shutted door. and he just f-ing told me tt he dunno himself. frankly i dunno wat to say......am i just being difficult?? i hate him. such strong emotions...just make me want to cry. i hate him coz i love him....does tt make sense?????i hate you.....coz i love u............does tt make sense?????? now i'm like talking to him in riddles...working one basis tt he noes tt i like him.....i told him tt i hate it tt i'm tt readable and he can read everything abt me and he said heh....then i said tt i think and think so much..yet i dunno e ans to wat i'm looking for. like damnit lahz........i guess tt i kinda made myself a promise to find out e ans by this wk...coz i made a stupid gamble lahz...i told myself when my bus was passing orchard tt when e carpark space of this place i passed jumps by 1 and i get to see it jump...i will tell HIM noe........and it did..

f lahz. i seldom scold vulgarities and frankly.....only one person can make me feel this screwed-up also....and he asked me think so much for wat.......how can dun think?? i can die talking to him. wah..i hate him manz. and wat is 'think so much for wat' supposed to mean. means tt just cont as we are?? izzit. wth...i promised to get an ans by this wk...and e ans i got is 'think so much for wat' great ans. i told him tt it's a great ans and i feel like strangling him which is bloody true if u ask me.

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