nice show just now..LOL...very beautiful ending...coz in e end...wuji knew wat he wanted and he has always been drifting thru life until he decided this once to live for himself and not others......i like e part when he's like so anxious...reminds me of some memories....when someone disappears...sadness is diff from wat u feel when e one u love disappears......i rem calling corn....callling and smsing like mad coz he extended his travel tt time w/o telling me....i rem calling and calling and smsing for 2 days....on e 3rd day......he actually picked up e phone..and i felt soo silly i din noe wat to say except tt i tot he got kidnapped.......e replay this yr was when da was supposed to call e ppl and he lost e list...i called and called his hp which was off...i frantically called von and F to ask wat happened to him..i called dee...i called everyone to ask......not coz i was angry tt da din call e ppl...but coz i was scared not noeing wat happened to him...not hm hp also not on...somemore it was almost 10 le....then when i finally got hold of him and started scolding him and demanding an explanation...it was coz i was angry tt he failed in calling them...but coz i was so scared just a while ago tt i din noe wat came over me....when he said tt he deserves e scolding and he sounded so sad and he cut his own hair.....i totally calmed down...coz i realised tt i was so anxious i was unreasonable........sigh.......so therefore i like e ending..LOL

and e part where there are only e 2 of them..tt's so cool.......but i dun think there's anywhere left in this world tt no one ever goes to.....and da very nice sia! i talk to him...he said 'kit. bad mood now. unless u want to kanna crap from me. shhh' okie..at least he warned me before he slaughtered me...sigh.........i wonder if he's feeling wat i'm feeling.....rite now...i just want to walk e sts alone...just walk along alone...can imagine myself walking alone near esplanade there...on e highway thing..walking...thinking.....sitting down when i want to...feeling e breeze in my hair....tt's wat i always want to do when i'm feeling off-focus or sad or watever...just want to live for myself..alone......i wonder if he feels e same way....i just want to walk w/o an aim.....do wat i want...sigh...
oh yah...i spoke to my ex-focus just now...as in corn lahz...not pj..e sch can't talk...talked abt sch and how he very sianz now..end of yr not going abroad etc.....i wanted to ask him when he's getting married but decided tt tt's e cliche qn tt we can do w/o coz e reply will most certainly be 'so u got bf yet??' and as i sit here...i wonder y da breaks off from e rest of e world everytime something happens....an inability to confide and to trust of just tt he wants to be alone to think things thru w/o any comments abt anything and he feels tt words are superfluous against his probs?? i really dunno..i'm e aries who tells all her frens all e probs and ask for advice (afterwhich she applies her own..oh well!!) rite now...online.....no one talking to me!! da's in his own world tt no one can enter......JE doing hw...sam dee qi ting huiteng kaiting MIA...cw away.....wah sianz!!......corn really is a teardrop of mine...and it is a love i wasted i guess...but it's e best way.........(c.f. alec su's ni si wo de yi di lei) sigh......okie then! i shall sit here and muse over da's condition.......

and hmmmm..i realised something....cw doesn't like it when vic comes to him only when she needs help.......i wld love it if da comes to me when he needs help...or when corn needs help.....no matter wat they need...even if i have to write 100 essays i will..even if e essay is abt whether a microchip tt is so tiny i can't see it can be replaced by any other materials. discuss and suggest...i will write 100 variations of tt essay.......sigh....i wish and wish and wish and pray everyday tt when da needs help he will come to me......but still fail 'xue lai de shi huo si fou ni hui xiang qi wo' well.....another alec su song (hobby mahz!) okie.....yah.......obviously these pple dun!! and JE finish hw le...ting also online...at least they MAY xiang qi wo~ =p