i called sis yuli and qi today..din get to talk to sis coz her real sis tot i call wrong number...they really sound alike so i tot she was sis then i shouted sis..then she said wrong number..LOL!!!!!!! anyway..feeling slightly happier...then come online.....see da not happy again..everytime see him end up not happy one....idiot. anyway e show today soooooo nice...so sad...xiaozhao left wuji to save her mom *sob* zhaomin kanna framed.....tt's sad too....and i finally found out e actress name...jia jing wen..sounds familiar lorz..LOL alyssa chia...nice name.. e alyssa..though i dunno how to pronounce it...LOL...i realise something abt zhaomin...she can harm anyone in e world...except e person she loves...she can be so wilful yet so understanding....just love her..LOL...and she can't cook...e way she kill e fish really damn funny...but come to think of it...when i cook i will prob end up like her..LOL..but i'm learning k...wah liew...okie..i'm planning to learn. not girly lahz..wat to do~ and yuli said something tt made sense...when da's mood swing..y must i stand there in e path and get hit?? therefore i plan to stand far far away rite now. if poss...i want to forget him. bleahz. sis is doing quite badly rite now...and her swing is hitting me too..which explains y i'm so miserable. i realise tt i always get influenced by lil things...just now watch e xiaozhao part cry until want die.....then talk to da he so cold i wanted to sing till i lose my voice..very bad...think i must marry someone who's happy all e time...LOL..can u imagine me and da?? can die....he's e same as me kind..even if nothing bad happens also can think too much and sad..diff is tt i can be real happy or real sad...he only exps moderately happy and real real real sad. so yah. bad......i'm currently not talking to him noe. coz apparently he's feeling happy..since his nick say johnson rox...then i guess he got some counselling...so i do not want to ask him wat's wrong...later make him sad again. nothing i can do for him. i shall just accept tt as a fact. hmmm...it's 9.17 now..i shall get a drink at 10....
playing tt coporate game now...i'm leading...LOL!! quite addictive..i play it everyday..dunno y.....very hard to click end game..LOL...makes me think of da...i think it will kill me. i want to stop.....but it's too addictive...but i want to stop as well...coz i can only be happy with him as frens..all he has given me so far is wave after wave of sadness...but whether it is worth it for e lil bit of happiness...i dunno...i want go out with him soon!! argh. at least go out in grps he's nice to me. bleahz

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