sigh
09.14.04 (3:43 am) [edit]
To love is to place your happiness in the happiness of another.....
well...it has been diagnosed...i have come down with a strange illness...e mind-overload illness..LOL..quite common actually..my brain feels so overloaded now...with all e knowledge i have acquired since i first stepped into e very institutions of educations that have been created to entrap me for a good 20 yrs.....as i sit in front of e computer with my econs notes on my table next to me...it makes me wonder y i wld need to noe abt mkt failure...let me tell u abt it...e mkt will fail due to e assumptions of e price mechanism which is e driving force of a free-mkt economy. the price mechanism fails as it is unable to take into acct exts (partial failure) and mkt imperfections such as imperfcot knowledge, immobility of certain resources and e lack of perfect competition i.e. monopoly and oligopoly (esp e collusive ones e.g. OPEC). and fail bcoz it can't provide e damn public gds coz they are characterised by their non-excludability and non-rivalry. Therefore, e Govt must intervene...zzzzzzz.......so far i studied tt today lahz......well........i used to love econs esp ROG coz i always tot it's cool..now i can't rem y i tot so...and i dun think so anymore. studying kills my interest for learning. wat to do.....currently i just want to go to zzz..currently having weird dreams..i made frens with a panther last nite..and i've been having conversations in my dreams like very norm conversations...sometimes get to talk to da..i hope tt my subconscious mind can offer me some insights abt him tt my conscious mind can't pick up yah?? okie.....i shall go cram somemore ROG and mkt failure into my hopelessly saturated mind which is saturated with things other than studies........
shucks..i finiished writing only to realise tt i din write abt yest..tt's almost a sin...well..i went sch study lahz...study and study and study...quite nice studying with e gang of them...are u sure i din write this entry?? y does it seem so familiar..tblog..want cheat me izzit?? okie fine. i realise tt i wrote it in my offline journal...my fault. sorry lahz...okie....chrono order..not in order of impt...i went sch...was smsing Y on e way...we were both 2 bus stops away in e oppo direction. i reached first. by 10secs and laffed abt it for 10 yrs...well. he says tt i walk damn fast..it's called walking with a sense of purpose...anyway..got into sch..saw debbie..LOL..YL WJ fren..quite dumb...maybe WJ likes her..dunno~~ speculation like tt of e 'hot-money' and currency sellers...muahahaha...okie..rubbish..then i went find da take file.....then he insist tt dun have econs file...well...he like 'dun have~ na li you??' until so cute or shld i say act cute tt i cldn't get angry or scold him so i 'nvm~~'...think he's e only person who won't freak me out after he says tt he lost a yr of econs notes plus my geog CD and PT notes..LOL...welllll......really look at me like some poor lil puppy noe.......i nearly died..how to scold?? then okie ahz..we were fine then wat.......then after tt i went back to my place...then study...then after a while beck da law came walking pass...of coz i saw da first..then beck wave so happily..i wave back happily to her too..then i did my usu anon-tortured 'davidtoh' and he ignore me noe! nvr smile nvr wave nvr say hi..then i just stared at him then law was like 'wah liew!! say hi to them nvr say hi to me!!' then i damn paisei...so after tt thru-out e day everytime i see him i wave franticallly..LOL..lucky only saw law twice more...anyway...after tt...i wanted borrow da's specs coz look like secretary...i ask him when he walked pass then he kept quiet?? then i sms him..he rep 'for what =)' like diaoz......is tt supposed to be gd or bad..i took it as gd coz i'm an optimist then i rep 'to look like secretary' then he was like 'study lah =_=' like........okie lorz....then me and Y wanted go makan coz he hungry lahz...then we walked to lib there find his fren...then at e same time da's grp left...i look at him he dun say bye also one...then after tt me and Y went down e ramp coz his fren not hungry..walk walk walk...then saw beck and da again then i was like 'LOL...see u all everywhere lehz' then beck said something like tt..then me and beck HAHAHA lahz...then da so quiet...mood swing izzit...rubbish person..but me and beck so close suddenly abit wow..LOL..like anyhow whack....after tt......hmmmm..study somemore like sam and H came...then we study somemore *sad life* then wah liew!!!!!!!!!!! e SCARY msged me...scary is this siquan guy tt called me e nite before looking for ah seng...i told him wrong number rite..then he call again..sms somemore keep thinking i bluff.......but i not ah seng wat.....then nvm~~ yest he msged me in e afternoon 'sorry ah..i noe u not my fren but his number very similar to yours' then i'm nice rite..then i rep 'nvm' lahz...then tt bloody ah beng horz...msg me again 'dun mind be fren' somemore...his sms all caplock one..so it goes like 'DUN MINE BE FREN' coz he cannot spell too.......sooooooooo freaky!!!!!! then i came up with some cock story tt i'm 34 with 2 kids and a fierce husband...then he still 'NVM LA FREN ONLY.. ALSO NOT GF UNLESS U DUN MIND LA ;)' can die!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to kill him...currently i'm ignoring him?? coz i rep tt i wld mind being frens and i wish tt he can respect my decision which he either too ah beng to understand or he can't respect it. so forget it lahz..got prob...later i ask my 'husband' bash him up...not like i have one..LOL...persistent crap. okie.....after tt...astro came to me looking so distraught...telling me tt choir dying..not disasterous but not up to standard blahz......then he like lil boy tell mommy thing liddat...like pulling at my sleeve 'mama come see' kinda feeling..so i followed him to choir lorz.......it's not tt bad lahz...just tt shawn supposed leader not very gd at public speaking..i mean everyone has flaws....come to think of it..not tt big a deal just tt he likes to make stupid lame jokes and waste time and their planning not say very gd..not gd at promoting projs too......dunno y.....but tt really drained me out when i watched them...i think it's a combi of things. 1. shawn's jokes really cmi and waste like 5 mins talking abt tkd leather belts and breaching them and wat not. 2. astro's consistent 'mewl of disapproval' (quote from GOST) 3. YY doing nothing 4. HX LM gang acting big shot sit at e back and keep smsing. so wat if u are J's gf..he also not ard le 5. F doing nothing 6. da doing wat he hates F to do. when others make announcement not in front, talking to gals. da supposed to hate tt rite..he was doing it lahz..on a swivel chair talking to e other choir ppl laffing and smiling ignoring me. 6. jing made announcement again. like oh wow she bb and dunno who did e board..like is bb in e com?? and who is jing always makes announcements like hello??? all e ppl above her..wat are u all doing?? yah.....somehting like tt...
okie..i think tt's all...conclusion...yest i was damn drained. sigh~
well...it has been diagnosed...i have come down with a strange illness...e mind-overload illness..LOL..quite common actually..my brain feels so overloaded now...with all e knowledge i have acquired since i first stepped into e very institutions of educations that have been created to entrap me for a good 20 yrs.....as i sit in front of e computer with my econs notes on my table next to me...it makes me wonder y i wld need to noe abt mkt failure...let me tell u abt it...e mkt will fail due to e assumptions of e price mechanism which is e driving force of a free-mkt economy. the price mechanism fails as it is unable to take into acct exts (partial failure) and mkt imperfections such as imperfcot knowledge, immobility of certain resources and e lack of perfect competition i.e. monopoly and oligopoly (esp e collusive ones e.g. OPEC). and fail bcoz it can't provide e damn public gds coz they are characterised by their non-excludability and non-rivalry. Therefore, e Govt must intervene...zzzzzzz.......so far i studied tt today lahz......well........i used to love econs esp ROG coz i always tot it's cool..now i can't rem y i tot so...and i dun think so anymore. studying kills my interest for learning. wat to do.....currently i just want to go to zzz..currently having weird dreams..i made frens with a panther last nite..and i've been having conversations in my dreams like very norm conversations...sometimes get to talk to da..i hope tt my subconscious mind can offer me some insights abt him tt my conscious mind can't pick up yah?? okie.....i shall go cram somemore ROG and mkt failure into my hopelessly saturated mind which is saturated with things other than studies........
shucks..i finiished writing only to realise tt i din write abt yest..tt's almost a sin...well..i went sch study lahz...study and study and study...quite nice studying with e gang of them...are u sure i din write this entry?? y does it seem so familiar..tblog..want cheat me izzit?? okie fine. i realise tt i wrote it in my offline journal...my fault. sorry lahz...okie....chrono order..not in order of impt...i went sch...was smsing Y on e way...we were both 2 bus stops away in e oppo direction. i reached first. by 10secs and laffed abt it for 10 yrs...well. he says tt i walk damn fast..it's called walking with a sense of purpose...anyway..got into sch..saw debbie..LOL..YL WJ fren..quite dumb...maybe WJ likes her..dunno~~ speculation like tt of e 'hot-money' and currency sellers...muahahaha...okie..rubbish..then i went find da take file.....then he insist tt dun have econs file...well...he like 'dun have~ na li you??' until so cute or shld i say act cute tt i cldn't get angry or scold him so i 'nvm~~'...think he's e only person who won't freak me out after he says tt he lost a yr of econs notes plus my geog CD and PT notes..LOL...welllll......really look at me like some poor lil puppy noe.......i nearly died..how to scold?? then okie ahz..we were fine then wat.......then after tt i went back to my place...then study...then after a while beck da law came walking pass...of coz i saw da first..then beck wave so happily..i wave back happily to her too..then i did my usu anon-tortured 'davidtoh' and he ignore me noe! nvr smile nvr wave nvr say hi..then i just stared at him then law was like 'wah liew!! say hi to them nvr say hi to me!!' then i damn paisei...so after tt thru-out e day everytime i see him i wave franticallly..LOL..lucky only saw law twice more...anyway...after tt...i wanted borrow da's specs coz look like secretary...i ask him when he walked pass then he kept quiet?? then i sms him..he rep 'for what =)' like diaoz......is tt supposed to be gd or bad..i took it as gd coz i'm an optimist then i rep 'to look like secretary' then he was like 'study lah =_=' like........okie lorz....then me and Y wanted go makan coz he hungry lahz...then we walked to lib there find his fren...then at e same time da's grp left...i look at him he dun say bye also one...then after tt me and Y went down e ramp coz his fren not hungry..walk walk walk...then saw beck and da again then i was like 'LOL...see u all everywhere lehz' then beck said something like tt..then me and beck HAHAHA lahz...then da so quiet...mood swing izzit...rubbish person..but me and beck so close suddenly abit wow..LOL..like anyhow whack....after tt......hmmmm..study somemore like sam and H came...then we study somemore *sad life* then wah liew!!!!!!!!!!! e SCARY msged me...scary is this siquan guy tt called me e nite before looking for ah seng...i told him wrong number rite..then he call again..sms somemore keep thinking i bluff.......but i not ah seng wat.....then nvm~~ yest he msged me in e afternoon 'sorry ah..i noe u not my fren but his number very similar to yours' then i'm nice rite..then i rep 'nvm' lahz...then tt bloody ah beng horz...msg me again 'dun mind be fren' somemore...his sms all caplock one..so it goes like 'DUN MINE BE FREN' coz he cannot spell too.......sooooooooo freaky!!!!!! then i came up with some cock story tt i'm 34 with 2 kids and a fierce husband...then he still 'NVM LA FREN ONLY.. ALSO NOT GF UNLESS U DUN MIND LA ;)' can die!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to kill him...currently i'm ignoring him?? coz i rep tt i wld mind being frens and i wish tt he can respect my decision which he either too ah beng to understand or he can't respect it. so forget it lahz..got prob...later i ask my 'husband' bash him up...not like i have one..LOL...persistent crap. okie.....after tt...astro came to me looking so distraught...telling me tt choir dying..not disasterous but not up to standard blahz......then he like lil boy tell mommy thing liddat...like pulling at my sleeve 'mama come see' kinda feeling..so i followed him to choir lorz.......it's not tt bad lahz...just tt shawn supposed leader not very gd at public speaking..i mean everyone has flaws....come to think of it..not tt big a deal just tt he likes to make stupid lame jokes and waste time and their planning not say very gd..not gd at promoting projs too......dunno y.....but tt really drained me out when i watched them...i think it's a combi of things. 1. shawn's jokes really cmi and waste like 5 mins talking abt tkd leather belts and breaching them and wat not. 2. astro's consistent 'mewl of disapproval' (quote from GOST) 3. YY doing nothing 4. HX LM gang acting big shot sit at e back and keep smsing. so wat if u are J's gf..he also not ard le 5. F doing nothing 6. da doing wat he hates F to do. when others make announcement not in front, talking to gals. da supposed to hate tt rite..he was doing it lahz..on a swivel chair talking to e other choir ppl laffing and smiling ignoring me. 6. jing made announcement again. like oh wow she bb and dunno who did e board..like is bb in e com?? and who is jing always makes announcements like hello??? all e ppl above her..wat are u all doing?? yah.....somehting like tt...
okie..i think tt's all...conclusion...yest i was damn drained. sigh~