hmmmmm
09.11.04 (4:59 pm) [edit]
yest i had a nice conversation with yuli..long time no chat lorz..thru e conversation...i confirmed a few things.
1. i'm smart manz...cannot say y..coz rubin reading..then rubin will tell grace..then whole world will noe..but i'm smart...let's just say tt events tend to replay themselves..over and over again until we learn e lesson from them.....i dunno how to stop this particular cycle coz i can't understand e lesson behind it..so yah..but i'm still clever!!
2. i realised tt love is a funny thing...coz yuli asked me wat's likeable abt wj......i took like donkey yrs...can only think of 2...one. he does well in sch..but tt's coz he's a mugger and not coz he's smart. and i dun like muggers...so in e end..not very likeable..but determined bahz to replace pt 1. LOL..pt 2. his mom works in novena?? LOL!!! tt doesn't really count so hmmm..LOL...then...she asked me wat's likeable abt da...i realise tt i like everything abt him. not tt he's flawless he can be damn cock-pain...but! i like e flaws...then tt reminded me of something i read in sec sch tt i still rem...acquintance is when e hate e flaws of e pple. frens are pple u ignore e flaws of. best frens are pple u accept e flaws of. love is when u love e flaws. something like tt lahz..dun rem e exact phrasing..i was like sec 2 lahz..LOL...anyway...i told yuli tt i'm dead set on this..LOL..unusual of me to be so certain. but just as i am certain tt i love him..i am certain tt i will fail...oh well..this seems depressing but it's quite okie...i think he will end up e 2nd corn to me...someone i hide in my heart for damn long..LOL...until e 3rd corn comes along......
okie...3rd thing i realised
it's great talking to frens...really miss talking to yuli....after all we are/were?? best frens during e first 3 mths...and really close during choir too...frens rox. i came into this world with nothing...and love was given to me..from family and frens.....so i am grateful...=)...at least i will leave with something...and no..i'm not suicidal..LOL!! i tot of something really lame last nite...but i dun think i can live if myself if i do it..too scheming..LOL...i think it will work..but i dun want to cheat love. if things work..they will...i can work hard to make them work..but i cannot plot to make it work...LOL...i guess my dad is right..my capacity to do gd and work evil really is immense....scary sometimes...
1. i'm smart manz...cannot say y..coz rubin reading..then rubin will tell grace..then whole world will noe..but i'm smart...let's just say tt events tend to replay themselves..over and over again until we learn e lesson from them.....i dunno how to stop this particular cycle coz i can't understand e lesson behind it..so yah..but i'm still clever!!
2. i realised tt love is a funny thing...coz yuli asked me wat's likeable abt wj......i took like donkey yrs...can only think of 2...one. he does well in sch..but tt's coz he's a mugger and not coz he's smart. and i dun like muggers...so in e end..not very likeable..but determined bahz to replace pt 1. LOL..pt 2. his mom works in novena?? LOL!!! tt doesn't really count so hmmm..LOL...then...she asked me wat's likeable abt da...i realise tt i like everything abt him. not tt he's flawless he can be damn cock-pain...but! i like e flaws...then tt reminded me of something i read in sec sch tt i still rem...acquintance is when e hate e flaws of e pple. frens are pple u ignore e flaws of. best frens are pple u accept e flaws of. love is when u love e flaws. something like tt lahz..dun rem e exact phrasing..i was like sec 2 lahz..LOL...anyway...i told yuli tt i'm dead set on this..LOL..unusual of me to be so certain. but just as i am certain tt i love him..i am certain tt i will fail...oh well..this seems depressing but it's quite okie...i think he will end up e 2nd corn to me...someone i hide in my heart for damn long..LOL...until e 3rd corn comes along......
okie...3rd thing i realised
it's great talking to frens...really miss talking to yuli....after all we are/were?? best frens during e first 3 mths...and really close during choir too...frens rox. i came into this world with nothing...and love was given to me..from family and frens.....so i am grateful...=)...at least i will leave with something...and no..i'm not suicidal..LOL!! i tot of something really lame last nite...but i dun think i can live if myself if i do it..too scheming..LOL...i think it will work..but i dun want to cheat love. if things work..they will...i can work hard to make them work..but i cannot plot to make it work...LOL...i guess my dad is right..my capacity to do gd and work evil really is immense....scary sometimes...