currently. listening to sway by michael buble. welll......well well well..rubin says she's traumatised by my blog..LOL..maybe too intense for her bahz..no vulgarities can..she's not even traumatised by tt worm's blog..traumatised by me?? brain too powerful for her..muahahaha...currently again. listening to 'the reason' =X..suddenly most pop song in sch sia...i must say tt Y achieved e aim of all musicians..to bring music to e masses and touch their hearts...suddenly! everyone either poring over lyrics of it or pasting lyrics in their blogs..wah liew..dunno wat to say. dunno dunno dunno wat to say. i really want go coz's place lehz..be it a bi men xiu lian thing..a retreat thing..i dunno. i hope tt things will become clearer there. i am running away. i noe it. yet at e same time i am walking towards...i am running away from Y but at e same time..running towards da. i noe this seems stupid. sounds stupid. i dun even noe wat i want...y am i choosing a course of action. true. i admit tt undoubtingly i do feel something for Y...but i still like da more. i think. whoever i choose...trouble will follow. u may think me dumb. y do i always not choose those who like me and choose those who dun like me?? asking me ahz..i dunno. it's funny how me and Y talk everyday... wah liew..currenly new song again How can i not love you. funny y even e songs tt i choose to rep them are back to back. i dunno y. i really dunno y and no one can tell me y i am like this. i need to escape. i need to think. let me have e whole day to think. thurs. fri. sat..3 thinking days. i dunno..maybe abit of a cynic..i wanted communication. i found communication just tt it's not in e person i want. maybe i'm just funny. no denying it. u and de promised to talk thru e nite. i wonder if we can ever manage tt..i understand tt u are acting as e counsellor here. and i understand tt this is not e r/s i want. coz as i have said...professionalism means tt e counsellor shld nvr fall for e counsellee...well......it's conplicated enuf w/o infringing on anymore ethnical grds so yah. even if e 2 of us were to talk for a whole nite........do we have enuf things to talk abt i wonder...i cannot do small talk for a whole nite. and i noe it. i talk abt life. abt love. abt e past. e present. e future. let's try thurs..i dun think i can stay out e whole nite..at least till midnite bahz...9 to 12..not too bad...if it works...can always invite u to my coz's to talk somemore till maybe 3 or 4 am?? i dunno. i really dunno wat's my coz's limit..LOL..well......i dunno if i can ever understand u. maybe i nvr will...thinking if i shld give u e file. small thing only. considering so much abt wat u will think. whether it's too formal a r/s. i dunno..head going to explode..then just now recalled a conversation me and yuli had...bad foreboding..must talk to her too..but not online..zzzz

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