i try to be all so perfect for u..but i guess.......things won't work. i am so excited abt every lil thing...but in e end..it's a roller coaster ride..i guess u really dun love me in tt way...today...i said tt my bfs din even notice my new specs..u replied 'boyfren?' i tot u cared. then i said 'best frens. did u even notice tt i have new specs?' and u replied 'yes. =p' i tot u cared enuf. only to reply 'then u can be my bf instead LOL' and met with a 'best friend.' rep.......i guess.....not then. if u did like me...u wld have rep 'yup ;)' or at least a 'yup' instead of spelling things out as if it's some fucking stupid contract tt u may have to pawn ur life away with. by stating e terms so certainly. so surely. perhaps thing s betwn us wld be better if i din noe abt ur parentage. perhaps things will be better if i din like u so much. i dun care who u are hiding behind u..e split u. i can accept it. i can accept anything abt u if u will just show me coz i can't reject any part of u coz i will be rejecting u. i noe i won't. this is so fucking stupid lahz..u just made my mood swing with one sms. and everyone noes i only use e F word when i'm feeling real oFF. well.......if all we can be are best frens. i accept it. i will find it within myself to treat every thing we talk abt as if it's some fricking contract as well when i ask u to yang me for a day as a joke and u tell me tt u will only do tt for ur wife. and when i ask u if u will help me u will say tt i must spell things out first and when i tell u tt u can be my bf u will spell out best fren. well.......i have to find it within myself to accept tt. bizman in u. i will have to accept tt. tt is ur upbringing.

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