nearly end of wk..hope tmr's report on work will be more optimistic..plan to cheong tonite though will be dead tired tmr.. well..went back crez tday..saw corn..at first da say he mood swing..coz of byby they all lahz...then after tt when i saw him..he seemed okie wat..LOL..anyway..yes..i did my regular routine..saw corn..told him to faster get married coz my sch teachers tt are engaged all got probs..then told him tt he nvr tells me his probs very not fren..then he said it's too personal..so okie lorz..guess we not tt close after all then. then i told him later she run away how?? he say dun care. wat kinda rubbish is tt..anyway..after tt..kinda not very dim summy coz real exp lahz..but deeso dimsummy so we went..then end up pay $25 for e buffet..crazy manz..cannot go out with these unitypple..will spend alot of money..and will go hm damn late..i met them at like 10+..i left early for hm at 8 lahz..left coz they were planning dinner and my dad will screw me if i dun come back for dinner coz he bought food.anyway..e choir standard in crez really dropped...saddening..and they dun even look happy when they sing..but oh well..jiayou..dun feel tt strongly for crez choir really..maybe just certain pple in it...but yupz...feel more for pjchoir...LOL..anyway~~ e dimsum tasted nice and i nearly died eating. in e end..nvr help stro with econs as planned as well. but was gd lahz..hang out with e uty pple..then after a while..da's fren joined us..named des..anyway..before he came..we took neoprints..i yet to get my set..but anyway..e neoprints were fun..keep taking de..then e first few shots dun really have me coz i not very proactive in these kinda things..then after tt i picked up a guess..after a while..somehow..after a few changes in positions da came over and stood next to me..LOL..then so crazy stuck his face to mine or on mine..end up he kept saying tt he's smelling my hair or kissing my hair..who ask him stupid. then after tt machine we change machine rite..i just kneel down to take lorz then he came and kneel next to me..LOL..then stick his face so close..then make some stupid want kiss my face action liddat..and then he like to stick out his tongue somemore..LOL...nearly hit me with his tongue lahz..wah liew..so long e tongue..then change place and dee came over..then we look so sweet in tt neoprint..like sisters..but jae still my fav sis!! LOL..and tt des is frenly manz..he cannot rem names..so i told me to rem me by my sis..kitten..and after tt he really rem my name lahz..so lame..LOL..anyway...after tt we basically walk ard lorz..and deefunny..she made such a big deal out of clarifying to me tt she and da not together..and tt although they like each other alotalot..it's e sibling kind..funny lahz..but okie lorz..then we walk ard and ard e shopping centres lorz wanting to buy bottles and pencil cases..in e end..amongst us..we bought shades a green tee neoprints exp food diff kinds of drinks..tried on tons of clothes..esp da..since he can afford we help him find nice clothes at topman. then he go change..and i can't believe he said tt 'he look nice in e shirt coz he shuai in e first place mahz!' suddenly got ego..not bad..i love tt..better than he always sadly say he ugly. i like tt. honesty. coz i noe tt he noes tt he's not ugly deep inside he just wants to say tt he's ugly and think tt he's ugly. so yah. then dee looked real nice in this red thing.. dee is so e look hot kind..i'm so e look sweet kind..LOL..anyway~ great day..but my legs were so breaking i was walking bare-footed at topshop XP anyway..anyway!! spend so much today..realised tt my bank acct left 130..this calls for drastic measures..told my dad to give me a monthly allowance..then i can save more money this way..(i hope)

okie!! must study. shit lahz..my this wk to-do list got 25 things..i did 4 lahz. total sux. i will die if i go on like this. and anyway..very impt. buy something for jae..wheeeee..this can splurge..i will splurge for impt pple of my life..and hmmmmm..although Y will nvr read this..i'm really sorry to hear abt ur sis..but i noe tt u love her all e same.. and tt's wat matters and she will find consolation in ur love so u must fight on for her. and da...who also won't read this..hopefully not. if u are reading this i will kill u. well..i can't imagine wat he went thru..seeing how he gets his allowance by cheque transfers to his bank acct and i noe tt it's diff to live a life when ur dad gives u cheques and brings u shopping at G2000 and e last time u all went out together was 3 yrs ago..but everyone has a diff life to live..a sec 2 boy lives with his mom f-ing other guys in his 1-rm flat whilst he still loves his dad who abandoned them. his mom will just tell him to go downstairs lahz..someone else i noe lives with a handicap sis and parents who loved e sis so much they treat him like a gal and dun let him go out with frens...another person i noe loves someone so much and are engaged yet may have to break up coz he's been straying....wat u are facing is nothing. at sec 3..i learnt how to pursue wat i love and believe in. and then...i grew somemore and learnt tt sometimes we have to let go of wat we love to see it blossom and grow. now..everytime i see u..i feel tt u are getting more and more you wei dao..esp this yr..and i noe deep in my heart tt it's coz i let u go. i noe tt u prob still can't let me go yet which explains y u plan to get engaged e yr i turn 21..prob e last chance u plan to give urself. but well..things can change and they have. i've learnt tt e best i can give u is not to give u anything. and to draw a fullstop to this thing tt u keep putting '...' to. i loved u. and perhaps i still do. but time to put tt fullstop and move on...u have ur fiance..i HOPE to have tt certain someone. time to let e dust settle betwn us.....

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