had tt dumb parent teacher meeting..still damn sad..in my act of vengence against my dad..i finished all e rice in e cooker..tt was dumb...but i feel abit better now..next step is to finish all e water and drinks..wtf sia..this totally sux...keep tearing and crying..dunno y...maybe it's an accumulation of everything...my life..feels so screwed now..i want to live my own life..i feel so shelfed..i can't choose wat i want..i just can't. i can't choose to stay with choir..i cldn't choose corn..i can't choose wat i want to do during e break..i can't choose my parents..i can't choose my life. period. plus...yy veed and S will be gone..my support will be gone at 6 pm today...wtf..wat do i do w/o it. do i give up in despair and just hide under my blanket?? can i choose to forsake this world?? a tot stuck me today..if i die tmr...all these idiots will live with e regret..but i noe tt i with regret even more with my premature death. so it's not an option..just as boh said..failure is not an option. failure was nvr an option for me. this is wat u get when u are a damn over achiever who thinks u can be a leader a scholar a understanding person a pragmatic person all rolled into one..this is e shit u get.