sad....for so many jumbled reasons i can't explain it. dennis is rite...life can only get more complicated. let me think wat it really is...

results: got back e same grade for econs and lit...but my lit mks dropped...was told my geog was a disappointment by ozzie. sux. and i think eddie dun like me. his comments for my lit sux...but got 20 for my R&G...theatre of e absurd...guess my life really is absurd. prob just abit stressed abt geog and eddie..actually quite stressed abt geog

frens: maybe just tt i feel like me and JE drifting apart...trying to bridge e gulf. maybe coz i dunno where to place e 2 of u..

love: abstinance...e latest word for me manz...keeping away. i must keep away.. no. 1 H is too into it le...she's on earth now...noeing next to nothing abt u...i can't pull her down to hell. therefore.. i only have a word for u sorry. i noe tt u are weak and u so deeply wish for someone u love to love u too. but i can't. i dun want to wait for u to tell me tt u love u...or even wait to see if u do for e matter. coz i dun want to love u. no. i dun. i can feel tt we are drifting apart slightly too...i want to bridge tt gap/ but....shld i?? it's for e gd for everyone tt i dun......no.2 i just disappointed myself again. i shldn't have msged u...(diff person le...argh)...wth...so many pple in my life. i shldn't. and u disappointed me too. u showed me a mask. i shall just have to tell myself tt it's a mask and i shld get myself out of it..i can't trust u anymore...i can't believe u anymore. i dun want to. wat u present to me is wat u want me to see...it is not u...i repeat...it is NOT u. so buzz off.....soooo y did i msg u???? argh. i can't believe this. let me hate u. can u do tt?? i wish. to walk. away.