wonderings
06.20.04 (4:46 am) [edit]
hmmmm...i went out with qi and ting today...but was late coz church ended late ahz...sigh.....somehow i feel kinda off just now i guess...so stone during e whole shopping thing...can't quite put my finger on y too...guess tt there's alot of things running thru my mind?? feel like my mood's kinda volatile these days too...i guess...tt there's too much things happening this yr........so much tt i keep losing my equilibrim pt........i simply dunno wat to do now...feel drained i guess....
i'm a gal who has my idea of how things shld be like...be things dun always meet my expectations....then i feel disappointed i guess...but even God does not try to control everything! who am i to try to change everything to wat i want them to be like?? i need a hero i guess...and i do have a prob with wat weiqi said...although me ting and qi laffed abt it today...joked abt it today...but i'm not comfortable with this new realisation.......i dun like it...it makes me feel like i nvr left corn behind though i feel like i am thinking abt him less now...din even think of him during e turbulence...if someone asked me.....who wld i think of on e brink of death...corn will be on e list...but it din happen....at e pt when i tot tt i walked away...qi had to suggest me an alternative view...tt i have deluded myself into thinking tt i like ji'en because he looks abit like corn (though i still can't see e resemblance).....perhaps it's horrible too tt i can't see any resemblance...perhaps i shldn't meet corn for dinner anymore...i dun want to be caught in a whirlpool again...........
but...i dun want to look for traces of corn in ji'en either...i din love corn for his looks...i did think of corn vs ji'en before...but i have always seen them as completely diff...coz corn is loud...vocal...a leader...when he was in JC he skipped all his tutorials...led in stuff...did quite badly in 'A's...in uni he headspeared substation...i guess....tt he is quite like me...bday abt e same pple abt e same i guess...i must admit tt i have tried to look for corn in many pple...but none have struck me as close......so i dunno y things get so blurry now...weiqi...i'm gonna kill u!!!!!
i'm a gal who has my idea of how things shld be like...be things dun always meet my expectations....then i feel disappointed i guess...but even God does not try to control everything! who am i to try to change everything to wat i want them to be like?? i need a hero i guess...and i do have a prob with wat weiqi said...although me ting and qi laffed abt it today...joked abt it today...but i'm not comfortable with this new realisation.......i dun like it...it makes me feel like i nvr left corn behind though i feel like i am thinking abt him less now...din even think of him during e turbulence...if someone asked me.....who wld i think of on e brink of death...corn will be on e list...but it din happen....at e pt when i tot tt i walked away...qi had to suggest me an alternative view...tt i have deluded myself into thinking tt i like ji'en because he looks abit like corn (though i still can't see e resemblance).....perhaps it's horrible too tt i can't see any resemblance...perhaps i shldn't meet corn for dinner anymore...i dun want to be caught in a whirlpool again...........
but...i dun want to look for traces of corn in ji'en either...i din love corn for his looks...i did think of corn vs ji'en before...but i have always seen them as completely diff...coz corn is loud...vocal...a leader...when he was in JC he skipped all his tutorials...led in stuff...did quite badly in 'A's...in uni he headspeared substation...i guess....tt he is quite like me...bday abt e same pple abt e same i guess...i must admit tt i have tried to look for corn in many pple...but none have struck me as close......so i dunno y things get so blurry now...weiqi...i'm gonna kill u!!!!!