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haven't blogged in awhile...coz recently realized that there's nth much to say bahz. coz suddenly i seem alot more focussed on what i want and i'm just pursuing it. dunno what caused the change also. but i'm suddenly less slack in terms of deadlines. like...i finished my report 24 hrs before it's due! tt's amazing for me at least.
kinda feel abit sianz of sch. but i ask myself if my effort is worth it and of coz it's worth it coz it's only once in ur life when u can make a difference to a piece of paper that follows u ard for life. funny coz i felt stress e other day. quite an alien feeling for me i guess. seems like there's so much to do. mountain of stuff. yet, somehow egoistic me will believe that i need to do them and not delegate them out since ppl will ask me lots of qns anyway. might as well do it myself. less trouble. at least one report is done!
now i'm looking fwd to starting my changing LS proj. somehow...feel that e topic is much more fun, much more creative...and much more thinking rather than integrating the thoughts of academics. -_-. LOL! and i'm thinking abt my test next wk too..since i have like 60 slides per lect, 10 lects and e slides kinda fall into the following pattern:
Name of Scientist (Years he lived)
Life Story
Invention no. 1
Invention no. 2
multiple that by 60 then 10. yah...now u can guess how i feel. LOL!! what an impossible mod.
finally...have to confess that e busier i am, more tied up i am...e less i think that relationships matter. more cold-blooded! LOL!! suddenly...for once....i dun care abt who likes me. i don't have feelings for anyone. and i can't be bothered to put in effort to get to know anyone!!! LOL!!!!!!!
funny that i didn't talk to T for 1 whole wk and when he msn-ed me last night asking me out on my bday. i told him 'need to do proj.' LOL!!! anyway i guess that he thinks i'm avoiding him coz after much persuasion and him asking e rest of e 'family'. i said yes. so he asked y i said such a firm no to him. -_-.
Last of all..i still can't stop thinking abt what uncle said when he counselled e youths e other day over the break-up. just sth that i dunno whether to agree with...
1. that someone isn't responsible for how he turns out. i guess that everyone must be responsible to some extent. at least i'll like to think that. maybe 5% to 10% is coz of that person? but it's also true that we are who we are..i.e. even how we react and cope with things is coz of how we're brought up. dunno!!
Then i pondered over other stuff he said.
1. if someone loves another person more than e other person loves him back...it's a problem. yah...i think it's a big problem too. but isn't that normal?
2. thinking abt youths in general. how sometimes they can be irresponsible...and how it's part of growing up bahz.
okie....enough rambling on for today i guess.