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recently...it seems that i am confronted with many many many many questions.
1. elitism
i don't think someone who does very well in things is elitist. That person can be an elite but not elitist. and i cannot stand it when ppl are elitist. funny that i am confronted with such issues recently. what sparked if off was of coz e roundtable on leadership...today as i was speaking to my mom abt edu issues...i suddenly got a pretty agitated thinking tt through uni results...students are selected for various opportunities like internships, mentorships and the like. just bcoz a student is in dean's list doesn't mean that he has e skills to serve a company well. but it seems that being in e dean's list when u're in yr 2 or sth means tt u are set to be headhunted. then i wondered abt reports of undergrads finding it hard to get jobs. perhaps ppl dun realize tt there are yr 2s, yr 1s who are already headhunted into the positions tt ppl study so hard, interview so hard for. just rather disturbed. then i felt relieved that i am not in either e headhunted nor the trying so hard to land a job just coz my results nvr exceeded a certain mark grp. but...i realized tt i'm in e scholar grp which isn't exactly any less elitist. -_-. but i guess tt if i'm not in e scholar grp..i'm not in e uni sys simply coz my parents won't want to fund me. soooo..no choice!!! everyone is stuck in this sys. not that it's better to be outside it. coz even if u're outside e uni sys. you're still stuck in the societal sys. disturbed.
then today i was disturbed further...coz i went out with this youth, called J. we were happily walking along e pavement and singing 'shuo ai ni' (dun ask me y i was singing in public!). but anyway...2 gals approached us to do a survey. no offence to christians...i think most are fine...but tt 2 gals aren't. at least one of them wasn't. LOL!! the convo went sth like this:
*me and J filling up forms*
*J asking me what 'comments', 'impression' etc meant*
*i translated them into chi for her*
anyone with eyes can tell tt J is super young..in fact...she looks pri 4 though she's in sec 2.
gal: wah...why you so zai? (referring to my ability to translate eng to chi
me: coz i'm old
gal: how are the two of you related?
*me busy translating stuff*
gal: are you sisters?
me: no
gal: cousins?
me: no
gal: i noe!!! you kidnapped her
me: yah (already a lil pissed coz i was obviously trying very hard to ensure tt J can finish her survey whilst she and her fren didn't bother to explain e terms to J)
gal: really?!
*silence*
when all seemed well...
gal: why u so zai?!
me: coz i am old lahz!!! (increasingly angry. coz being able to translate 'propaganda' into chi isn't exactly zai)
gal: then why she what also dunno?
me: *incensed* coz she's YOUNG!!!
gal: why she so lousy??
me (greatly angered by the word 'lousy') gives a -_- face. coz she's young lahz!!!
gal: how old is she?
J: sec 2
gal: But i also sec 2 lehz!!!!!!!! why you dunno the words?! *totally stunned face*
i was damn pissed. but J was there so i held my tongue. wanted to ask if she only lives in her express stream world. i mean..even if u do...you still have to be sensitive to the fact tt not all living beings noe what 'comment' means. -_-.
anyway after tt...there was silence. awkward silence. then at e end...she insisted on us writing our contact numbers so tt she can tell us abt future church events. -_-. obviously we didn't. and i just told her curtly 'just email us.' and we walked off. insensitive idiot. how wld she like it if someone her age told her tt she's lousy? -_-.
perhaps singaporeans are less understanding of differences these days. maybe we shld follow e concept of eugenics and store e genes of nobel prize winners to make sure that everyone wld at least now e meaning of the word 'comments' by e age 14...or better still...'propaganda'.
okie lahz...very agitated! LOL!!!!! but i had a very interesting day though it was really draining esp mentally as i tried to understand what goes thru e mind of J...esp when she has 2 bfs (one in msia and 1 in sg). and she wants to break with e sg one but is doing it thru a guy whom she's rumoured to be ai mei with and they're going to act as a couple then e guy will tell her bf tt she wants to break. LOL!!! logic's quite baffling. i understand tt e guy may wanted to help her coz he likes her. but she's more than willing to accept e help. really interesting. and she doesn't mind if both guys get their gangs together and start a fight. i certainly need a few days to digest this!! before i make time to go down for e prog on tues to observe e ongoings and defuse e bombs if necessary. life is nvr boring when u work with youths!!! LOL!! too bad i can't put tt into my very empty clem publicity blog!!!
and i spoke so much abt e first issue that i give up talking abt e others for tonite at least! LOL!!!