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thinking thinking...abt many many things first of all...i thought above all about how i'm like as a person..it's strange tt i learn sth new about myself everyday.
yest...i learnt tt i can be so schizo. can argue both sides to the same issue but i dunno y after i randomly decide on one side...i can still argue so seriously for it. tt's totally weird since i can easily argue for the other side as well!! and whichever side i argue for...i dun care....i just want to win e argument. gosh!! luckily i dun argue with myself. if not i can just make myself cry by being intimidating to myself. LOL!!!! makes me wonder if really my principles and beliefs are that strong...since i can easily argue against them and still win. perhaps i acquired this (i would call it a flaw) from my training in arts bahz.
e other thing was tt i was on e bus today....and i was sitting behind this auntie who was talking to herself or perhaps God. but anyway she was speaking to no physical being about her life. and i heard some snippets of it and felt really sad after tt....she was saying that she wld like to have a job...any job will do. and she said sth about her children resenting her and her husband having an affair and having brought the woman home. and she got off at e nus interchange...looking really lost. i wanted to go ask her where she wanted to go to but she got onto e bus again and e driver drove e bus over to e counter. somehow....looking at her...i felt overwhelmed with sadness coz it's so much easier to reach out to someone who's physically lacking than someone who's emotionally lacking and as much as i wished to help her...i have no idea how to approach her. if i see someone hungry, i can buy that person lunch. there are projects for them...in fact most special projs in comserv give these ppl things. then for reg volunteering, we work with children, elderly, youths, id, terminally ill..but there are ppl out there who don't fall neatly into these categories who really need a listening ear but have no idea where to go to. just felt so sad watching her. so much so tt i went to tutorial abit depressed.
but e funniest and cockiest thing happened!!! as i placed my bag on e table...e strap of my bag broke. -_-. how many ppl have a broken bag in sch. -_-. but instead of making me sad....i kept laughing coz it's soooo cock! and i had to hide my bag in e tut rm cupboard to collect later during e gs event. lucky it's a geog tut!!!! and there's an event after tt. then i carried random stuff ard from arts to sci and back again. and so malu! coz i was paisei to leave tut early and e tutor called me by my shortened name and not my full name and asked in front of e whole class 'dun u need to leave early? u want to leave now??' LOL!!!! so malu!!!!!!!!! then everyone noes tt my bag strap broke. and they know my name too! -_-. then i had to drop my txtbk due to my armful of things. LOL!!!!!!!!!!
i cannot stand. tooooo funny! LOL! cracked me up.
then i had a wonderful presentation which left my grp members in awe. i dunno how i managed to speak like tt either. i just stood in front of e lect grp which had lil ppl since most ppl ponned and talk lorz. and i can't believe tt e ppl responded to my presentation e.g. put up hands and stuff when i asked qns like whether they read e daily horoscope. LOL!!!! so funny. but fun...felt like a teacher! >_<!
and lect with zj was fun coz hf fell asleep and finally stopped interrupting e tut. and he made a super lame joke tt zj kept thinking was an impt pt. e qn was 'why do we study cities' then hf said 'coz we dun study e ctryside.' LOL!!!! then zj tot it must have been a highly enlightening pt and kept trying to tease sth out. LOL!!!!!
then finally i followed val dear to her grp meeting which left me totally speechless...val din tell me tt her grp had like 6 or 7 ppl or sth. anyway i went ard getting/zapping/borrowing bks and all. and finally C who's totally nice helped me bring my bag over to e gs room and i put my bag into an environmental bag...which is this green thing tt tells us to save our Earth. and i carried tt ard inviting stares...but i realized tt i'm damn weird...i din mind e attention! LOL!!!!!! sth wrong with me.
argh...i cannot stand my day!! too funny!!!!