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haven't blogged in 10 yrs....coz i've been suffering the blunt of politics day in day out. from both comserv and gs. yah lorz...gs retire le still got politics...oh well. but i'm glad that as of this very special day...i've settled both...okie lahz...settled gs 2 days back. i guess that i was abit disappointed with Y given her extremely futile attempt at trying to install change by putting words into my mouth and citing me...ruling by fear is e worst kinda leadership...plus i doubt tt many ppl will fear me mahz...i also retire le..LOL!
then i finally came to terms with alot of probs in comserv today....partly coz i nvr quite liked e beneficiary of e latest project nor did i like e ambitious planning with events that are pretty irrelevant to the objectives of e proj...and i din like how everything was decided not by e proj directors but by e ex pres. but i stopped in my tracks today...coz after all e politics, the bitching and everything....as i saw e comm ppl looking so crestfallen, saw laogong looking distressed and saw nu-er sobbing....i realized one thing...that it's easy to see the politics...but it's harder to see that no matter how screwed things are...the ppl involved are having a very real experience rather than a discursive one. it's easy for e ppl in e comm, for ppl outside to comm to discuss how screwed the thing is...but it's hard for the ppl themselves to live out the experience.
i've decided to stop talking abt it...(though ppl call me everynite to discuss wat we can possibly do) but to actually do everything i can to help the project. so everyone reading this!!! join e event k? just contact me! e avg amt of $ raised per 2 hrs at each booth so far is $62.50...divide that by 3 volunteers...tt's like $20...and illegal things were done to raise tt amt. but no more...coz they got caught...but no matter! i shall aim to raise $100 minimum tmr for my 2 hrs!! jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!! tt means convincing 25 ppl an hr to donate and abt 1 person every 2 mins....errrrrrr...not very possible BUT! maybe i'll meet someone who gives me $50...like e ppl tt i saw also at engine 2 yrs back! LOL!!!
i miss e days when i was nothing else except a booth volunteer....when i would approach anyone who's near and try to convince them that $2 means nothing to them....but it makes a world of difference to someone else. i still don't truly believe that e benef this yr is the most needy...but rather than judging....i noe that at least that $2 would make a world of a difference to e comm organizing this. i will be strong. jiayou!! =)