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listening to fan fan's shi fei ti now...nice song. anyone who has it can send me. i realized tt i dun have much clear-cut things in my life.
anyway today..i tried really hard to contact jean-sis. like really really hard. i tried talking to mamaleong...emailing at both her addresses. they both failed. i totally miss this god-sis of mine. and i really wonder how she's doing. and i felt sad thinking tt perhaps she wanted a fresh start so badly tt she wld cut me out of her life too. and i really hope tt one day...we can be reunited. really really sad coz i really really miss her. i guess that for tt few months to a year...she was really like a sister to me. a sister whom i've nvr had.
i guess tt i must have been negligent of our sisterhood to have lost touch with her. and i must have been missing when she felt so depressed that she gave up teaching all together to escape everyone. i dunno how to find her again. suddenly sg seems gigantic. i really really feel like i lost a sister.
i wish that u sent me e gifts back then with ur home address that i cld have kept, i wish that i remember ur sister's name so that at least i can check for her email when i start teaching and i wish that i agreed to go to ur church back then so tt at least i'll know where to find u. i wish that i did buy e insurance tt u recommended back then coz at least my agent wld noe ur new contact details and he can pass mine to u.
i guess tt many things in this world are fated bahz. maybe u wanted the clean slate so much tt e God that you so believe in granted it to you by breaking off ur contact with every single person from pj.