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i was thinking today....tt it really boils down to wat kinda life i want. a peaceful ride or one with bumps and slopes tt go up and down. most ppl who noe me prob noe wat kinda rides i like...but maybe nowadays...i'm on e road more...i realize tt nice peaceful rides are nice too..though ritch calls it automat-dunno wat. LOL. of coz i would opt for e bumps. but tiring. really really tired. more tiring than standing ard with shoes tt bite me. speaking of tt..really proud of myself. i think i bought e correct set of thingies for my wound. LOL. din get plaster coz wound too big!! and i got gauze and e brown tape thing. looked pretty neat. prob was tt i din wash my wound before sticking e things on. LOL!!!! but well..better than nth...
i felt the distance. feeling very luan. u make me wonder. you make me doubt.
it's like i'm in a bubble tt can burst anytime...and i'll simply drop into an abyss and i wouldn't even noe wat lies beneath. e distance is suffocating. i cannot express how much i wld wish to reach out and care for u. yet everytime, i fear to only touch emptiness.
it's true tt u cherish above all else e things u lose. i nvr thought that sth so small can be significant to me until today when i felt so lost without you. realized tt you're right..i'm dependent. but i believe tt i am brave coz of u as well. all depends on e scenario.
i wonder y i keep having to go thru this all-too-familiar cycle of love and loss and then new love.