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i wonder if i expect too much from ppl. maybe i take things too personally. everyone who works with me/work under me/works above me...i treat each and everyone as my child, sister, brother...i cheer everytime u all take a step forward, overcome a difficulty. but whenever u ppl make a mistake, give up...u ppl walk off noeing tt e mess will be cleared up. everytime i watch u ppl do sth like tt, my heart bleeds a lil.
every fatal mistake makes me wonder if it's a lack of aptitude or a sign that u dun care enuf. every white flag makes me wonder if i'm not doing a gd job motivating each and every one of u.
i hated it when S din turn up for meeting when she's e PD.
i hated it when dan said he wanted to drop out of FOC coz he has cheerleading
what made me snap was when J told me tt he can't call 83 schs coz he has other commitments. esp frustrating when J's other commitment is ethe. and i'm in both and more. why cldn't he understand tt being in more than one proj doesn't mean sharing ur efforts into some 50%-50% formula? but a 100%-100% total 200% formula? i can frankly say tt i'm putting in at least 90% per proj. heartbreaking tt ppl dun even try putting in all they can but just claim that they cannot do anymore than 50%.
really really heartbreaking. mamaleong was rite...i treat my ccas as if they are my babies...and most than tt...i treat everyone in my ccas as my dearest children. i cannot take it when one gives up trying to walk and say tt he's contented with crawling for e rest of his life.