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so busy tt i am forgetting my name, my earrings, my tv shows..even forgetting tt it's time to sleep. but i haven't forgotten u. =). i smiled. LOL. hope tt's e right reaction.
anyway...yah..busy. i dun understand how anyone can end up with so much work...but really really really have to thank 3 impt ppl...
1. e most impt one..is my nu-er. for being ever so willing to 'snatch' my ethe work from me. thanks so much nu-er...i noe tt when we started we agreed tt i'll do more during term time and u'll do more during e hols coz u want to study. but still...paisei abt u doing say...70% of e work. =X. and i noe tt u're free-ing me up so tt i can advise kris more for her duties. but still paisei. coz advising isn't as shiong as admin mahz. though u will argue tt u noe less abt programmes. but still..nu-er..i love u!! LOL. really mei you sheng cuo ni.
2. JL and ed for offering to help with PAH stuff and even offering to take some of my part. especially thankful to JL rather than my gals coz afterall they're not in my cell mahz. esp coz JL called 60 ppl. LOL. and amazingly he finished. okie lahz..i'm not bad too k...i called slightly over 60 le..just tt my list has 200 ppl mahz. LOL!!!! and really..i realize tt e ppl who have indicated dates more enthu. quite a few ppl from my 60+ are working/interning.
3. ritch for giving such clear deadlines and for settling some of our games for us..from conceptualization to e log. feels weird to have e PD do stuff for me then ask for our comments. and i commented tt he shld change part of e thing. LOL!!!!!!!! but thanks really.
my worries now are endless...
1. ethe w/o a PD. realization that there is a need to babysit. and realizing that somehow e task fell upon my lap since i'm e only one who has ever PD-ed a camp in e com. and tt somehow i can think of programme-related issues. i'll jiayou.
2. gc. dept breathing down on me...S feels so inexperienced, slow....she can't even make a timeline. sigh. and she still hasn't emailed everyone e timeline despite telling her so. crawling crawling crawling. i'll have to remind everyone tt we start 26th. it's now e 14th in case no one has noticed. more babysitting.
3. clashes. coz of gc's timeline changing drastically coz of funding issues and dept intervention..now. both of e dates of gc clashes with PAH.
i'm kinda sick of babysitting. i've nvr liked to babysit. i used to tell ppl back in JC tt i can lead..but at any time of e day. i wld much rather facilitate/advise. i believe tt ppl have e ability to learn on their own lehz. but sometimes........e learning route is too long. and we got no time i.e. gc, ethe. i used to give S alot of autonomy and authority. suddenly...these days...i'm snatching things from her/telling her wat to do step by step. dun like e way things are like.
life's fun though esp in e clubrm. LOL. stupid scandal creating. e scandals are so stupid tt i have fun laughing. they have stupid things like us doing banana split?? watever tt is also no one noes. LOL. they just laugh at wat they dun understand. LOL. then there's stuff like how i tie up ritch's hair?? which i cannot imagine anyway.anyway e funniest part was tt laogong kept saying tt he's sad to leave coz my scandal is so happening now. -_-. in fact he invented all e stories with tiong lahz. two of them invented a basket of stories and editted existing stories...from 'i just had my meeting at ritch's place lorz...then so fun!! me YT and P played volleyball with his cushion!!' to --> 'i went to ritch's house. so fun! we played volleyball with his cushion'. zzzzzzzzzz. no mention of meeting, change of e ppl i played volleyball with.
anyway...yepz...tt's it.
few things i've been pondering over:
1. cca...it's not e number of ppl in e comm that matters but e willingness, drive of each of them. [comparing gc to pah]. and it's not just e willingness and e drive...but sometimes..it's e ability and e experience too. [thinking of ethe]
2. love. recently i realized tt most love is selfish [with regards to ting's case. it's usu a 'but i need u coz of this', 'i'm happy with u']. i realized tt i am loving w/o agenda. which freaks me out. i dunno y but i dun care if i'm happy...if i'm doing things in vain...if i'm thinking too much. i only care tt i am respecting ur decision, ur choices, ur actions. even if they contradict...i dun qn. that's really freaky to me. when u do/say things tt make me happy...tt happiness is magnified. but strangely...when u do things tt upset me, they become a passing cloud. coz i feel that if tt's wat u want/feel...i can respect tt coz u have ur reasons. and i dun want to force/push/stress u into anything.
haven't been upset for quite awhile actually. =D