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you noe...sometimes u watch a tv drama and u think to urself tt e plot is just impossible. you look at e female protagonist and you wonder what she has/has done that qualifies her for e attention that she is getting from e male protagonist(s). and it's also this reason that makes shows featuring e gal next door so popular e.g. e meteor garden's san cai and e princess hrs gal. it gives hope bcoz it seems to say tt all ordinary gals can find men who love them above everything else regardless of whether they love e guy.
i simply dun deserve to live out such a plot in real life. i have done nth to deserve such. all these yrs, i have been given so much tt i cannot complain tt God forgot about me...but really...what's there abt me tt is so worth loving. dunno y i feel so sad...but i guess i just feel guilty coz i dun deserve it...and sad coz i let u go...things ended up in such a state yet u want to be there for me.
maybe things have simply become a habit. i just feel so bad...tt things have ended up this way.