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i wonder how it is possible tt everynite e same person makes me cry be it for some relationship prob or cca discussion. sometimes i dun u/s y he cannot u/s simple things like changing e font doesn't matter coz it's noe e font and it's size range but e amt of space we have on a poster? y he cannot u/s tt we dunnit a booth to publicize to new undergrads abt an event targetted at sec sch kids which e schs provide. sometimes i keep explaining until i puke blood. sometimes i scold him and he just says lol. sometimes i tell him tt he is hanging my pc (i dunno y but only he hangs my pc) and he can tell me it's coz i'm too anxious to reply which makes me even more pissed off. sometimes i wonder y he doesn't just get e hint when i say 'whatever' 'wat' 'say' 'k' or even just '.' a fullstop. a dot. and he just keeps rambling on happily abt sth tt irates me somehow.
i wonder y i am driven into this corner when i cannot u/s y he is e way he is, i cannot love e way he is, cannot accept e way he is. i dun understand y i have to drive myself into this corner when suddenly he doesn't understand me. and i have stopped trying to understand him.
it's at this corner where i'm alone. essentially alone. with few ppl to thank for today. but still must thank grace zq and viv for their CONSTRUCTIVE feedback. at least when viv thinks sth can be made better she offered to do it unlike some ppl and i dun just mean bug. and thanks ritch for helping me with e poster and ur family for e dinner...e soup was nice. i'm sure at least u will u/s e poster and y we cldn't have done certain things. at least that makes me feel slightly less alone.
maybe e moral of e story is to only ask gals to give feedback.
i'll attempt to remember tt in future.
i guess tt it's just sad tt we once spoke of facing e world together...yet now i'm facing u and all i can say is whatever. u dun understand and i've stopped trying to.