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i forgot to blog a few things!! one of which is wat bugbug wants to noe...
1. my dreams last nite...given tt i slept for 13 hrs...it's no surprise tt i had dreams..but..i had 6!! but i only rem 1 clearly and abit of 2..let me start with my fav one..also my first dream of e nite. i dreamt of my dream guy!! LOL. k ahz. it's so perfect tt he bought me a very very very nice ring..can still rem how it looked like and it's like a fairytale coz he presented it to me and put it on for me..and it fits! LOL. as in it fits whatever finger it was slipped into (and he put onto quite a few fingers). LOL! must have been a magic ring!! anyway it was so nice leaning on him and we were talking and laughing..so perfect. LOL!! perfectly sweet, innocent. just e way i like things.
then my 3rd or 4th dream was like e anti-thesis of it reminding me tt i dun live in dreamland..sigh. somemore it's e dream tt i rem most clearly!!! prob coz it was traumatising. anyway in e dream i was doing part time work at cold storage...general display e items kinda thing. then i was displaying watermelons...LOL!! but e bad part comes in here..apparently e guy who recommended me e job came over and told me tt i am one of e best part-timers they have and then he started to touch me..like ewww...spare e details and move on to e next dream.
my last dream..LOL!! all i rem from it is tt we were supposed to send the elderly and disabled off...so we had volunteers that brought them up e bus but for some reason all e wheelchairs etc had to be kept in e nussuvan. so me and a few others (unknown faces in dream) has to load them onto e van. we were all going to m'sia. it was essentially a nightmare coz after loading...e bus in front drove off!! and e nussuvan started driving. imagine taking tt rickety van with tons of wheelchairs all e way to m'sia and u will noe y it was a nightmare..i was like screaming in my dream for e bus to stop..LOL!!
end of dreams!! 2nd thing i left out was e psychotic side tt i have tt i realized 2 nites ago or sth.
2. whenever i board e lift with a stranger (male/female) i will be in a defensive/attack position such as how i hold my umbrella. very tensed up and ready to strike kinda thing. and even when i am alone...i will be ready to lash out if some burglar/thief tries to enter from e 2nd to 10th floor. hence, given tt me jj and yun nu-er were talking during cscday and them being psych majors..i asked wat was wrong with my psyche...nu er being so smart (inherited e genes from me) asked if i've ever had a bad exp with shady characters at e lift and she said 'if not bu ke neng hui ze yang lorz' my smart nu er..so proud of her. in fact i've had one...tt time when i wanted to go home....i was walking towards e lobby and saw a man standing there looking around holding a rolled back newspaper. when our eyes connected..he pressed e lift button. i just felt weird coz 1. he press e button when i', approaching 2. he was holding a rolled up piece of newspaper at 11pm or sth?? so i pretended to check my letterbox etc and spied at him from behind e pillar. then e lift came...and he walked away from e lobby. like woah. and he walked to e foyer lahz...but he's not one of e usu foyer talk-cock-everynite uncles.
yepz nu er so smart...A+. we are indeed shaped by past experiences even if we dun consciously rem them.