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haven't updated my blog for some time...let me start with e most mundane of things - my walk home.
this is damn surreal..on my way home...i was walking and i realised tt towards my left, e building lost its signage, the ground had some new tiles and e carpark has some new safety precaution thing..behind me...some workers were erecting a tentage..e place looked similar to the past yet different. looking in front of me and to my right, everything looked exactly the same. made me feel like i'm at e crossroads of two different dimensions..damn surreal..LOL. it was like being at the junction of the old and the new. the past and e future.
okie..now tt we are done with e mundane...i'll just put up a short msg on how i feel abt a certain matter. shaz and xr..
it seems tt shaz simply cannot stand to see xr. of coz i cannot discuss the validity of her feelings since i dun feel them myself. but i cannot help but wonder why her thoughts on rubz being able to do better (concern for a fren) and xr not treating rubz well does not translate into her being a better/more tolerant fren and treating rubz better herself. amongst all of these, shaz dear is upset coz she feels her frens aka us prefer xr..which is of coz not true since we dun deny any frens of their freedom of movt and xr is a fren. xr is hurt...due to wat i would classify as a pretty insensitive show of displeasure. rubz is of coz e most upset of e trio given tt it is possible tt she loses shaz dear as a fren. and well...grace dear dear is upset too of coz..since it's her bday and she has to choose betwn frens.
shaz dear..it's not tt we dun want to side u...it's just tt u are proactive in expressing urself. u can be confrontational..but rubz and xr are not..in e end, it just appears as if they are poor children hiding in a corner and crying coz of ur words. and in reality...rubz has cried over it and xr is very upset. and thus in e end, they appear to be greater victims than u are..and they seem like e ones who need our help and protection. of coz u feel e anguish of having to stay away...but in e end, u are e perpretator..u are e one who finds the need to keep away and u are e one who started this. all we can do is try to talk to u, try to make u understand, hope that u would change ur opinions, pray that u will return to our inner circle. it's impossible tt u shld nvr see xr again...we can help u to avoid him by telling u when he is ard of coz..but we cannot erase him...neither do we want to erase u.
in a village, there is a chemical plant. the chemical plant spewed toxic waste into the sea. everyone consumed the waste. everyone fell sick - including the owner of e plant. however, in e end...whether e owner got mild poisoning, severe poisoning, or even if the owner died of poisoning...all i can say (w/o sounding harsh) is tt e owner suffered silently.