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from my chat with grace..quite thought-provoking...
On Reality:
Grace says tt i am always looking at e positive side of things..and asked if it's tiring. whether it is hiding from reality. and i said tt there are many facdes to reality. it just depends on e angle u choose. it's prob more tiring to see things from e negative side coz it fills u with worries. however a positive angle fills u with hope. =). i choose to predict e worst case scenario and then look at things and work from a positive angle.
On Friendship:
I mentioned that frenship as with all other r/s require faith. just coz i dun sms u telling u wat i ate for lunch doesn't mean tt i din think of u over lunch. a strong r/s is when u may not have seen someone for yrs....yet when u meet once again, u just pick up where u have left off. u dun feel insecure bcoz u have faith. it's like a religion. u believe tt u will receive salvation, u believe tt ur God is true. God does not materialise in front of u to remind you to believe. u need not go to church once a wk to believe. evidence is not necessary if faith is strong. i talk to shan once a mth or less over msn/sms/call any medium. less than once a month...think we sometimes go for 3 or 4 months w/o talking. but we noe tt each other will always be there for us.
there was something else..forgot! goldfish memory! no choice. anyway...e last thing has been sitting on my mind for some time..haven't blogged much recently coz i keep typing it..but censoring it out. but i am one who speaks my mind. if i cannot forget it, i cannot bottle it either. there is only one way to try to get rid of it. to say it.. Gaps created by words unspoken creates crevices for doubt to enter. doubt enters and spreads it's roots...and e structure crumbles (like rock weathering. physical weathering. Impt to note tt climate does not play tt big a part in this process)
On Fate:
Fate brings one near me...an ephemeral connection perhaps..i dunno if it will ever be broken. i cannot promise anything. i can sense his movts, his moods...his everything. it's not by choice. not something i can simply block out. u asked me y i sighed...it's coz i can sense his moods and it affects me..i dun want it to..but it does. Yet, since fate has trusted me into ur hands, i trust that there is a reason for fate's complicated maneuvers. The answers may not be clear currently. but i trust tt we will all be happy. betwn now to e future...it is a long journey. no one noes wat lies along the way. but wat's most impt is tt we enjoy e way. carpe diem. every day spent with u is special, a blessing.