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feel sane tonite. maybe coz i have been too crazy this past month esp. esp when it comes to S. everyday new pattern. everyday i adapt to u and watever ur style is tt day. it's tiring, irritating, emotional upheavals. dunno..and AC takes so long to give me contacts for shirt companies tt i am irritated too. so irritated tt i purposely refused to pick up bit's call just now. dunno y. just sick of e club. so decided tt i shall MIA for like 1 nite or perhaps for tmr too. and thanks to jy for being so helpful. and h for bothering.
when u are rushing ur 8000word essay...it's amazing tt u rem my sms from e afternoon abt t-shirt contacts. amazing tt u replied to it with a long list of who i can ask since u dunno and even more amazing tt after u send e sms, u can rethink abt it and send me another one minutes later amending that tt e ppl whom u have listed as 'getting contacts for u' are in fact 'printing shirts for u' though i do think tt e first is more accurate. but still. u went thru e sms again in ur mind while doing up a 8000word essay.
and oops...appears tt C sent me e quotation at 5pm but i din check my nus acct...oops...like sorry manz. sigh.
anyway yah...in conclusion...i dun see how i can proceed, dunno how to proceed. coz indeed i dun have a firm idea of who i love. how much i love him. how wld i find out. it's during times like this when i hope tt something bad happens to me such tt i can see how they respond. but i noe tt's silly. and unfair to all of us.
and D asked me if i wld even be affected if he acts weird like how S is doing. i can only have one ans...i would be but to a much lesser extent since i am constantly thinking abt S but not D. i do not doubt tt i am mean...but at least i have 2 categories...ppl i love like hell and ppl i dun love like hell. just tt within e grps...i dunno how to place ppl...