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sigh...i understand y kids do wrong things to get e attention of their parents now. kids may steal, make noise, kick up a fuss just for e attention which they desire and lack. i understand why now. suddenly when u screw up u get undivided attention. imagine u sms someone for 12 days no reply. e minute u screw up...he replies. like wth. but no worries...not going to spend my life screwing up AC stuff..LOL.i was still quite upset abt e tv thing...so i felt tt i have to tell S or i would just continue in anguish. so i told him abt it. he gave me some advice and comforted me. so yepz. better now. and S told me to inform H abt it. which i did and H was really nice abt it. continuing his really nice tradition which was slightly disrupted on thurs when we were in in e room.
i realise tt everytime someone ask me who i love more, H or S i will reply with e disclaimer of 'at the moment'. perhaps i feel more for S now...but it's funny how fate works...so i'll nvr noe. i read H's blog. he says he's been constantly thinking of someone but he doesn't noe how to tell e person how he feels and it's as if there's this wall ard him. and coz of past hurt..he would think abt e same thing 1000 times before he puts in his feelings. but if u're thinking abt e person 1000 times...aren't ur feelings in already?? weird guy. LOL. i won't even begin to think who e person is...coz tt'll be opening a can of worms. i dunno wat i will find inside and i won't noe wat to do with e answer. he says tt maybe e time just isn't right yet and only time will reveal e answer...
i'm trusting time to give me an answer too. after e exams will be a fine time.
meanwhile let me tear my hair out thinking abt my hp bill..need to settle it (hope there's been a screw-up) given tt i pay my bills! now tt reminds me of 2 ppl...H and S...paying bills...muahahaha. e weight of e world upon our shoulders.