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*beeps* red card *shows card in H's face* *does hand movts for rotation of player*.
H's mentor comes onto e field.
wth...madness.
yest it was e last straw. he watched as i did saikang for him. he said tt he only reps smses to impt ppl (told G). he came and sat next to me in e van...yet i din feel happiness. i felt pressure. pressure to speak to him. pressure to do so much. i simply felt like crying coz i realised tt there is no happiness when i carried e sound sys behind me..i just told myself cmi. when i cldn't find a single scissors or penknife in e rm and i was sobbing in e toilet i told myself 'no more.'
i was there crying in my heart as i tried to back out of e log trip. but BC says tt he got no manpower so i went along. e van ride did me a whole lot of gd....mostly coz i met stev. got to noe stev.
getting to noe stev. ST1101E
lect1: brief intro
lect2: saikang in 15mins. moved more than 300 100+ bottles, 250 newater bottles 700 mags, 150 shirts an many more boxes of random stuff. why i move so fast?? i nvr. i din carry a single bottle of 100+. he carried all of it. while i carry 12 bottles of newater he carries 36. while i carry 40 mags he carries 100. e reason y? he keep asking me to take a lightest stuff claiming he'll forget them while he takes as much as he can so tt i have less to try to take. =) and he keeps telling me to take less. how sweet lahz then when we were done...we experimented with diff ways to utilizing e sofa in resting. LOL...tested diff positions then we realised tt e sofa as a pillow is e best for tired flushed ppl like us and talked rubbish in gen e.g. e way he walks...he nvr realiesd tt he gave everyon e ewrong impression. when BC and G came back from their meeting...they had a gigantic shock. like how did e tihngs get up e stairs. then while BC and G walked to e coffee shop...stev told me dun walk. and he drove us tt 20 steps there. when we reached....he came over to e back and offered me his subway cookie. his fav subway doub choc cookie. LOL. then i said we can share e cookie so we did. then he was saying tt if BC has a conscience he wld get us a drink. i said BC mei you liang xing one! then stev got off e van and made a speech to BC abt how hard we worked and got BC to get me and him a drink.
lect3: driving skills. totally rox. his license is suspended. he drives a van at 100km/hr, blasting 933 and smoking. imagine u are a driver...u see a N*SSU van behind u blasting music with a smoking driver who is speeding. anyway he is cool. if i once said tt H's eyes speak, stev's hands speak.
lect4: we delivered food to boy'stown from gala. i like e feeling of him driving me ard. wonderful feeling. guess i found someone who really is more zai than me in everything. i learnt so much watching how he interacts with ppl. his 'boss' and thumbs up.
okie..so now 18th March:
1. saw stev again....he always seems to need help but all for small small bite-size stuff...feel gd doing them e.g. taking his shirt for him, cordoning off an area he has marked out with cones. feels nice whenever he ruffles my hair, pats my head, says thanks, gives me e thumbs up sign coz i feel tt he means it.
2. he patted my head and draped his arm ard my shoulder for awhile. random! LOL
3. he is e best ref ever. firm, decisive. after his 5th match he told me tt he finds it hard to give e red card and he hasn't given it yet...then i asked if hes scared tt someone will beat him up and he said ni just tt he's not hen xing enuf. after our little chat, he gavea red card. just, firm, fair. zai! i am glad tt i am a positivve influence.
4. he knocked his head on e van. i was e most gan cheong. i as e first to go over to hold his head a lil, ask him how he is...got e medic..got e newater to pour over his head and got him a chair even. he kept saying thanks.
5. he took my chicky club card!
he is sooooo cute!!
and he and H both very random...think it's hereditary. passed on with e position. stev was random in his arm ard my shoulder thing...H is random as in random....from 6.30am to 3pm he ignored me...and suddenly from 3pm, he gave me so much attention.
3pm: K walking towards a box to put envelopes into a box. at that area there are two boxes. Stev was walking towards K. suddenly! H walked over to and said hi to K. and asked 'how have u been doing?' in a very soft tone. K was totally stunned. H walked off after K said tt e sponsor is nice and not angry with e club anymore since she bought him a drink and he gave her drinks back. H said 'then u follow him off lor' and H walked off. like wth. then he kept staring at me. glared at me when i shook e sponsor's hand. stared at me and kept smiling as i helped pass e prizes to be presented. stared at me while i was discussing with e rest how i'm going home and said bye to me when i passed him.
stev. H. who do i love more. funny tt i noe H for 3 mths le...and stev for less than 3 days. yet.......from 17th till 19th (today)....i've experienced such happiness. it's not a giddy kinda happiness....it's a blissful kind. e feeling tt i am well looked, tt even if e sky is to collapse...u wld prop it up for me.
but bug is rite too. H is prob unable to balance both tt detached working r/s with watever other views/tots he has with regards to me..can i judge him when he is simply not ready?
i guess it all boils down to their courses of action.