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i shall just blog e facts. open to any intepretation i guess...i myself can offer two...

0745: i was in sch...outside MPSH waiting...for AC ppl to come so tt we can set up booth...being alone, i took out m laptop and was compiling my mkting list.

0815: i called e gal in charge of booth duty..she told me very directly 'i dunno anything...call ning' i told her to pass me ning's number

0830: (serious...15 mins later) she finally sent me ning and E's numbers. i called ning...no answer. i called E...he said 'why dun u go set up e booth urself?'. i turned ard while i was on e phone..i saw e PD of Acamp. wah liew! he walked off. to think we are promoting his camp at e booth. he din even come to help when his name is on e freaking set-up list. like wth. so! i went to set up e booth. like thanks. i hate being alone somemore

0845: there's this other gal! but she dunno anything abt AC, abt e proj, completely nothing. i cldn't leave her alone..i got briefing at 9 with CSC. Ning called me back. she just woke up. but she promised to take a cab down and can reach slightly after 9. so i had to call toon and told her tt i'll prob be a bit late. i waited. felt damn horrible then...coz i asked myself y i'm doing all these. for wat. so i smsed H. i said in e sms 'it is upsetting that i am doing all this shit for ur club. it is made depressing by the reason y i am doing it'. i dunno y i felt so emotional..but i was tearing at e booth..and coz i din want to freak e gal out since we're e only 2 living souls in e whole hall...i went to e toilet and was sobbing inside. i went back...plastered on a smile and tried to be happier.

1000: ning strolled in. i was slighted peeved. but not angry. y? bcoz i dun expect anything from her. i just wanted to do a gd job in watever for H. i dun care if she does a gd job. i was going off..she asked to borrow my laptop to show dvds to e visitors...i said okie although i wanted it to do mkting. but nvm! i noe they need it...i'm doing it for who? for H.

1000: was sooooo depressed partly coz he hasn't replied my sms...went and met up with my csc peepz. at least tt was fun. me, shan, F, KL, RH (aka sock's fren's crush) went and grabbed e freebies. F was so funny i filmed him with my new phone...while he grabbed alot of rubbish even flyers he also super enthu abt grabbing. then everyone kept asking KL to go further away coz he looks so not fresh...anyway it was fun...i kept reminding them abt projecting a positive image of csc though...given tt prez vp volunteer mngment head all there grabbing stuff. correct i was supposed to be doing booth duty. but if ur prez and vp go grab freebies and u are invited..of coz go grab lahz! no one will scold u..LOL

1100: started duty!!! getting ppl to give us their names so tt we can update them on e camp. response was okie i guess.

1200: H replied. he said: You ok? Whats wrong….?

i replied and said tt i'm okie...just abit displeased with some of his ppl

then he said: Huh? Not happy with who?..and wat did they do?

then i told him abt ning and my long wait.

he said:
I am sorry about that..it has been a tough week for us and we all havent been sleeping much..esp ning,who have been spendin e past3 days since thurs building e booth stuff,n organizing everythin behind e scenes..it hasn’t been easy for her As well..but still I understand she shouldn’t have been late,n She shouldn’t have left you all waiting just like tat..has she apologized to you? I m sorry bout this. [3 sms long….]

~note tt i got pissed here. somehow...when i was at CSC...i looked down at e booth and thought to myself. so she is tired and i am not so i deserve to wait for her? i also haven't slept much wat. so these ppl are his angels. i am just some person insulting his angels? i just felt angry and extremely upset. but somehow. in e end...last nite i tot to myself. he did ask if she apologized. was tt a sign tt he's willing to make his angels apologize to me? which is something he nvr does. coz to him...his angels are always right. it's like to me, if someone told me back in j2 tt yy is wrong..i will just tell tt person tt yy must have her reasons and she is stressed and tt THAT person shld go talk to yy and hear yy explain her actions. so is tt a gd sign? given tt he is always scolding ppl who even as much as whisper something bad abt his angels as documented on his blog.

anyway i replied tt ning apologized (though it's a lie) and it's okie and tt i feel better le coz of e crazy freebies grabbing with csc mngment com...and he said: Haha ok..really sorry k.i m hundred percent sure ning didn’t mean it..Haha ok hope you enjoy e freebies eh

1400: went back to AC booth. ning kept apologizing! i din realise it till last nite tt she turned super apologetic. does tt mean tt he told her to apologize more? coz abit retarded to not apologize till 4 hrs later then keep apologizing..LOL. after repeating how depressed i am 3 times...i realised that!

1600: i wanted to go off...i asked C for my laptop back since ning was sleeping. C ignored me and just kept watching e dvd tt was playing. so i said it rather loudly and fiercely. then C said 'but i nvr bring my laptop' i was in a bad mood then and wanted to say: so? is tt my fault or urs? nvr bring=ur prob lah. but i just stood there and looked murderous..then E came and took out e dvd...and he tried to make small talk to soften my expression. not very effective man. so i took my stuff..said bye to ning so tt she won't think i'm angry and left e rm to do mkting outside.

1630: e tattoo shop sponsor called me and asked for a booth on e actual event. i tot to myself. of coz cannot lahz...unbefitting of e AC image and vision and everything. i called beng. told him abt it..he said okie can but try to squeeze for more money. i was like wth. can't he think abt things on a more macro scale? instead of just in terms of dollar sign. then i called H. he missed e call. usu after he miss my call he will call me back. he didn't yest. then i called bobz to ask him to add on e logo to our pub material. he said 'u have to do it..i am busy with PR' i wanted to tell him off. coz his job title says 'Pub n PR' not 'Pub OR PR (one at a time)'. anyway i said fine. then nicely J arrowed me work too. he said he will send me e writeups..he has yet to. he said would send me last nite.still waiting.

anyway. so at 10pm i being considerate tot to myself he must be busy now...so i smsed 'hey H...call me back when u are free anytime tonite k? i need to ask u something abt f*****' then he replied this super callous sms: Can check with beng yr pd first? Dun need to everything go directly to me

to clarify: i nvr everything also go to him. this is e FIRST f***** thing tt i am asking him abt. and i have checked with beng. but nvm...i just felt terrribly misunderstood and since i had been tearing e whole day...i started crying till unstoppably.

then i replied with e whole reason y i am asking him...he din reply for half an hr. so i smsed him again saying tt i will take tt as a he has no comments and go ahead with beng's idea. then he replied: You are acting weirdly today..

i had no idea y he said tt...but reflecting back yest at 2am..i realised tt perhaps he expected a more informal interaction with me and not my do things must fast and zai style of leadership. anyway so i replied w/o realising tt asking wat;s weird...then he said:

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