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maybe i am expecting too much...maybe u are simply too busy. i see u fighting war after war...i watch...i wish to help, but there is only so much i can do. if anyone ask me now whether i want to one day be in ur position, i will give a firm shake of my head. i noe u are zai. i noe u can handle this. i noe u can do alot. i noe in e end..u will say it's worth it. bug's right and i noe it..u're not smiling at me now, not waving coz u are not a happy H u shld be..u threw ur happiness away temp to fight these wars...i can only choose to be a grim soldier...standing behind me...no matter how far behind i am..i just want u to noe tt i am behind u.
i think i will try to pluck up enuf courage to call him at 7 and let him noe tt i am right behind him..and ask if he's okie.
i'm so obsessed over his not saying hi to me...that i din notice till bug told me tt he's just unhappy. bug says tt he usu looks pissed this day and looks like he just got out of fights. so does tt mean that his bothering to stare at me is already a gd sign in itself?