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haven't been updating much...i'll just touch on a few things (note tt i sound formal coz i just did like 2 acad proj write-ups and 2 mkting letters..LOL. no choice)
1. H. okie..e inevitable of most of my posts. i somehow felt that his eyes lost tt light...when i used to see him..i felt his eyes communicating with me...yet now, i look in and i see darkness. nothing there for me. no twinkle..got me quite sad for a while..but i reasoned tt since he's sounded happy to hear my voice over e phone...bothered to ask ard to get me e spanner tt i needed and noticed me when i poked my head into e clubrm and stopped me before i left coz i din see me...tt's not a bad sign exactly. dunno. maybe i am too sensitive..but e eyes matter to me. anyway...i think die! i got telepathy with him or something...i knew that some time ago when i noe exactly when he will step out of e rm and when he will appear at e corridor..sometimes down to e exact position where he will be as i walk pass..but yest was just freaky. examples
(a) i knew i would see him during booth duty and that he would be talking on e phone outside e rm. indeed he was pacing ard outside e rm most of e time. guessed tt he'll be in black long sleeves. he was. and e freaky part is...i've nvr seen him wear that shirt before
(b) i knew tt he would ask GJ abt e spanner. dun ask me how i knew given tt i dunno GJ personally nor do i noe tt he's in charge of e tools. when i called him i just knew he would ask GJ. and when i saw him...i got e shirt right again. green this time
(c) freakiest of all...one can argue tt duh he will go to e rm and tt he has alot of phonecalls and maybe i overheard tt GJ is in charge of tools and rem sub-consciously..pt C is just freaky. i was leaving sch on e green shirt day, rubz wanted to go eat prata. i had this strong feeling tt H would be there conducting a meeting at e cheese prata stall. i looked at rubz, wanted to go and said 'cannot ahz..got dinner at home!' LOL!! but i really wanted to go...i think if in e end, xr and rubz decided on prata i would have wanted to follow them. anyway so i got onto e bus...peered at e area..when e bus passed e prata stall i almost fainted. he was there, head of e table, conducting a meeting.
no more needs to be said..LOL. i knew i wldn't run into him today...knew last nite, but i still went down for duty...coz doing with jj mahz! LOL..and it did turn out to be fun..my intuition rox. i think i really must think e palmistry master...he made me realise it..therefore leading to my maximising of it now. anyway pt to note abt H. when i was having meeting in e rm tt day he was on e phone in e rm during e meeting. yest he was on e phone outside e rm. therefore he din leave out of courtesy...so does tt mean he wanted to see me?? =)
okie...pt 2.
2. getting to noe AC ppl..they're actually quite nice and frenly. had fun crapping with jj, Char, Bob, rabbit yan yh and ben(1)ben(1) and this guy whose name i dunno..and got to noe this cute guy..LOL..okie, he looks cute and has cute mannerisms...he was like getting donations then he was completely blocking everyone and saying things like 'donate mahz...u look like u're carrying alot of things but i can help u carry while u take out ur money!' 'lai ma...donate to e SG heart foundation and ur heart will be up there' kinda lame things..LOL..i think most of e ppl tt donated did it coz he's blocking them and looks like a lil boy asking for candy. anyway then i was quite sianz of giving flyers and yan ask me help her get donations coz i am zai at getting ppl's money as seen from previous exps with me..LOL..then cute guy named C was saying tt we can block everyone by standing together and extending our arms. so funny..then he looked so happy tt i am helping him...he's just cute. then i said he got e face tt says tt he always block ppl...serious! then talking alot of random rubbish...he asked wat's my name and he told me his name and we shook hands. yea! new fren. potential new crush after i get over H. bleahz.
3. this is a sad thing..saw A on e bus today..he said tt he wants to get a gf..which shocked me...i prefer a gay A. just sad. stay gay!! LOL..anyway i did tell him tt it's fine to be gay..given tt RH from comservice was in front of us..he must have been traumatised..LOL...somemore on e bus A was like next to me and taking up alot of space and nudging me...i bet RH must be REALLY traumatised..i may have to counsel him soon..i realised tt he was walking rather quickly away from us..LOL.
4. i work damn fast for acad stuff manz..and i realised tt i am doing so much mkting now tt i am reaping econs of scale..LOL..just ask one sponsor abt all ur events. super EOS. ppl ard me so stressed sia esp matt. short fuse these days..everytime we talk he at least says one mean thing..LOL. but no choice!! we must all jiayou. and i realised tt i am a mean person today! coz i was on e bus and this woman was speaking loudly abt how she has no time to finish her work in office..then i glared at her w/o realising it...coz i was thinking tt tt would just mean tt she has to work faster lahz!!! cannot reduce work, cannot extend e number of hrs she has..only one option wat..work faster..LOL..i am a mean slavedriver.
5. bazaar. okie..GS bazaar went okie though we din make much money. i was going to scold H for not giving us 2 chairs, but he replied to my sms w/o me noeing it...and he went for e palmistry reading after my encouragement..and he promised to give me a chair at 4pm...e chair arrived before 4. it was fun getting to noe cl and zy and lj better..esp lj..glad tt i could be there when he was feeling vexed and tt he can confide in me which is rather weird also..since he suddenly told me like something quite serious tt he wanted to keep private at tt time...LOL..i got a shock man. anyway i am just approachable for ppl who need to talk..muahahaha. and yepz..kudos to non-gs ppl who helped aka merv and D...=). my befrenders are all so nice..LOL. sadly i forgave BG. though i was pissed when he said in his own words..exact words 'u can have me as much as u want now' sounded so zzzzz. i glared at him anyway. and said 'i dun want u. i just want ur mkting' which resulted in an awkward silence
6. i miss H. but i realise tt perhaps it's gd to maintain a dist for now as well since e light in his eyes are gone for watever reason. i found a reason to help AC now..for e ppl whom i can click with now. hence, at least i am not doing everything for him..now i'm doing it for jy, jj, yh, yan, bob, char, ben(1) ben(1), BC, rabbit and i noe tt they appreciate it. oh yah..i failed to mention tt i joined Owk prog cell and and proj 6 mkting. erm..yah! LOL...pls dun scold me for being overly-involved. wheeee. anyway i realised too tt my love life is abit complicated and i've been ignoring e complications in it...maybe i shld start clearing some of e existing mess soon..before it interferes with stuff.
from memoirs of a geisha: do u realise that every step i take is to bring me closer to you?
(at tt time when i heard it..i tot of corn..now, i think of H..as well)