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01.09.06 (10:14 pm) [edit]
sigh.
okie. see...J and S dun want clubbing for e camp..personally, either way i am fine and i wld go for informal clubbing whereby whoever wants to go clubbing can go with e councillors on e last nite. but. they may just run off lahz.
wat is most upsetting is tt J and S seem to be telling everyone except myself tt clubbing is a bad idea. e only comment tt S gave me was tt clubbing is a hidden cost and tt it would split ppl up.
1. hidden cost: supper is also a hidden cost, so is lunch at arts canteen. we just have to tell them abt it
2. splitting ppl up...other ppl are telling me tt it bonds ppl together...no research to prove either pt correct.
and well...with no strong argument...i dunno y they go ard telling everyone tt clubbing is not a gd idea...when they shld be telling me their reasons which in this case...i've already addressed their concerns
i dunno...but i just felt hurt lahz...when chian came to talk to me...and when L J came and told me abt it. it's like...if u believe in it, shldn't u come and tell me instead of spreadings stories ard?? where is e communication tt u ppl told me e previous com lacked??
then wat set me off was when C cames and told me tt he heard tt i'm quite busy with alot of stuff...which made me realise tt i am suspicious and on my guard against tale-bearers. dun like tt feeling, when u feel tt u cannot trust ur own OC to not backstab u.
so i posted on yahoo grps for comments on clubbing. well...kz had tons of comments...which he told me but did not post...which is %@(%@* as well. but i must say tt i realised e reason y i appreciate H's leadership style. J is just a follower really. She follows wat e profs say and wat S and N thinks. S is a leader...but she is a dictator. she noes wat she wants, she doesn't bother asking and does it. which is prob y until now when Gchallenge is in trouble, i dun feel anything and i doubt ppl feel anything except to tell her to quickly work on it...coz in e end, we dun feel tt it's our proj...but a S-proj. H.....a facilitator. he lets u say y u want something, he listens, he understands and he tells u his comments in ur face.
frankly...seriously, i believe tt i can see e proj thru w/o any funding from e club. and i had a gd feeling abt sponsorships...D and kz told me tt if J rejects e proposal there's nothing we can do. i told kz tt it doesn't matter who has more chess pieces...it's how we play e game.
i do well in politics...but i hate e feeling of playing politics. but since these ppl are here for me esp e prog ppl, e ppl who decided to join my OC...i dun work for just J and S..i work for e freshies and for my OC. i have to do wat i think freshies want and wat my OC wants. it may be unpopular...it may be politics. but i'll still do it. i just wish tt ppl would be more open abt wat they themselves want.
okie. see...J and S dun want clubbing for e camp..personally, either way i am fine and i wld go for informal clubbing whereby whoever wants to go clubbing can go with e councillors on e last nite. but. they may just run off lahz.
wat is most upsetting is tt J and S seem to be telling everyone except myself tt clubbing is a bad idea. e only comment tt S gave me was tt clubbing is a hidden cost and tt it would split ppl up.
1. hidden cost: supper is also a hidden cost, so is lunch at arts canteen. we just have to tell them abt it
2. splitting ppl up...other ppl are telling me tt it bonds ppl together...no research to prove either pt correct.
and well...with no strong argument...i dunno y they go ard telling everyone tt clubbing is not a gd idea...when they shld be telling me their reasons which in this case...i've already addressed their concerns
i dunno...but i just felt hurt lahz...when chian came to talk to me...and when L J came and told me abt it. it's like...if u believe in it, shldn't u come and tell me instead of spreadings stories ard?? where is e communication tt u ppl told me e previous com lacked??
then wat set me off was when C cames and told me tt he heard tt i'm quite busy with alot of stuff...which made me realise tt i am suspicious and on my guard against tale-bearers. dun like tt feeling, when u feel tt u cannot trust ur own OC to not backstab u.
so i posted on yahoo grps for comments on clubbing. well...kz had tons of comments...which he told me but did not post...which is %@(%@* as well. but i must say tt i realised e reason y i appreciate H's leadership style. J is just a follower really. She follows wat e profs say and wat S and N thinks. S is a leader...but she is a dictator. she noes wat she wants, she doesn't bother asking and does it. which is prob y until now when Gchallenge is in trouble, i dun feel anything and i doubt ppl feel anything except to tell her to quickly work on it...coz in e end, we dun feel tt it's our proj...but a S-proj. H.....a facilitator. he lets u say y u want something, he listens, he understands and he tells u his comments in ur face.
frankly...seriously, i believe tt i can see e proj thru w/o any funding from e club. and i had a gd feeling abt sponsorships...D and kz told me tt if J rejects e proposal there's nothing we can do. i told kz tt it doesn't matter who has more chess pieces...it's how we play e game.
i do well in politics...but i hate e feeling of playing politics. but since these ppl are here for me esp e prog ppl, e ppl who decided to join my OC...i dun work for just J and S..i work for e freshies and for my OC. i have to do wat i think freshies want and wat my OC wants. it may be unpopular...it may be politics. but i'll still do it. i just wish tt ppl would be more open abt wat they themselves want.
posted by: grace (reply)
post date: 01.09.06 (10:58 pm)
*hugz* din know u were sad.. (???) politics sux but its here to stay. so there. no matter wat. cheer up. =) i'm here, or at least i try. =(
posted by: rubin (reply)
post date: 01.10.06 (3:05 am)
Told xr about it. He says you guys (u, J and S) ought to talk but I think it is easier said than done. Just want you to know that no matter what the others think (xr included), I'll be behind you.
posted by: grace (reply)
post date: 01.10.06 (6:45 am)
yea. agree with rub... no matter wat, GRACE IS HERE... =)))