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suddenly...i realised after reading his blog tt we are so diff...i cannot be e one for him. too deviant from his expectations bahz...okie..e episode ends here...LOL...fast man...less than 1 mth...will want him as a big bro though. no pt continuing..he's not what i have expected either...
thus, it is time to move on....i'm sure tt somewhere out there...there is e person for me. but H will prob stay as an inspiration to me...to achieve great things. i guess tt e fact tt i dun feel sad having to let him go proves tt i nvr did love him tt much. i told everyone i was interested in him precisely coz i wanted to commit myself to liking someone...like how i used to...but i guess i'm wrong...it didn't work. and rather ironic...i used to tell myself tt if i wld break my minesweeper highscore FOR him. now as i blog this, abt stopping e feeling for him, i broke e highscore..LOL...guess tt's for myself.
on a lighter note:
my bbq yest went well..though i spent $35 on buying food for it..sausage prices have definitely gone thru inflation. e company is obviously impt, i cannot be with H with other ppl whom i'm not close to...having small talk over BBQ. i loved my bfrenders bbq...coz we share a certain bond...we feel close to each other...we understand each other...we're FRENS. in fact, i find tt many of them have become my gd frens so easily. i can talk rubbish with them...i can sing from e radio loudly with confidence...as if it's my concert...i noe tt i can only do tt with ppl i am close to...i will nvr do tt in ACrm. i can only do tt with these bunch of ppl. i love them. it's effortless loving them..
yepz...so i sang songs e whole nite both eng and chi...everyone commented tt i seem to noe every single song in e whole world...and me, kai, qi and xin joked tt we can form si ke shu (4 trees), a subverted form of qi duo hua (7 flowers)...i mean...at least we can count...LOL...7 flowers has 4 members only...LOL. then we decided instead to be 'si ke shu, yi zhi squirrel'.. but we cldn't find any guy who wants to be e squirrel...LOL. okie...we are just lame..LOL. cmi.
anyway i had tons of satay yest...tasted wonderful. rubin wld love my bfreners...we eat lotsa pork for some reason...though we sing and speak more than e avg amt of chi too..LOL...anyway e seniors are nice...like toon and fred...=) and of coz g-string..LOL.his name is gee sheng. oh well...no choice.
oh yah..then we executed my master plan...really must award best actor to meng...LOL! he acted SO well...it was amazing. and ziming was gd...thanks a dozen dozen to him man...he's definitely best A/P (assist producer)...ran everywhere to get things for e BBQ and to get e towel and cake. we all had so much fun esp when we played e zhong ji mi ma to finish off e chix curry..=) and also when we pushed D into e pool...LOL..he totally did not see it coming...robz took off his blindfold with him facing e pool and 2 ppl shoved him in from behind. perfect! tt's like amazing. can't believe my plan went sooooo smoothly..during my best scriptwriter award speech/best producer speech....i will have to say:
i wld like to thank meng for taking e time to come down and be our best actor, w/o him, i wldn't be standing here. i would also like to thank ziming for putting up with my various antics and demands and for fetching props...and also jason and luke for bringing over clothes..esp jaz's crocodile underwear...and also kelly for her fantastic acting as supporting female lead (there was no female lead)...and also all e actors for their fantastic acting in being serious. it was a job well done! and of coz i have to thank D for being so blur...walking blindfolded to exactly e place where he want him to be, w/o qns, w/o doubts, w/o struggle and of coz w/o pushing me in afterwards. =D
bfrenders '06 ROX!!!!!!! i love u ppl much much.