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12.28.05 (8:24 pm) [edit]
funny...yest i told chian tt i like H and a chill just came over me. it's like i jinxed it?? typeing it out makes it seem even more real now. i'm scared. some illogical fear...i really must tell chian not to do anything abt it..to pretend i din tell him.
i wonder y...guess i have to believe in love at first sight now i guess. when i first saw him...i din noe who he was. name, position..nothing. i even tot he looked m'sian with a stupid helmet. but i dunno y, but at tt moment, i just felt something warm inside me. i rem his smile, e way he looks at kids, e way he looks at us...and i just felt...hard to describe. it's as if i've known him for so long. when i din noe him at all.
e 2nd day...i was waiting to see him..he didn't come. i was disappointed...but i din brood over it. singing that day was difficult for all of us. i was too busy putting in 100% effort. but i just didn't smile as much tt nite, w/o his smile feeding mine.
then one day, being in e clubrm, i realised tt he's e P. although something told me on e first nite tt he's P, i din expect tt feeling to be so accurate, after all i din have any logic behind my gut feeling. but sitting in e clubrm, i got my next gut feeling..tt he's a gd P.
On e party day, he turned up with a smile.seeing him there next to me, directly oppo me...smiling. =). as he laffed at our misfortune of being malhandled by kids...i found myself laffing along with him.
his laughter feeds my laughter, his smiles feed my smiles, his confidence feeds my confidence.
on bbq day, i got to noe him better. his lameness, his responsibility, his care and concern and how he expresses it. i love having him stand next to me...not speaking.
i realised tt in my eyes...his flaws make him all e more endearing. damn.
i wonder y...guess i have to believe in love at first sight now i guess. when i first saw him...i din noe who he was. name, position..nothing. i even tot he looked m'sian with a stupid helmet. but i dunno y, but at tt moment, i just felt something warm inside me. i rem his smile, e way he looks at kids, e way he looks at us...and i just felt...hard to describe. it's as if i've known him for so long. when i din noe him at all.
e 2nd day...i was waiting to see him..he didn't come. i was disappointed...but i din brood over it. singing that day was difficult for all of us. i was too busy putting in 100% effort. but i just didn't smile as much tt nite, w/o his smile feeding mine.
then one day, being in e clubrm, i realised tt he's e P. although something told me on e first nite tt he's P, i din expect tt feeling to be so accurate, after all i din have any logic behind my gut feeling. but sitting in e clubrm, i got my next gut feeling..tt he's a gd P.
On e party day, he turned up with a smile.seeing him there next to me, directly oppo me...smiling. =). as he laffed at our misfortune of being malhandled by kids...i found myself laffing along with him.
his laughter feeds my laughter, his smiles feed my smiles, his confidence feeds my confidence.
on bbq day, i got to noe him better. his lameness, his responsibility, his care and concern and how he expresses it. i love having him stand next to me...not speaking.
i realised tt in my eyes...his flaws make him all e more endearing. damn.