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hmmmm...i read his blog and tot to myself...WOW.
okie...firstly he's like a king bee. LOL. secondly, he's a financially indep person who does waitering and also gives tuition. thirdly, he has commitment and passion. fourthly, he's not attached though he does appear and say tt he is too busy juggling stuff to get attached..and as he has said...perhaps he hasn't found a gal he really likes.
such a commited person lahz. he's exactly e kind who sets his mind on something and gets it. he likes quotes too and collects them. =). anyway..i'll be seeing him later...i have no idea y...but i'm nervous now..though i dunno for wat. LOL. meeting bug in 2.5 hrs. then we'll go.
i guess...maybe he reminds me of myself a lil. e me who was heading e choir. totally in love with wat i'm doing, spending sleepless nites thinking how to improve e cca, thinking abt every indiv voice and their probs. being in love with wat i do...e passion, i guess is lacking now. true tt i have many projects, that i am performing my role for them...but it's like an auto-pilot thing...with no love but just duty. i miss feeling wat he's feeling, having tears come to ur eyes coz something has gone well, coz someone has under ur guidance become a better leader. i miss tt. i loved tt warm feeling when u watch ur ppl put up a gd project.
maybe i like him a lil. but i love e 'me' i see in him which has left me. but! i will find it back, w/o noeing it, i suddenly realised tt he's like a beacon for me, though he doesn't noe it. he's like a representation of e 'me' i wish to recover. w/o noeing it, i realised tt i draw strength from his smile and his warm eyes and i do best when he is there looking at me. and noeing it fully well...i'm going to be really really busy next yr as i will prob feel e irresistable urge to be in his projects, effectively rendering me totally busy. maybe i need to find a limit to myself, e edge of e cliff to noe tt i am human, maybe it is only then tt i will love e projs i have with me...when they suddenly seem so difficult to manage.
i suddenly wonder wat i see in his eyes and wat he would see in mine. tonite. i do have a God-given opportunity to speak to him tonite. i found a topic tt is valid, relevant and important.