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12.03.05 (6:06 am) [edit]
my heart really ahz...piang piang piang le...ting msged me on msn and asked if i want to join ong's personal choir...well..it appears tt everyone is so busy thinking abt it and making money out of e caroling (abt $20 per session tt they do) tt they have forgot all abt e original choir. leaving them to sing to air and passing shoppers...no support to them whatsoever. i was puzzled yest...how come only F turned up..and today none of e j2s turned up. as i stood there...clapping for them...my claps resounding in e silence ard me...i tot...where are e j2s?? like von? da? e other ex com members?? aren't they in e com coz they were enthu abt choir?
apparently they are...but now their loyalty lies with a diff choir. then ting had to come and ask me if i want to join e personal choir. wat an elitist society. i told her no. u dunnit tt $20 per session tt has made ppl forget abt pjch0ir. just dun. and when i asked XM if he's going to go see e personal choir thingie...he said maybe he edi YH and JT may go...which made me think...y is there such a clear divide betwn e 2 choirs when one grew out of e other.
how can one join e new, more prestigious one and forget abt e old one? maybe for me, i will nvr forget e old just coz i qualify for e more prestigious. maybe i'm silly. tt's y i stayed in pj. tt's y i won't forget e original. coz there is just this silly streak in me tt ppl may think only old ppl possess. and i think i am making ting guilty now...by pointing out tt pjch0ir seems to have lost all its supporters. thus she said maybe she'll come on one of e days.
humans. such forgetful animals.
no wonder today CJ looked so emotional when she thanked me for coming. coz well..no one bothers anymore. wat's e pt of having e choir grow in strength when they lose all their alumni. like totally lose them. lose all their supporters. just coz something more prestigious beckons.
i was happy today till i found out abt this. happy until this. how come no one told me. no wonder dee asked ting to ask me instead of asking me by herself to join e personal choir thing. in case i chide her.
even if i turned back time..there is nothing i cld have done. nothing. so no point blaming myself. funny how until now i still get so emotional over ch0ir. mamaleong is rite...it's my baby...a mother can nvr give up on her baby no matter how old it becomes.
and ting just disappointed me further..for $20. she may not be meeting me, qi and shan on xmas eve. like thanks. if we each pay her 7 bucks..making it $21, will she come?? well. i won't do tt..coz it wld mean singing is worth 20 bucks and our frenship is worth 21 bucks. thanks. tt is how derogratory.
my choir...............piang piang piang.
update abt my days when i'm in a slightly better mood..but it wld suffice to say tt i had great fun today and yest.
but now....i just wish ting nvr asked me abt e personal choir thing...=S. can i wish money was nvr invented?? and tt ong nvr came up with tt stupid idea of a personal choir?? maybe then noeing they'll have to bring cows home..they wld rather come watch pjch0ir.
apparently they are...but now their loyalty lies with a diff choir. then ting had to come and ask me if i want to join e personal choir. wat an elitist society. i told her no. u dunnit tt $20 per session tt has made ppl forget abt pjch0ir. just dun. and when i asked XM if he's going to go see e personal choir thingie...he said maybe he edi YH and JT may go...which made me think...y is there such a clear divide betwn e 2 choirs when one grew out of e other.
how can one join e new, more prestigious one and forget abt e old one? maybe for me, i will nvr forget e old just coz i qualify for e more prestigious. maybe i'm silly. tt's y i stayed in pj. tt's y i won't forget e original. coz there is just this silly streak in me tt ppl may think only old ppl possess. and i think i am making ting guilty now...by pointing out tt pjch0ir seems to have lost all its supporters. thus she said maybe she'll come on one of e days.
humans. such forgetful animals.
no wonder today CJ looked so emotional when she thanked me for coming. coz well..no one bothers anymore. wat's e pt of having e choir grow in strength when they lose all their alumni. like totally lose them. lose all their supporters. just coz something more prestigious beckons.
i was happy today till i found out abt this. happy until this. how come no one told me. no wonder dee asked ting to ask me instead of asking me by herself to join e personal choir thing. in case i chide her.
even if i turned back time..there is nothing i cld have done. nothing. so no point blaming myself. funny how until now i still get so emotional over ch0ir. mamaleong is rite...it's my baby...a mother can nvr give up on her baby no matter how old it becomes.
and ting just disappointed me further..for $20. she may not be meeting me, qi and shan on xmas eve. like thanks. if we each pay her 7 bucks..making it $21, will she come?? well. i won't do tt..coz it wld mean singing is worth 20 bucks and our frenship is worth 21 bucks. thanks. tt is how derogratory.
my choir...............piang piang piang.
update abt my days when i'm in a slightly better mood..but it wld suffice to say tt i had great fun today and yest.
but now....i just wish ting nvr asked me abt e personal choir thing...=S. can i wish money was nvr invented?? and tt ong nvr came up with tt stupid idea of a personal choir?? maybe then noeing they'll have to bring cows home..they wld rather come watch pjch0ir.