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11.30.05 (11:03 pm) [edit]
thanks for hurting me.
yest...i was talking to Y online...and his nick was something like 'i can do w/o many things with no hardships but not you' so i asked him casually wat it means. then he started saying damn mushy stuff?? which made me feel really weird...coz he was still using e 'you' pronoun like 'means i cannot live w/o you'. which made me feel soooo weird...like usu one will change e you in e nick to 'someone'. then he started babbling all mushy stuff with e 'you' pronoun to me?? then i din noe wat to say. so i just acted as if 'you' is not 'me' and said ok and tt it was romantic of him...and he started being so happy and saying tt he's glad i think so...zzzzzzz
then...he changed e msn chat window bckgrd to this heart shape, pink+red bckgrd thingie and stupidly clicked yes to e 'share bckgrd with fren' option. and thus....e bckgrd was sent as a file to me...when made me so sianz diaoz i rejected e file transfer. sianz. i mean like how dumb lahz...i dunno y i'm upset by it as well...guess i dun want to be e one responsible for his nicks...as if i tricked him into giving me his feelings when he cld have given it to a more deserving party. maybe i'm upset coz i dun want him to impose upon me e notion tt he cannot live w/o me..when i noe very well tt we cannot poss live with each other.
i am but fulfilling his wish to nvr have to break up with any gal again. bcoz i noe tt i cannot get attached to him coz i will break with him. in fact i wld want to break ASAP. hence...y go thru all e trouble. he's selfish to suggest he cannot live w/o me...coz i will be unable to live with him...even if he can put aside his ideological beliefs...his attachments to religion, family, everything. i noe tt i cannot and i will be unable to accept someone like tt.
since he cannot live w/o me and i cannot live with him...i choose to let him learn how to live w/o me (anyway he's alive now) rather to bend my beliefs for him.
[i]i can still survive w/o anything in this world, w/o love, frens, money, family...i can survive....but there simply are things i cannot live with...[/i]
yest...i was talking to Y online...and his nick was something like 'i can do w/o many things with no hardships but not you' so i asked him casually wat it means. then he started saying damn mushy stuff?? which made me feel really weird...coz he was still using e 'you' pronoun like 'means i cannot live w/o you'. which made me feel soooo weird...like usu one will change e you in e nick to 'someone'. then he started babbling all mushy stuff with e 'you' pronoun to me?? then i din noe wat to say. so i just acted as if 'you' is not 'me' and said ok and tt it was romantic of him...and he started being so happy and saying tt he's glad i think so...zzzzzzz
then...he changed e msn chat window bckgrd to this heart shape, pink+red bckgrd thingie and stupidly clicked yes to e 'share bckgrd with fren' option. and thus....e bckgrd was sent as a file to me...when made me so sianz diaoz i rejected e file transfer. sianz. i mean like how dumb lahz...i dunno y i'm upset by it as well...guess i dun want to be e one responsible for his nicks...as if i tricked him into giving me his feelings when he cld have given it to a more deserving party. maybe i'm upset coz i dun want him to impose upon me e notion tt he cannot live w/o me..when i noe very well tt we cannot poss live with each other.
i am but fulfilling his wish to nvr have to break up with any gal again. bcoz i noe tt i cannot get attached to him coz i will break with him. in fact i wld want to break ASAP. hence...y go thru all e trouble. he's selfish to suggest he cannot live w/o me...coz i will be unable to live with him...even if he can put aside his ideological beliefs...his attachments to religion, family, everything. i noe tt i cannot and i will be unable to accept someone like tt.
since he cannot live w/o me and i cannot live with him...i choose to let him learn how to live w/o me (anyway he's alive now) rather to bend my beliefs for him.
[i]i can still survive w/o anything in this world, w/o love, frens, money, family...i can survive....but there simply are things i cannot live with...[/i]