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08.09.05 (3:53 pm) [edit]
been blogging less now..guess i am more busy with sch and preoccupied with thinking how to deal with him...also it just seems a hassle to come blog...dunno y...my life...nothing drastic happened..e same old sob-stories on love...my trying to study..and my hectic schedule which still leaves me with slack time at nite to crap on msn everynite..lalala
i can't believe tt i agreed to meet him on fri with rubz. i didn't noe i had tt crack within me.. i said yes after his endless asking...
why did i have this crack??
i just want to be frens with everyone right now.
i tot of wat amelia told me...she said tt e guys in jc din cherish her frenship enuf...coz they wanted to get together with her...
i realised last nite...tt it's not them...it's her...their wanting to get attached to her just means they want to take their frenship to a diff lvl...whereas her blocking and ignoring them is in fact evidence tt she doesn't cherish their frenship since she ended everything there.
i cherish vin's frenship i guess which is y i have yet to run from him...i just want to be frens..normal frens...
he seems to have weaved a fairytale for me...and i noe exactly wat part to play..yet i don't wish to put on e costume or enter e stage. Yet, i have this premonition tt fate decrees my entrance.
Why am i resisting it?? i noe this sounds silly..but i dunno..maybe i am just waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet..and i mean SWEEP. oh well
PUTTING TT ASIDE:
i got my laptop..it may not be e cutest thing alive (since it is not silver nor white!!) it is supposed to be a gd machine since it's IBM..oh well...if ppl say so~ dunno much abt all these
sch's normal...not tt boring...quite fun in fact...
oh yah...i found a pair of slippers yest..it has e most beautiful blue straps but an ugly base...but i still bought it..since e straps are stunning and it's $6 anyway! i love e blue straps
it's a busy wk for me this wk manz...this sat i'm giving tuition coz on sun...i'm going to e zoo to do some volunteer work...i am kamikaze...e volunteer thing is org by vin and i invited ter to come help...kamikaze indeed. but technically they are both my frens now...=)
i can't believe tt i agreed to meet him on fri with rubz. i didn't noe i had tt crack within me.. i said yes after his endless asking...
why did i have this crack??
i just want to be frens with everyone right now.
i tot of wat amelia told me...she said tt e guys in jc din cherish her frenship enuf...coz they wanted to get together with her...
i realised last nite...tt it's not them...it's her...their wanting to get attached to her just means they want to take their frenship to a diff lvl...whereas her blocking and ignoring them is in fact evidence tt she doesn't cherish their frenship since she ended everything there.
i cherish vin's frenship i guess which is y i have yet to run from him...i just want to be frens..normal frens...
he seems to have weaved a fairytale for me...and i noe exactly wat part to play..yet i don't wish to put on e costume or enter e stage. Yet, i have this premonition tt fate decrees my entrance.
Why am i resisting it?? i noe this sounds silly..but i dunno..maybe i am just waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet..and i mean SWEEP. oh well
PUTTING TT ASIDE:
i got my laptop..it may not be e cutest thing alive (since it is not silver nor white!!) it is supposed to be a gd machine since it's IBM..oh well...if ppl say so~ dunno much abt all these
sch's normal...not tt boring...quite fun in fact...
oh yah...i found a pair of slippers yest..it has e most beautiful blue straps but an ugly base...but i still bought it..since e straps are stunning and it's $6 anyway! i love e blue straps
it's a busy wk for me this wk manz...this sat i'm giving tuition coz on sun...i'm going to e zoo to do some volunteer work...i am kamikaze...e volunteer thing is org by vin and i invited ter to come help...kamikaze indeed. but technically they are both my frens now...=)