i stand there...e wind whipping my hair across my face...a strange calm as i deliberate the crossroads before me...do i turn left?? turn right?? go straight or beat a hasty retreat?

too many possibilities...da told me to accept someone who likes me coz it's impossible to find someone u like who likes u...i dun believe tt...it is possible...i am an idealist.

so much on my mind now...i need to
1. get over da.
2. pack my table and shelves
3. pack my geog notes
4. go for more MOE stuff

PS: shld i go send jing off tmr?? but tt's like at 7 am...=S and i got my contract signing after tt...my dad is gonna kick up a huge fuss...not in e mood to deal with e big fuss..

anyway...ina just called me...she wants to speak to sis...but sis seems to be avoiding her...sometimes...sis is a bit...sigh~ depressed. oh well...she shld be more like me...i wonder y i am not depressed...

YEST:
1. got rejected by da
2. my mom told me some weird logic like how i cannot move out to hostel/rent a place no matter how tyrannic my dad can be coz i owe it to her since she wanted to move out when i was a child but did not coz she wants me to have a complete family..hence i shld give her e complete family she wants....crap logic...but oh well..

FUNNY, i'm not even averagely sad...only a small tinge of sadness...damn small. Y?!!! maybe i have gone into shock! too big a blow?? oh well..crap it.

i hope sis is doing fine...sigh...she appears to be on one of her disappearing schemes...of which she wishes to escape from e world.

I love myself.

coz i am brave and strong and crazy. da likes me too...just tt only likes me as a person and not romantically...tt's gd...coz i like myself as a person too..=)

[i]endless sunshine in my life~[/i]

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