when i love someone...i love with all i have. and at tt pt...e becomes my greatest sorrow and my greatest happiness.

when i dun love someone...he simply becomes my sorrow..my failure.

when i love someone...there will come a pt when i hesitate to say hi on msn...coz i'm afraid i am bothering him even when he is prob damn free

when i dun love someone...there will too come a pt when i hestitate to say hi on msn...tt is when i fear i will say e wrong things to hurt him/lead him wrong and for e exertion i must go to in case i cross into either boundary from e small no-mans land i stand on.

when i love someone...i cry when he plays e piano coz i believe all e music to perhaps be for me then i realise tt perhaps they aren't...so in betwn e joy of it being for me or e sorrow of it not being for me...i cry.

when i dun love someone...i cry when he plays e piano coz i noe it is for me, but i can never accept it.

Sometimes i am so silly...like how i will click on u everytime u are online...but resist saying hi..for fear tt u dun reply. so silly. but i keep e chat window open..w/o chatting looking at ur nick...waiting to see if it changes...trying to decipher it.

Daniel asked me...y i dun give ppl who like me a chance...'just try lahz' in his words...but i can't...coz if anyone can try...then wat's e pt of love?? Yah. so cannot try de. Now daniel is telling me he will try those 'acceptable' ones...wth...lol..(yuli...tt means u not acceptable...oh no)...Daniel's dumb!!

anyway..i just said elloz to da. perhaps he will respond...i'm unhappy enuf le...any worse e most i cry then will feel better anyway...if not also can't get worse.

Actually.....i guess i just have a knack for getting probs in my love life. no choice. everyone has a bane in their lives...maybe it is an allegry e.g. seafood...or perhaps a person e.g. someone who jinx them or an overly protective/indulgent parent...well my bane is my love life then. bleahz.

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