i can't leave...rooted there...i dun want to leave...and i dun wan to watch him leave...but someone has to leave...i realised tt i am always watching him leave...all e time.....e only times he sees me leave is e time when he was too close for comfort...other times...he leaves...
OBS...staircase...everytime i go visit him at e staff rm...he leaves first...macs...yest...all e time...he leaves first...his engagement...he leaves first...i dun want to watch him leave...but wat can i do??
i realised y i'm so upset...dun tell u tt ur engagement means nothing...dun tell me tt even e staff dunno tt u're engaged...so wat?? u are wat...dun tell me tt getting engaged meant nothing to u...coz it meant everything to me...it meant my whole world...my whole being...it may mean nothing to u...just signing a piece of paper to stop ur mom from nagging or tt gal tt ur mom likes from pestering...but to me...it means everything...........
i want to ask u so many things...but u won't even tell me y e attitude towards ur engagement...i want to ask u y u got engaged...to whom u got engaged to...how is she like...y u got engaged instead of married...i noe u...if u love someone u will want to keep her by ur side coz u dun want her to get hurt....tt's y when u were supposed to drop a sub sci class out of e 3...u din drop S2 although we weren't e best...nor e worst...i noe tt coz u told me to come back to crez and help u with e peer tutoring and i also noe tt coz u asked me to go back to crez for relief teaching......lastly i want to ask u...if u love me or if u ever loved me...or did u simply not care? dun give me e dumb ans u gave me in sec 4...tt e pple who started e rumours are mistaken...tt u are nice to everyone...dun give me tt kind of textbk ans...when after tt u tekan shafa, crystal like hell and made lianne cry...dun give me stupid ans...i want to noe exactly wat u think and wat u feel...i dreamt of u yest...ur fiance was telling me tt she's screening all ur smses and i shld stop msging u...is tt e fullstop tt u want?? i used to think tt ur engagement is e final fullstop for our r/s.......but it wasn't...it was just a decieving ...

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