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the sem has concluded!
thinking back...wasn't too bad a sem.
picked a really weird mod which was hist of sci, buang-ed it! moved on! LOL!
took a really cool mod both coz of e content and e ppl i'm doing with. and that's nation-building
did my usual k ahz mod which is zj's mod with my usual grp members. it just felt that my previous sem nvr ended! LOL!!!
then i did e mod which i nvr can rem that i'm doing since i went for like 3 lects or sth and tt's film art~
then i did e coolest mod in my life since i had no need to study/do research for my proj. and tt's changing ls during which i just opened e archives of my mind! LOL!!
and lastly, i did a not too bad sci mod with rubz but we're not too gd at it really but oh well...can only hope that it doesn't kill us.
that concludes my sem. 6 mods. killed them off. effortless sem really. coz e things that i noe..i really do know them. things tt i dun know, no amt of mugging would have helped me. so....in conclusion my efforts would go down the drain anyway!! so no pt.
but thanks to everyone who has studied with me/got me to teach them stuff this sem. coz at least i got to review my work! =D.
i sense a very busy yr coming up given e rumour that half of my hons class has purchased e set text. somehow i feel like i've got alot of proving to do in hons year.
w/o cca next yr...it seems as if i'm expected to do better? give more to acad?
bcoz e dept nominated me for e summer prog...it seems like i'm expected to be of a certain calibre?
bcoz ppl have been asking me to teach them stuff from e modules...it seems like i'm expected to be knowledgable enuf?
and lastly...bcoz zj thinks i'm good...and half the world seems to know...it seems like i have to prove that he's not being biased or simply a victim of bad judgement.
as such!! i have decided to try my best for hons yr! =D
of coz i'll try harder if i do well this sem lahz. coz there is e possibility of a first still. if i do badly this sem....will i still work harder?
practicality. LOL!!! i dunno!!!!!!! since that would give me a headache. it is best to not spend my time thinking abt it but to spend e time hoping i do well then! LOL!!
anyway....guess wat! since exams are over...it's time for......more nonsensical dramas!!!! wooohoooo~!
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i can't get myself to study anymore. gosh-ed. at least...well...since i have papers mon, tues, wed...my only time left for studying really is mon afternoon and nite and tues nite! so it's not like i'm missing out on alot of mugging time.
too complacent this sem. think my results will give me a slap on my face. but well..i can't wait for it to be over!!! i have like 30 bookmarks of dramas that i want to watch. >_<. been stopping myself coz as it is...i can't quite rem e films tt i'm doing for my module already!!!! if i watch more nonsense...i may just end up rem-ing nth for e exam. so wed's e turning pt manz!
i've made a decision.
there must be a reason by guys whom i dun like can fall so hard for me while guys i like can't be too bothered abt me! since i can't figure out exactly what's e prob...i shall from now on..trick myself into disliking whoever i like. i believe it just might work!!! tt's all i have to say.
okie manz...time to start studying changing ls now...when e paper is 10 hrs away. LOL! complacency.
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a few things to say...first and e most depressing of coz...
1. exams
feel like i could have done much better for all of e 3 mods so far. but i dun feel like complaining abt it since e world and blogosphere is filled with complaints already. always feel abit paisei when i complain abt exams coz..
1. u nvr noe...perhaps u tot u buang but u didn't. why waste someone's time comforting u when in e end u nvr buang
2. everyone's complaining abt it and it reminds ppl of their own buanged papers. wounds that are better left untouched.
so..okie....next pt!
2. thanks to frens who have been going out with me, studying with me during this period...drumroll once more to esp best fren, then qi, val, rubz, grace. was esp fun going out after e HY paper with val and grace, eating marche, white dog cafe talking nonsense e.g. qian nian lao yao flamingo. And of coz i had fun studying today with val, rubz, best fren. who said tt my worm looked like a sperm. -_-. i wanted to draw bookworms as a gd luck thing for everyone mahz! and i finally derived the innuendo behind e number 69 myself!!!! after deep thought over two days! and thanks ahz best fren, val and rubz for saying tt my cute guy ain't cute. =(. lucky not that shou with best fren's gf yet...either that or she really does think tt he's cute. LOL!
3. the last part of pt 2 made me realize tt i tend to like guys who are a lil beng. but i realized tt my taste has changed. i used to like smart bengs (like u all noe who lahz). now i like guys who are only slightly beng but extremely quirky. like how he stands up to study as if he's selling stuff at a pasar malam/bazaar =D. somehow it's really funny. but i like the fact that he's not smart. like...average in most senses of e word. be it intelligence, language skills, results, looks, humour. nothing particularly outstanding at all except e fact tt he does really weird things sometimes. somehow his averageness seems very comfortable. places me at ease. perhaps i'm too complicated a person sometimes? so i do think of living my life with someone very simple? like my parents are example are REALLY simple. LOL. all my mom thinks abt is putting food on e table. my dad doesn't question the newspaper really. when it says sth like 'some diploma holders who have done their part time degrees have even become HODs!' he exclaims to me that e ministry is really open -_-. like hello! have EVEN become HODs. like k ahz!!! open?! LOL. anyway my dad just thinks abt reading e news and believing it 100%, putting beer on his table, toto and 4d in his pocket and fixing e food for the family. really simple too.
so that brings me to my last pt.
4. funny but as i begin to appreciate his simplicity, i somehow think it's easier to live with my dad? although he still occasionally do e cockiest things like stealing money from my wallet/ang baos. -_-. and throwing my notes ard...he does it with a very simple mind mahz. at least his wants are very clearly defined and he tries to realize them in rather silly ways tt i can easily counter. just as i can see beyond that guy's averageness and see e totally funny side of him....i begin to become a lil blind to my dad's pissing-off actions and to see e things which he does for e family...which is actually just cooking but food's totally impt for a person's mood and well-being. after all it could be alot worse...like he could scheme to make me willingly quit sch by painting a bright prospect of e working world for me since young making me think that i MYSELF want to quit sch when it's actually a scheming parent who has purposefully socialize me as such. hence, he could be alot worse. lucky my dad's simple yah? LOL!
in conclusion...some ppl are very very complicated i guess...suddenly it scares me. usually i scare myself. LOL! (like how i tot of how to get kids to start work early on their 'own free will') LOL!!! scary. *shivers*