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haven't blogged in 10 yrs....coz i've been suffering the blunt of politics day in day out. from both comserv and gs. yah lorz...gs retire le still got politics...oh well. but i'm glad that as of this very special day...i've settled both...okie lahz...settled gs 2 days back. i guess that i was abit disappointed with Y given her extremely futile attempt at trying to install change by putting words into my mouth and citing me...ruling by fear is e worst kinda leadership...plus i doubt tt many ppl will fear me mahz...i also retire le..LOL!
then i finally came to terms with alot of probs in comserv today....partly coz i nvr quite liked e beneficiary of e latest project nor did i like e ambitious planning with events that are pretty irrelevant to the objectives of e proj...and i din like how everything was decided not by e proj directors but by e ex pres. but i stopped in my tracks today...coz after all e politics, the bitching and everything....as i saw e comm ppl looking so crestfallen, saw laogong looking distressed and saw nu-er sobbing....i realized one thing...that it's easy to see the politics...but it's harder to see that no matter how screwed things are...the ppl involved are having a very real experience rather than a discursive one. it's easy for e ppl in e comm, for ppl outside to comm to discuss how screwed the thing is...but it's hard for the ppl themselves to live out the experience.
i've decided to stop talking abt it...(though ppl call me everynite to discuss wat we can possibly do) but to actually do everything i can to help the project. so everyone reading this!!! join e event k? just contact me! e avg amt of $ raised per 2 hrs at each booth so far is $62.50...divide that by 3 volunteers...tt's like $20...and illegal things were done to raise tt amt. but no more...coz they got caught...but no matter! i shall aim to raise $100 minimum tmr for my 2 hrs!! jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!! tt means convincing 25 ppl an hr to donate and abt 1 person every 2 mins....errrrrrr...not very possible BUT! maybe i'll meet someone who gives me $50...like e ppl tt i saw also at engine 2 yrs back! LOL!!!
i miss e days when i was nothing else except a booth volunteer....when i would approach anyone who's near and try to convince them that $2 means nothing to them....but it makes a world of difference to someone else. i still don't truly believe that e benef this yr is the most needy...but rather than judging....i noe that at least that $2 would make a world of a difference to e comm organizing this. i will be strong. jiayou!! =)
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apprec tea is over!! do i feel more appreciated..yes. is it coz of e event per se..no..LOL!! kinda feel appreciated coz i got some pretty loud applause...which made me happy....since clementi only had me and ter mahz!! LOL. so there's no grp tt would cheer for me specifically. =). felt abit sad/bad for e ppl who din get claps...it's really very weird for them to tell us not to applaud till e end....it wld be so weird to walk to e front, get ur cert thing, take ur photo and walk back...all in silence. -_-. but well..besides tt and e very cold jokes of e emcees....e rest were pretty gd...coz i got to eat nice curry!!! and although wj and gh weren't next to me...i still got to dump e food tt i dun want on ter. i won a lucky draw prize!!! wooohooooo!! i was talking to ter when i heard my name then i was like 'lucky draw prize!!!!!' i was damn excited and had to wear my hairband and rush to e front from my very constricted space. wat's my prize?? it's damn cool lahz contains ovaltine sweets (my fav part...coz i seldom get to eat those)..some weird walking stick thingie full of lil sweets, roulette sweets, those rolls of golden foil wrapped sour thing (x10) and those animal biscuit plastic wrapped ones tt u get in pri sch (x10)...plus e tons of snack i got from value shop last sat and e biscuits tt mommy bought...wah!!! i keep eating..then my dad asked me like 3 times today y i'm still so skinny!
anyway..i'm really quite happy looking at my eth comm...coz so many ppl...take photo can fight with yish in terms of numbers...rite beni? LOL!! and my eth intro email thread..actually got 3 threads of intros..-_-....but e longest one reached 30+ emails le...think we can set e new record de!! YEA!!! also i got to take funny photos...which incl. one of erzi crying coz we gave him our own award since he's in 4 SPs every yr. and i got to take a photo with SH who asked me to take a photo with him...felt abit weird bahz...coz after all...aren't exactly frens even back then...iffy when he was single...nvr talk when he was attached...but anyway took e photo and he stoop so low just to be abt e same height as me...so i told him dunnit to so xin ku make same height lor!! i know i short...LOL. but e funniest photo is e one with shangr before he leaves for his SEP...coz he went one step further and he stooped such tt he's shorter than me..-_-. then i tried to stand as tall as i cld and everyone asked if we're comedians..LOL!! normal frenship feels so much better! =D. then e funniest one was still when me, laogong, T, kev, yc were walking out..in e middle of nowhere...T asked to take a photo with me...then i forgot wat i said but it wasn't a definite yes or no...then we beat ard e bush for damn long...then kev said 'PD take photo lehz' then we realized tt both of us are his PDs for diff events...-_-. but e funniest thing was tt i finally said okie..but we din take e photo...-_-. then on e bus...he took out his camera and took photos of me?! then i said take together lahz. and he didn't. -_-. ppl are getting weirder these days...LOL!! anyway he says tt he'll put my pic on eth yahoo grp and on his comservday yahoo grp. then i asked him put on comservday yahoo grp for wat...i not even in e comm but he just wants to put. -_-. yah...ppl are getting weirder these days. LOL!!!
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e other day...i came up with this quote: Life deals us blows so that we can learn to fight back. hope the quote encourages my frens who are struggling with some stuff in their lives. =). coz watever happens, we learn how to cope with life better and we being more adept in the game of survival...so darwin-like..LOL!!
anyway...despite my many grouses with regards to e club..i carried out my first eth meeting yest..and it went pretty well and everyone got to play this game tt everyone seemed to like...except perhaps e very confused zq...which is so funny..coz he loves games but dunno e strategies of bingo. LOL!! anyway...everyone commented tt i have a loud voice...so teacher-ish..LOL!! i guess a louder voice is useful when u're talking to a circle of 33 ppl. really hope to bring e number up to 36 soon!! 3 more positions to fill up!
anyway..although everyone tot that e meeting went very well...i left out something tt i wanted to point out. -_-. so abit sianz..i forgot to tell everyone e empty positions!!!!! quite a big mistake in my opinion...but hopefully later during e dinner i'll be able to psycho ppl to fill up e positions...then settle le!!
anyway....my relationship with stupid T is getting weirder by e day. but i shan't comment too much on it. other things to think abt e.g. my modules!!!
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realized tt i haven't blogged in 10 yrs...few updates
1. results...best so far in my NUS life if i decide to s/u. which i did. LOL. decided tt it's no use fighting e atas list if it pulls down my CAP. gosh...maybe i'm turning practical. anyway dun want poor C to feel bad tt he did better than me bahz...so no choice. s/u. but congrats to C who did so well this sem...=) and beni who also did so well this sem and earned himself an ice cream..;). and i earned myself an ice cream too...i love betting when everyone is a winner. congrats also to wj and gh for having pulled up their CAP coz this means we have more time for eth..since all our CAP went up! eth.eth.eth. =D. lastly...congrats tiong who s/u-ed one mod, got left with one...and got a perfect 5 for his CAP. LOL...though tt's quite as usual for him...and congrats to yf especially who survived 7 mods without studying and getting all his mods in e B range...LOL!! which is damn gd for someone with 7 mods who din study when those mods are maths...yucks. LOL!!
2. eth so far...recruitment's amazing...and we only have 3 vacancies now...1x mkting director and 2 x log asst. i'm obviously tasked with e most challenging task of all...calling e ppl whom we rejected. >_<. no choice lahz. e other 2/3 of my entity are too nice.
but i'm pretty sianz of e club this couple of days...coz of some stuff bahz...firstly e awards thing abit screwed....not just e gold, silver, bronze ones...but e long service too...i mean...why ask us to submit names for long serv...when u're giving based on e ppl tt u urself remember...somemore they din even give to some of e prominent ppl.
anyway...despite my groses....i got myself down to e chalet yest...which really wasn't too bad just tt it lacked e support of e non-MC ppl bahz...like there were e show-face PD/APDs like myself, dnise and yc. e show face regvp chairs like SE and laurasista. then e ppl typically classified as e ppl who usually turn up though they usually feel left out i.e. sh, yz and e newly minted E. anyway i showed my face for damn long...from 2pm till 11pm. tt's like a quarter of e chalet. LOL. though i must say tt i was hiding in one of e bedrms discussing eth stuff most of e time. when i'm out...sometimes abit sianz bahz...coz really dun understand why all e ppl there have to keep making fun of my papabird. makes me very uncomfy bahz. like i want to defend him but i noe tt tt will be flashing out a problem tt papabird himself wouldn't want flashed out. so i have to control. and even more sianz coz papabird really hasn't done a gd job so far bahz...i realized tt as me, wj and gh were planning for my first meeting...subconsciously i was avoiding all of papabird's pitfalls during his last meeting. i really wonder what i can do for papabird. rem telling him back then not to even run for e MC coz he'll kanna alot of shit. and he really kanna-ing now. and i cannot help him...dun like tt feeling. coz honestly..he really is one of my best frens in the club.
but i enjoyed mahjong as well...which occupied most of my time outside e bedrms..LOL. always tot that i'm super noob...but maybe i'm not tt noob after all!! coz i won a few games...and i za hu once...but i za very well!!! and i za though i knew tt it's a za...though i cldn't fathom why then...but after i za-ed...wb checked e tile tt she was going to get if i didn't za...and it was a tile tt she can win with!! and she got 3 fan i think...gosh....so happy tt i za-ed...everyone was quite happy tt i za-ed except wb of coz who wanted to kill me. then erzi said tt i'm damn zai..though i always look so blur when i play...then he said tt i bang zhu chi lao hu...LOL!! perhaps. anyway then i taught E how to play..and she won manz...though her win isn't quite pretty...while e others had like tiles of all e same suit lahz. i think i must be a master at small wins or warped wins...but i've nvr won nor do i noe how to win big. LOL!! and besides tt i had great fun sista-ing with laurasista...
then i almost getting myself killed by sf who was driving us home after e chalet...who made some weird turn or sth on e ECP resulting in e car swerving to one side. LOL!!!!!!!!! damn funny. it was a very wth moment to experience but no flashback of my life...it was too wth but it made me laugh nonstop..coz sf really damn bad at driving...then we continued driving and sf missed an exit and i saw my house from e expressway...damn funny...so i just got her to drop me anywhere near lahz. so she dropped me in e middle of nowhere except tt it happens to be across e rd from a bus stop tt has buses tt i can take home. LOL!! it's really in e middle of nowhere coz no one ever takes a bus from there and there was seemingly no way to cross that road coz it's at e expressway exit in e middle of e road..with heavy vehicles on e main roads to both sides of e exit. damn funny!!!!!!!! so i spotted an overhead bridge..which is also e weirdest overhead bridge i have ever crossed coz it runs along the sides of e expressway which is curved in nature coz it's e part tt only PSA vehicles and enter and they din want the heavy vehicles speeding on e expressway...walking along tt overhead bridge reminded me of zhang hui mei's MV for the song 'jie tuo' when she's walking with alot of headlights ard her. LOL!!!!!!!! but of coz i got home unscathed by the adventure and it was really damn fun. maybe i shld take sf's car more often. and i'm glad tt i found a worse driver than ritch. LOL...congrats ritch.
3. at least 5 ppl have asked if i wld collect e gold on behalf of ritch. tt close mehz. -_-. e best one was still ter e pres and erzi..who asked me to make e speech. -_-. can i thank myself?? LOL!!! anyway i suggested a video conference thingie or some pre-recorded video. makes so much more sense. and then there's stupid T. wah...i also dunno wat to say abt him. so i guess dun say manz. -_-.