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woooooohoooooooooooooo!!! !!!!!!
haven't been so happy in awhile. i saved clementi from destruction!!!!!! okie...exaggeration. i found a successor for clementi lahz. wow wow. me and papabird cracked our brains over this problem for forever...incurred sleepless nights...subjected jj to hrs of psycho-ing (which didn't work on e psych major)...finally found a successor. somemore clementi volunteers avg a yr 3.1...LOL. we're all yr 3s except for robz who's yr 4. LOL!!! e successor is yr 1!!!! gosh.
how did tt come abt? i came online at 10+am...suddenly i had a stroke of inspiration...okie lahz..rather i wanted to find out wat ter had up his sleeve for wanting to join clementi. so i msned him and ask if he's serious abt wanting to work with youths. he said yes. and i recommended e position of chair to him, ran thru e responsibilities and he tot it was cool. LOL!!!!
so i hurriedly told papabird abt it (dunno y so many key personnel online at 11am). and we're all so happy now. LOL!!! i think it's fate ahz. coz i did one matric fair duty and ran into ter...fate tt he wanted youth and only clementi does youth. fate tt i shld be suspicious of him. fate tt he's online and papabird's online too at 11am!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!
so so happy!!
next qn is whether i shld remain in e comm and assist him since papabird wants to leave e prog. wat i told papabird was tt finally there seems like there's some hope for e future. we can build a stronger RVP (like a stronger dynasty). LOL. so i told papabird to go into tuition prog so tt we can cover all bases. LOL!!!! i convinced him!!! LOL!! but seriously....we can nvr and will nvr want to contend with e other progs...was talking to nu-er yest and she and bs were quite annoyed tt certain progs get all e limelight...to e two comservice ppl reading this..yah lorz..it's urs. LOL!! but i convinced nu-er...tt at least volunteering with IDs is getting more popular which is a positive change...LOL!! clementi is stuck with foreigners who apply since we're near sch and anyway our main prog only takes in like 10 volunteers and we can't increase tt number. LOL!!!! really need to engage our wider pool. hmmmm.
ay...okie...much as i wld like to retire...i admit tt i get a high from managing stuff. =P. no!! i will still retire from MCs and OCs...this kinda small comm...can lahz!!!! *shy*
at least papabird is alot less depressed now. no need to think abt whether to close down clementi. yea!
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fun day!! LOL.
i did matric fair duty today lahz. saw 3 guys my age whom i noe...
1. ter. LOL!! so qiao lahz. of all ppl i met him. he looks kinda diff now...less nerdy, more shuai. LOL!! wanted to get him to sign up for comservice..he said he'll be back to sign up...i assumed tt he won't return. but he did...and of all things..he wanted youth!!! which means clementi..really must psycho him to be e next chair. luckily...he owes me a meal so we're having it after outreach. yea! shall psycho him then. =D. anyway...really happy for ter...coz he finally got attached. can still rem how i zheng-ed him back then over his weird sms. oops. okie...i was more immature then and din noe how to respond properly to his sms.
2. jackson (aik grace!!! a jackson tt i know)...anyway i forgot tt i knew him. gosh. then he came over and said my name. then i freaked out. LOL!! coz i cldn't rem his name at all. he only looked very vaguely familiar somemore. then i had to admit to not remembering his name. and finally he told me his name. LOL!!! and
3. jackson's fren...dunno e name. LOL!! but i rem him better than jackson! coz he was my contender for top econs student!!!!!!!! LOL! aik. anyway apparently he screwed up for 'A's and got a B. both him and jackson planning to do econs in uni. LOL!! and they were so surprised tt i'm not doing it...oops!!
anyway...after tt....me and nu-er went to e clubrm to film our videos for eth APDs. absolutely lame and fun. nvr knew tt i cld be so lame esp for ch's video. coz we din want to lie and tell her she did a gd job etc. so we ended up crapping alot. and we wished her and J eternal bliss!!! LOL. oops.
then..i rushed to clementi to meet liy my befrendee. ended up...i was 7 mins late!! but i cunningly adjusted my hp time to indicate tt i'm only 2 mins late so tt i cld teach her abt punctuality (OOPS!!!) but my attempt failed. coz she was 37mins late. -_-. and her fren...kf arrived before her. had a wonderful chat with tt boy. mature, self-assured enuf, not egoistic, has foresight...e kinda son-in-law a mother wld want lahz. LOL!!! i was ermz...sizing him up actually. LOL!!! as a bfrendee-in-law of coz. he's really really nice too. admits his flaws e.g. not being able to talk much to NT kids. and he wanted to join IT club with e reason not being tt of slacking but coz he can pick up useful skills for his life in future. and most amazingly...at 14 yrs old...he noes tt he's going to study in an aust uni in future!!! wow! LOL. and he's very smart too...like me. coz he's from hk..he's not going to get his citizenship so tt he can skip NS and go aust instead. smart manz.
anyway...yah...really nice boy who was going to go play basketball after our dinner and apparently his mom can cook all kinda cuisine e.g. jap and watever...then i said a most 'future-mother-in-law' thing. i said tt liy is a pig and he can invite her over to lunch with his family. LOL!!! and e boy said 'he definitely can' LOL!!!! such a son-in-law thing to say. gosh!! anyway it's so obvious tt he likes her. he offered to give her his ipod coz she lost her hp which she uses to play mp3s with though her line has been cancelled. -_-. which normal fren would want to give u an ipod no strings attached?!! anyway..now e ipod's with liy on an indefinite loan. LOL!!! so i decided tt he's nice, sincere and has a future ahead of him. well...though he's in NA...really have to admit tt he has a maturity to study bahz. besides...maturity + money = gd bizman at least. LOL!!!
anyway i told liy to go for it. and she shld bring him over for dinners more. LOL!! got new guys also can bring for dinner. GOSH!!! i'm doing her mom's job. but e boy really quite gd. much better than her usual look-good, dun-study types. LOL!!!!
anyway dinner...me liy and qi joined e rest for bowling...i got e amazing score of 0. 0-0-0-0-0-0-0 kinda thing. all 0, all gutter!! LOL!!! in fact my ball had a spin to it...i started it from e left gutter thinking tt all my balls end up going right anyway. well...it did. but after making it's way across e whole thing...it did a spin at e edge of e right gutter and went into e left. -_-. tt's like how amazing?!
anyway..to conclude!! i will not accept defeat. i can conquer this bowling thing!!!! i just want to get 1 pt!!! just 1 pt!! i can do it!!!! practise with me!!!!! (at ulu places of coz). yes u!! practise with me! LOL!!!!!!!
i like my befrendee-in-law-to-be and yepz..can tell tt liy is warming up to him. i'll have an optimistic report this month. no more weird shy bf who doesn't talk to her in sch. no more playboys who are too old for her. YEA! *satisfied bfrender-in-law*
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i love e underdog. LOL! championing for wat seems like a lost cause. coz when it does succeed...e satisfaction is even greater! which explained y i had to cancel all my evening appointments just to watch my kid on campus super*. tried to vote but his line was forever engaged. LOL. which i took to be a gd sign. zq my neopet is right...i shld just sms my vote in future.
but it's very cool to see him get higher pts than e RI boy. LOL!!!! some ppl are born more privileged than others...but everyone can put up a tough fight and when e underdog wins...woohoo!! definitely going to follow this season of super*. teachers can learn alot from their students actually. when e principal told us e kid's story...i almost teared. coz it did demostrate e sch value of resilience. when he failed to get into e top 20 last yr...he simply gritted his teeth, practised more in anticipation of this yr. =). and he's under so much media pressure with regards to his grades simply coz he's in sec 5 and he was retained and stuff. poor child. but he's a fighter. =).
in a separate note...thanks to all my frens who have been listening to me...esp grace dear who's always there both online and physically, C for being with me thru-out e whole thing with his lameness and econs theories and whatnot. thanks to laogong and tiong who would forever react more strongly than me and threaten to do all kinds of things to 'help' me. to beni who stayed up to listen to me though he ended up so tired e next day when he really didn't need to pay so much attn to me and i shld be e one asking how's his day instead and to my neopet zq who reads this blog and asks me if everything's fine. muahahahhaaha. of coz i can put this silly saga away. =P. anyway i can't wait to see liy tmr during bfren-ing. been awhile really. =D
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last nite i suddenly suddenly suddenly feel a lil sad sad de. but i guess tt this will pass once again.
it's really quite interesting e way human emotions work. as i sat in front of my pc this early afternoon in my slightly sad sad mood. my msn pop-up informed me tt cw-bro has just come online. despite all e grief tt i caused him and tt he had caused me back then...i suddenly realized tt i miss him. so strongly at tt moment in time tt i had to msn him when i haven't spoken to him since my project on migration 2 sems ago. tt's like almost a yr.
i can still rem why we kinda stopped talking. his last try was just too faint an effort. still can't believe tt he tried to get together with me by offering me aust citizenship. but anyway...tt being said i do miss him suddenly as a sis and i find myself being worried tt he's overworked. in fact..it's bizarre tt i'm telling him abt demand and supply now. to decrease his supply and push up his price so tt he can relax more. LOL. and tt he's price inelastic. LOL!!!
alot abt life hinges on fate i guess. even if me and cw started over 1000 times..he'll still end up as my bro..no matter how e chess pieces are placed.
still..i realized tt i have many ppl who care abt me thru this incident. i realized tt i have so many close frens...definitely more than a logical amt (since there shld be many categories of frens). LOL!! and i have my family, grace's family (aik!! i'm gonna steal them), my god-bros. i must admit tt my god-bros won't beat him up. they'll just use their money and throw it at him. LOL!! i suddenly miss justin bro. he pang sei-d our last ice cream date (actually i did too. we both just pretended to forget abt it! LOL). =D.
on this pt...thanks to my gs taipei ppl!! who got me a dress~!! sorry i can't meet u peeps on tues. =S.
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it's 2.41am and i'm awake. told beni fragments of e saga tt we shared or rather tt i think we shared. feel like throwing e fragments at u really. i understand y ur ex hated u at e end of it. maybe i just have an extremely high EQ and i can stomach it w/o wanting to kill u. but i sensed some bitterness.
if love can be full of conscious decisions...it cannot be called love. so i dun blame u for getting closer to me though u knew from e start tt u wld leave me high and dry.
i noe tt i can put u aside. whether u will appear again and trigger this feelings of mine i dunno. but i guess that having had such a dramatic love life all this time serves a purpose. at least it's easier to turn my back and walk away.
i can say with conviction tt fate has sth great in store for me. whether it is tt u wld be back for me or if there will be someone else..i dunno. but i choose to believe tt things will work out. =D. no idea y i'm so optimistic and positive either. but as i always tell ting...if u need to cry, do it with ur face to e sun. at least ur tears dry faster.
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this is a hint to someone whom i noe will read this...i just have to say it coz of e recent spate of conversations tt i've had.
there was once someone who always ordered e BK fish burger (okie...u noe where i was when i came up with this analogy). e fish in e fish burger was very happy. it thought to itself...great manz...e person must be a fish-lover. but e fish was wrong. LOL!!! coz e person simply liked e sauce tt came with e fish.
*cough cough*
anyway my day. LOL! i dragged myself off my bed at 545am on sat. got down to sch...and brought e kids for e compet. was a very fruitful experience coz i got to noe 3 kids better.
1. A...who's so cute...sticking to me like a sister.
2. ZB...who's also very cute. LOL. and he fulfilled his stereotypical look of a campus super* by telling me suddenly tt he can sing and tt he wants to take part in it.
anyway A and ZB very sweet. they are e rumoured class couple and they love hitting each other. so innocent and sweet. LOL. but both of them claim to be not interested in each other. in fact ZB likes another gal and he told me who!! LOL. but i still think tt A may like ZB. coz ZB was telling me tt once A was very stressed and called him and kept crying over e phone. =). anyway A added me on msn. LOL!! AIK! waiting for ZB to add me.
and 3. got to noe S. who spent $4 on seaweed today. tt's like 40 packs of it. he felt like puking for e rest of a day.
anyway bringing e kids to a compet is like bringing them for a picnic. like...M bought 3 bags of chipsmore (not e mini pack kind...e normal shorter length tray kind), ate his breakfast and ate 1 hotdog bun. ZB ate 4 hotdog buns, 3 cups of ribena, seaweed and so forth. e grp of gals forever had pocky sticks. gosh. LOL!!! i was so amazed and it was fun observing e kids.
anyway my gut feeling tells me tt i will prob treat A and ZB as my new siblings soon. LOL. esp coz A seems like e emo type who wld tell me abt her entire life and ZB is just so funny. he's like my height which is saddening since he's in sec 1 and he kept asking me wat's my standing board jump result for pri 6. like HELLO!!!! wat was 7 mths ago for him is 9 yrs ago for me can. -_-. anyway there was this kid tt's 171. =(. LOL!!!
oh yah!! very imptly i fulfilled my kfc craving today. i still have my fish and co craving. and soup spoon craving. YEA!
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after blogging abt my wonderful two days in tt super long blog...i need to say a few things:
1. WELCOME BACK!!! all my dearest gs peeps...u all xin ku le..esp val dear!! thanks for organizing such a big event for e society though i cldn't turn up for it. glad tt everything went well!! =D. and of coz thanks C and rubz especially for attending. missed both of u. rubz for ur talk-cockness and C for all ur support. didn't realize how much i missed it till last nite when u showered ur support. =D.
2. there's one line tt i have always rem-ed since sec 4 from Romeo and Juliet. i still rem it well. 'One fire burns out another's burning'. i'm glad tt i've had this attachment coz it burnt out whatever was burning before tt. HAR! really very glad. =D and i'm not upset abt it.i still rem what i thought when u told me abt how u and ur ex broke. really...two xiao sha ppl cannot stay tgt coz yah lorz...when one pulls away...e other won't spend too much time pulling e other back. really have no feelings abt e matter now.
3. i'm more than ready and happy to retire. i just want to spend my remaining uni life in peace. LOL. away from politicking esp. somehow...my last comservice proj...e camp...was abit of a disappointment in terms of OC bonding. and even within my small family in e proj...there was so much darkness tt i'm glad it ended. din even feel like going for e family post-mortem actually.
4. looking forward to my day ahead with grace dear, rubz and matt. and looking fwd to giving more tuition tmr. =D. i missed my tutee. she was so sweet though i hadn't seen her for 2 wks. =D. she kept smsing to ask if i'm feeling better/tell me tt she loves me. LOL. abit scary and gay but well..she's definitely not lesb lahz. so no worries. LOL!!! realized tt i missed how ridiculous she is. LOL! had fun teaching her yest. yea!
5. very glad tt there are no more scholar gatherings in e next 2 yrs. i'm like totally out-of-place there since there's only one other person from my jc. luckily yest for e feedback session TH was nice enuf to come stick to me. and i got to talk to quite alot of geog majors and also to my crying-since-sch ppl. and i'm amazed tt when u throw a grp of say 15 scholars together for a discussion...no one wants to start e ball rolling. until i gave up e staring at each other game and had to facilitate e thing. sigh. then me and TH felt sad tt we're stuck with a bunch of ppl like tt. LOL! at least she volunteered to take notes...LOL. and of coz there are e arrogant ppl who insist tt we shld have been able to choose e schs we're attached to. if we cld...i bet 80% of them wld have gone back to their alma mater which kinda defeats e purpose of exposure. given tt there are 182 of us scholars and 2000 trainees a yr...i hope to meet e other 90% of e population who are prob more normal!! LOL!!!!!!! really...i can't wait to start teaching. gosh. =D.
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i loved my sch attachment! to put it in a very blunt way...although my mentor pretty much sucked and i found tt e thing wasn't well-planned....it's really e kids tt made a difference. knowing tt u have e opportunity to be there for them was e thing tt drove me on bahz. given my fantastic last 2 days...i'm pretty sad tt sch's over.
on tues i brought 2 of e kids for a plain english speaking compet. it was a really amazing experience...i've nvr had such a long conversation with a taxi driver...was telling him abt how my kids were chosen for e compet. my mentor caught them talking in class and decided to send them for e compet as punishment lahz. like...how lame is tt. LOL. but of coz i din say tt in front of e kids. i told e driver tt they're always making noise so we figured them shld take a stab at making constructive noise (that said in broken eng of coz). LOL!!! anyway e kids were super cute. sec 1 boys...so afraid of being in e compet hall coz it happened to be e sch hall of a gals sch and they kept clinging to me. i felt like a mother lahz. had to ask if they were too cold/needed e toilet/scared and calm them down. being a teacher is really gd training to be a gd mother. anyway just imagine...2 guys bigger-sized than me saying 'ms lye...we very scared!!' super funny.
anyway e compet was so ill-organized tt they had no judges. like who in e right mind organizes sth w/o considering tt they wld need to invite judges like maybe they cld have gotten judges from non-participating schs? like HOD of some eng dept somewhere or get some columnist/author. like whoever lahz. but no...e participating schs' teachers had to draw lots to be judges. perhaps i really did wanted to have a go at it and i was lucky but i got e 'congratulations! blah blah' slip and i became a judge which was hilarious coz it's my first plain eng speaking compet. first i've been to, first i've seen. and i really din noe e intricacies of it. so i just judged it as i would for a normal speech-making compet/talk-cock session. and i looked so obviously young, an absolute greenhorn but e other 2 judges were tactful not to ask y i looked so young so i simply revealed y i was stuck there with them...and not surprisingly...they all went 'oooooooo..scholar'. like tt made a diff as to whether i cld judge an english speaking compet.
then my students had to embarrass me by being so controversial and funny. they went up for e prepared speech component with their script on A4 paper....said 'goooooooood morning. ladieSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SSSS and gentle----men.' and got the whole hall to burst out laughing with tt simple one-liner. no thick poser british accents, not even a nice formal accent. they spoke like they're in some mktplace and they later told me tt they had to emphasize e word 'ladies' as there were only 5 boys in e entired packed sch hall. -_-. nice one. anyway given their lack of prep....all 3 judges failed them for e prepared speech component. in fact i gave one of them e lowest mark. -_-. since he didn't even look up from his script. horrendous behaviour. LOL.
but i told myself tt it's okie...e jokers will prob do well for e impromptu speech component. i cldn't have been more right at that. both of them got e highest marks on my paper at least. LOL!!! no..i'm not biased..they did darn well on e papers of e other two judges just tt they went more for e prim and proper staged kinda humour whereas i went more for e impromptu talk cock sense of humour.
e kids get their impromptu qn 10 mins before they go on stage. e qn was...'if i were to be trapped in a time capsule for a week and i could only bring one person along with me, i would bring....' unsurprisingly most kids said tt they wld bring their mother. first kid got an 'awwww' from everyone. second kid got an 'awwww' from then onwards...there were only groans. half e speakers said mother, one said pet dog, others mainly said father, brother, sister, best fren and e like. my first kid went up and said he wanted a comedian coz he would make him laugh and he loves to laugh. -_-. LOL!!! so freaking cute. my other kid was even better...he wanted to bring his classmate whom he doesn't know well. why? he said 'coz it will only take *pause* i think 3 or 4 weeks to noe everything about me' (he calculated tt on stage. could see tt he was really doing e estimates). and he wanted to know his classmate better and for his classmate to noe him better. his next reason was coz his fren's always hoarding food and he'll be hungry in e time capsule. -_-. LOL. he claims tt his fren's store of food will keep them both alive for a week and he also thinks tt his fren is such a pig he won't forget to bring along his food for e trip. LOL!!!! i laughed till i started crying lahz.
anyway on our way back...it was super funny too. we had to cut thru e bus stop to hail a taxi which meant having to cut thru a crowd of gals from e sch. the two boys told me to go first coz they wanted to hide behind me. so i indeed went first but just to see how they wld react...i stopped in e thick of e crowd. my boys started shouting and screaming...they were like 'ms lye!! why u stop?!! faster!! let's go!!!! ARGH'. i was totally tickled. so i moved once more and i cldn't stop laughing. it was just hilarious...best punishment tt can ever be meted out for these jokers in my classes wld be to throw them in a rm full of gals. they will scream. LOL. demerit pts no use. anyway one of my boys were super happy. i told him tt he's really popular with e gals. they keep laughing once he gets on stage before he even says a word. LOL. he looked thoroughly pleased with himself. LOL!!
next day...i found out my other student's secret. apparently he had a crush on one of e gals we saw at e other sch in pri 2. soooo cute lahz. and tt student is e 'i am shuai and gonna join campus super*' guy...or rather he has e look. damn. i forgot to ask him on e last day if tt's his plan. gosh. regret tt. LOL. really, no joke. anyway he's really quite shuai. can imagine him having a crush on a gal in pri 2. so cute!!! LOL. anyway next day ahz...at e same class e kids were so naughty lahz. LOL. this boy kept smelling e slice of ordinary 3-layered (butter+pandan+orange) cake. i was so grossed out. he kept smelling it, got his frens to come smell it. my cake must have felt so violated. i din want e cake at e end of e lesson thinking he must want it since he kept 'stealing' it. (he hid it in his bag, under e cupboard, under some box etc). but when i asked him..he din want it. and e kids were so rude lahz. they opened my wallet. har! wat if i have some guy's photo in it?! but all they found out was my age and tt i played arcade. they kept asking me if arcade's fun (referring to my arcade card). -_-. i kept having to shoo them away then i realized tt although their class is an exp class, one of e senior teachers are right...they're not gd at perceiving emotions. like i shouted at e 4 of them to get away from e table. they just stood their ground. i said tt i'll count to 3 and they only ran off when i reached 3 and one of them had to tell e other 3 tt cher is angry. LOL. but i wasn't lahz. i only just pretending. LOL!!!!! hard to get angry with such lil bundles of fun and cuteness.
then tt campus super* looking guy came and told me tt his fren's hp had porn. -_-. and i had to ask wat porn it is. and apparently e guy with e hp tt had porn pointed to another boy and said tt he's e one who filmed it. -_-. and apparently e guy went to film some other guy from some other class while he was changing and nice lil campus super* boy asked if i wanted to take a look at e porn!!! -_-. or if e two boys will get into trouble. but i just said tt i wanted e guy who had e video in his hp to delete it str away. crazy kids. sec 1 boy changing...where got porn?
anyway when i ended e class they were all so sad it's my last day. like awwww lahz. i totally miss them too. sigh.
then i ended my day with bringing my schs 2 sec 2 NT classes for CIP after sch. LOL. i ended up taking half e class thru e motions of newspaper collecting while e senior teacher with me kept making trips bringing e newspapers back to e CC. thus...i was alone in e thick of e action most of e time. it was interesting watching e kids, telling them wat to do etc. really nice kids. in fact they are pretty tactful outside e sch environment. this guy was coming home from work i guess and he entered e lift but he kept pressing door open and staring at all of us. finally he looked at me and said 'collecting newspaper?' my kid shouted 'karang guni!!' then i just said 'school CIP project' and he just kept staring at me? (totally weird guy) then he started saying tt maybe he has newspapers and if i cld wait for 5mins he'll bring it down. LOL. then he pressed door close and went up. after e lift left our sight e kids screamed with laughter. super funny and they insisted tt he likes me. and tt they can tell from e look on his face. super cute kids. anyway they were tactful to only say it after he left to go up for his newspapers. LOL!!! see...these kids can learn!
anyway i was glad tt i volunteered for CIP with them coz i felt tt i made e greatest diff in my 3.5wks during e CIP. 6 of e kids came down in e elevator and i told them to just rest at e lift lobby while we wait for e rest since we've covered all e levels and had a small mountain of newspapers. then they said 'cher...cannot ahz...maybe our fren feeling faint upstairs...we need to go and find him'. given that they were showing such concern for a fren and they used e phrase 'feeling faint' i told them tt tt's gd and they really shld go find him. so they said 'yah yah!!' then they entered e lift then i said 'u all looking for M?' and they went 'YAH!!! yah!! M!! yah!' and i knew that they were lying to me. LOL.
then i wondered y.
then M came back down with this other guy called W who looked damn bu shuang. then M came over (in a teacher's pet way)...'cher...they beat W up!!' then i looked at e two of them thinking how to react to tt. so i asked W..'did they beat u up?' he kept silent..then M said tt he was walking pass and saw them punching W until he was lying on e ground, following which they kicked him. then i looked at W 'did they beat u up?' and he nodded. then i asked 'are u ok?' he nodded. and i said 'are u sure?' he nodded again. then e other 6 kids came back down again. and they said to W 'we were looking for u lehz!' W ignored them. tt was when i knew tt he's not okie. then i asked e kids 'why did u beat W up?' (asked in a super ah-lian way). they said 'no lahz!! he not pain one. he's a gangster!' -_-. so i asked W...'pain anot?' he said 'no lahz. they use tt thing to beat me, where got pain?!' then e 6 kids picked up a cardboard box and tried whacking each other just to see if it hurts. -_-. then they said 'nvm! next time we use dustbin put over his head...sure pain!' then W just kept silent. so i pulled e 6 kids aside and said sth cool in my humble opinion. LOL!!
me: u really think he not pain ah?
kids: not pain one lahz!! he gangster lehz!
me: so gangster dun feel pain, no feelings one lahz!
kids: yah?
me: if u beat a cat...i tell u...e cat also will cry ah!! now u beating a human lehz. u think e human sad anot?! he's ur fren somemore lehz! u beat ur fren...i tell u ah...he's upset and crying inside ah!
kids keep silent
me: correct anot?! if i beat u all..u all sad anot?
kids: sad lahz!!!!!
me: yah lahz!
then e kids really looked very sorry and they went back and apologized to W which pleased me coz i din tell them to but they knew tt they were wrong in upsetting him. then W told them to fuck off. LOL. see...he must have been real hurt inside. after like 5 mins of constant apologizing by e kids..W finally forgave them. after tt...i went to have a private talk to W.
me: u think u're a man izzit?
W: ??
me: when u are upset...u tell ppl that u are upset. if u pretend tt u're fine they're just going to keep doing it to see wat's ur limit. you understand that?
W (thinking): yah
me: so are u a man anot?
W: yah
me: a man won't be afraid of letting ppl noe tt they are upset k. they're not scared tt ppl will laugh at them coz that's wat they feel and they admit it
W: yes cher...*nods in a cool way*
me: okie. gd.
fruitful day rite!!!!
anyway i realized tt e NT kids are really nice just tt they dun understand some fundamental things like how ppl have feelings tt they shld consider more thoroughly. made me wonder if feelings are becoming a foreign thing for them coz they've been blocking out negative feelings tt they encounted in their families, negative feelings from e sch environment deeming them as useless, tt feelings of failing at things. perhaps slowly they try to convince themselves tt they are cool and can take things in their stride. they convince themselves tt watever they do to each other...they won't be upset coz they're not so petty, it's just for fun. after blocking out all e feelings, they have left for themselves a cool facade. a 'expel me for fighting lorz' facade. i guess tt many ppl dunno how to deal with e facade and do expel them. but they just end up fighting in a diff setting. they just bring tt fight from CIP at toa payoh to coffeeshop at toa payoh. it's not easy to poke holes at their facade and probably these holes will close back soon if no one continues to widen them (in this case, prob no one will). but after e incident...i realized e potential tt a teacher has in making a difference in their worldviews. tt's really sth tt i can look fwd to at e end of my education. =)
i really do believe in e gd of all my kids. =D
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before i thank grace and family for e wonderful weekend...and talk abt my sch today. i want to say tt i did abit of thinking and i realized tt i have two very contradicting personality traits...LOL. as usual..i'm crazy. i am someone who wants to/needs to win...as such i am very zhi zhou abt certain things. e.g. even if i msn u hi and u dun ever reply these days...i will still say hi. but i'm also very xiao sha abt things...which makes life weird. coz it's like a tug-of-war everyday...and it just depends on which personality trait emerges victorious. on one hand...i ask myself how i can just let u go liddat. so xiao sha for wat. and ppl like laogong and tiong ask me y i wldn't just ask u straight...but i can turn my back liddat and look like i dun care. then i look at myself and ask y i shld hang on tenaciously if it's not meant to be. perhaps there nvr was anything in e first place. it makes me feel like whacking u up. for putting me in this stupid tug-of-war everyday.
but i'm getting used to such a life. just like how i get used to u so quickly in my life. i adapt to not having u ard too. i get my bus concession at least. i can go out with my colleague for lunch. i can get my dad/myself to da bao teh bing when i want it. though of coz things are so much more wonderful when u're here. but for some reason u just want to leave me dangling somewhere. so fine.
then i ask myself if i really believe tt there was sth that we shared. perhaps some mutual feelings? i dunno if i can believe that anymore no matter how some ppl try to convince me. i can't lahz. it's been some time since i'm unsure if someone likes me. i usually can tell. some time...meaning 6 yrs since i've been unsure. this ain't too good.
ANYWAY!!! whatever that is, blogging abt it doesn't help. so let me tell everyone abt my weekend. on sat i went to grace's place for dinner upon her mom's invitation and i had nasi lemak (still dun quite like e taste of e rice) anyway...after e food we had a short mahjong session (me, grace and her bro). and i was abt to leave for home when grace's mom got me to sleepover. LOL!!! her aunties were really nice too..asking how i'm doing etc. charmed by e family. anyway so i stayed over and on sun!! auntie and uncle were so nice!! brought us all to breakfast and i had really nice food though i feel bad burning a hole in their pockets. but e food's really interesting. if anyone wants to try...e place is called 'Street' at IMM. i tried e bread thing with peanut butter on it. very interesting...different from e sandwich kind. it's just one block of bread with e peanut butter on top and some ground nuts sprinkled on it and butter. yumz. and i had ee-fu mee with mushrooms which was amazing too. LOL. anyway after tt...we walked ard a lil and it felt so nice...like a big family. LOL. finally me and grace went for k-student and sang our hearts out...or rather we sang till we got really bored. 5hrs...2 ppl..me and grace just can't do it. LOL. it makes me wonder how me and qi/me and my cousin do it. LOL. i guess coz qi sings all e liang jing ru songs with e super long MVs bahz. LOL.
anyway...sch today was interesting coz i got to teach!! and i did relief too. and i talked more to JK. LOL! who's my entertainment in sch. i was due to do relief for this class in e morning but when i got there...JK was already inside and he told me it's okie and he'll do it and i shld just go back to rest. i cld have thrown things at him! LOL. coz my timetable had only 3 slots. 2 half-hr relief slots and a half hr teaching slot. like hello!! he stole my work lahz. anyway...okie lahz. he was nice...i wld have told e teacher 'dunnit lahz'. but he said 'it's ok...i'll do it! you go back and rest.' which of coz sounds drastically diff from dunnit lahz. which explains y i din throw anything at him. anyway...after my rest...i went to this sec 3 NT class which was surprisingly quiet and well-behaved besides e usual cheeky qns which i am quite used to by now. in fact...e kids sat down and did their work. highly commendable and amazing. anyway when i got back to e staffrm e scholars were amazed when i told them abt e class too. and JK commented tt he walked pass my class and they were really quiet. LOL. and finally finally finally i told JK tt i live in TP too. LOL. so me and PB acknowledged JK as our neighbourhood-ie. LOL. inner circle manz.
teaching was really cool. e kids liked e lesson, i enjoyed delivering it. my mentor was glad tt i took her faster class (coz e others are lagging and she's glad tt i'm holding this class back with my experimental lessons). anyway all my mentor cld say was 'that was interesting. e kids had fun'. which was abit disappointing for me. was hoping tt she cld tell me how to improve. anyway she asked if she shld pass them my survey forms on wed and i informed her tt i'm presentin my findings on wed itself so it's too late. and she was shocked and asked who i'm presenting to. -_-. my mentor is soooo in-e-loop and knowledgable lahz. then i looked at beng's mentor who even gives him instructions like 'log out of my email acct.' -_-. LOL. i'm like e one with absolute freedom whilst he's e one who craves e freedom most. no choice.
anyway from lesson...i renewed my passion to deliver lessons. delivering lessons has always been a kind of entertaining for me. i cannot stand it if i have students who are bored. and my lessons are usually packed with exciting stuff. LOL. i think my class must have felt like they're running a race today given tt i compressed 45mins worth of lesson stuff into a mere 30 minutes. exciting but exhuasting. for me...it was exhilarating. =D
on a final note...to e ritch who's holding on to e makansutra...i want it back soon!!! after i end my attachment i can go for good food. LOL. will be super free!!! give it back~! and paste more post-its inside if u're free bahz!! i want eat gd chicken rice!!!
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from an uneventful morning...i finished oryx and crake. it's a really really nice book. recommended for everyone with a few hrs to spare..(okie..it'll probably take more than a few hrs). anyway..really nice though e ending was kinda abrupt. it's like i flipped e pg for e next chapter but there was none. LOL!!! but oh well...being forgiving of good pieces of Literature...i see it as symbolic of the fact that life will always go on even if we lose our grip on it and lose track of things. LOL!! it's seriously a piece of undiscovered literature lahz. shld be taught in sch...i'll say sec 3 or 4 Lit? it's full of intertextuality and wit. super humourous too. and it pleases me to noe tt i read faster than atas gal coz she started on e same bk before me and she's still on e book and in fact she gave me a flawed synopsis of it. LOL!!! she told me tt e characters were pigs!!! like how wrong was that. LOL. (coz they are human beings. and i'm 100% sure of it). LOL!!!!
anyway. i woke up at 7am this morning lahz...or rather i woke at 630 and tried w/o success to go back to sleep till 7. then i jumped up coz i tot of sth that i can use in my lessons and i had to write it down before i forget. LOL. such is e life of a teacher. 7am on a saturday. LOL!!! then i invented my first personalized, self-created sms and sent it to benny. LOL!!! it goes somewhat like:
a new day starts with a streak of sunshine
a new friendship starts with a word of concern.
good morning my friend
or sth like tt lahz. LOL!!!! super lame. but well...no choice!!!
anyway i realized while sitting at e window this morning that i'm simply not thinking abt u...consciously not thinking of u. but when i do....it's still quite upsetting...i nvr thought tt e hurt cld be so deep..tt i've become even more crazed. but well...if u dun care...i'm not going to spend my time smsing u with no reply from u lahz. perhaps it's for e better now. i asked myself if things cld have been different...yah of coz. we cld have become even closer but still...i'll have to say my byes. so it's just as well that we din become closer. maybe tt's why it's just as well tt we dun meet now.
i've always put u first...and i will continue to put u first. which is y i respect tt u dun want to meet me. i will of coz be alright.
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beng's speak good english campaign is getting to me...grace dear told me 'why u put sth so long' and this british-accent laden voice spoke in my mind: What is this? Why are you speaking in this manner?
LOL! then i had to find out wat dear really meant and put it in nice british english. -_-.
anyway i had another great day. i'm like happy everyday these days. LOL!!
i woke up and went to sch in a gd mood coz:
1. it's friday
2. it's racial harmony day celebration and i wore a nice top ;)
3. i got most of my voice back though it's shaky
so lalalalalala...i went to sch. then at first i was quite sianz coz all e other 3 scholars had observation/class to go for except me since my mentor just gives alot of tests and go thru tests and it's pretty boring for me to observe and e other teacher tt i want to observe has only an hr of lessons today. so i stoned in e staffrm. then something unexpected and nice happened! =D
near where e 4 of us sit...in e cubicles just in front of us actually there are 3 trainee teachers...and =D. two of them were talking (Ja and JK) abt e 4 mid-career change teachers who are leaving coz their attachment ends today..then they were discussing if us 4 scholars were going to leave today too. hearing e reference i looked up and noticed Ja smiling at me. then for e first time ever ahz..in 3 wks i had a conversation with them. LOL!!! having a conversation with colleagues who have not spoken to u for 3 wks...is like knowing tt u dun have a contagious disease, e sunshine thru e rain. super happy coz tt means
1. they don't think i'm some atas person
2. they're cute. LOL!!!
3. i finally got to ask Ja e qn that has been bugging me for a few days
4. i can finally tell JK tt i stay at TP too one day in e near future
anyway i told them tt we're not leaving today but on wed. then we talk some nonsense abt NIE and they asked some qns abt me and we talked abt how much i can't do sci and maths. and they told me tt they'll be sharing our long table soon...looking fwd! LOL! after e convo JK went back to his seat near e front and kept looking back as if to continue e convo but i cldn't get e 'hey! i also live in TP' out of my mouth. coz tt will mean tt i eavesdropped. LOL!! like oops...but no lahz...he said really loudly e other day tt he lives in TP mahz.
anyway i realized tt i have very very weird taste in guys. LOL. i think JK is really cute. LOL!!! confession. but he really is. i guess tt he's cute if u like ppl who are a lil beng, are versatile in spoken hokkein and chi. okie lahz...maybe i have sth for his smile. feel warm inside when he smiles especially wide when he talks to me/sees me. i think we must have looked like idiots later in e day coz he was in one of e classrms teaching and stupid beng asked us to help him give out posters which i din mind coz i was free anyway and hoped to be lucky enuf to give to JK's class. i was!! LOL. anyway i was going to knock on e classrm door but he was standing near there and he smiled his wide smile and walked up...rather close. with his smile. LOL! and i smiled...LOL. i bet we looked like cheshire cats in front. and i passed him e poster and told him e instructions. nvr seen anyone so happy receiving posters (in fact he was e only teacher who smiled when i interrupted e classes. -_-) and i dun think ppl usually get so happy giving out posters. but watever it is...after taking e poster..he asked wat's my name and i told him my surname lahz. so he told e class tt miss l*e wants e class to put up e poster. LOL. then i said 'thank you' while he was telling tt to e class and he said welcome after his sentence. so polite. LOL. and in proper english.
i've always tot it's amazing tt teachers can be so full of chi/singlish outside class but use such prim and proper english in class.
anyway i guess i'm just crazy these days. enjoying life w/o having to worry abt/think abt u every minute. and yepz....life rox.
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guess where i am now?!
i'm in sch. as in nus. LOL!! sitting in my previously cosy now messy disaster zone of a gs-rm. LOL!!! i can't believe my dad. he's making me into a office-bred workaholic. imagine....
dad: where are u?
me: out with frens
dad: u're sick lehz!
and
dad: where are u?
me: in sch...
dad: u're sick lehz!
but when i say this....
dad: where are u?
me: in sch...in e office
dad: okay...coming home for dinner?
LOL!!! i can't understand my old man. anyway...sigh...i have alot of phlegm i think....still no voice. LOL. i recovered it for a short while this morning and i spent it saying hi to all my colleagues who were rather amused coz as usual i'm super high at 7am. funniest was when i ran into beng's mentor and i said 'hi!!!!' (extra loud coz he was e first person i saw) and he wanted to say hi but he got no voice...still early...nvr kai sheng. LOL. then in e afternoon when he finally came over and said sth...it was my turn to be unable to utter an answer. LOL!
anyway i'm absolutely bowled over...i'm too easy to bribe lahz. my mentor gave me a small box with a bow on top and inside...there was a note on e inner side of e cover saying tt e strepsils are for my throat and e hersheys are for me when i recover. =D. so sweet rite? she even included those fish & co mints which she bought from africa on honeymoon. super super sweet. really must take photo with her before i leave. and i also got a thank you card from e pupil development HOD. =D who wrote tt she's appreciative of my relief teaching e other day coz they asked if i cld help with 2 periods and i did 7. LOL!!!! which meant tt i had a half an hr break that day. and she wrote tt i have e passion and commitment of a caring teacher. LOL!!!! so nice. but i think in a politicking sense...she's using e card to 'shoot' e other 3 scholars who didn't offer to help lahz. anyway i did it not coz i'm caring mahz...but coz it's sth tt had to be done lorz. but still..it brightened my day esp coz e card is a special card. it's a crying-since-sch card with kids on e front with e word thank you and a watermark pic of e sch building at e back. nice momento. =D
anyway besides tt..e day proved eventful when i defeated my shi fu (e physics boy PB) in worms!!! 3 times in a row. and he was so shocked. LOL! smug. he was like saying tt it's imposs to beat him coz he completed all e tutorials and he's been playing since JC. LOL!!! well. this ain't physics. dunnit to do tutorials de!! muahahahahahaha. [actually i was just super lucky]
i got to do more of my project. since i can't speak which means tt i can't teach. my project's more concrete now. makes me happy. i think i'm gonna have e most complete, comprehensive and detailed project ever with 40 lesson plans!! LOL sec 1, sec 2, exp, NA. muahahahahahaahaha!!
also eventful coz i realized tt benny seriously has a flair for chi. rem showing dear his blog before in my attempt to find her candidates for matchmaking and grace dear said tt she admires his flair for language. yah..it's quite true. all e smses tt he create...at least got one word tt i dunno. but i like all e smses. super poetic lahz. and e best thing is tt there's a word 'yun' inside. LOL! egoistic.
anyway..what made my day all e more eventful was running into vinc. LOL!! after i collected e certificates from goh bros in sch and after i took my claim forms from comserv clubrm. it went sth like:
me: hi!!
vinc: hey hi~
(me walking pass)
vinc: you know rite~~~~~ (in a whiny/deh voice)
me turning over
vinc: i'm going for SEP
~thinking: matt will be so happy...lack of acad competition next sem for him
me: oh...
vinc: i'm going to canada
me: wow
~thinking why the whole world is leaving sg...frens leaving, controversial figures also leaving. next sem will be a boring sem
vinc: i'm leaving soon!
me: when?
vinc: sunday. this sunday
*sound of thunder*
me: wah!!! so soon. how long's ur exchange
vinc: i'll be back in dec
~thinking: great!! wonder if vinc will be as gay/more gay/turn straight
me: coolz! i'll see u in sem 2 then.
characters walk off
~me at busstop...thinking...damn. forgot to ask him buy souvenir for me. LOL!!! but k ahz...not close. he'll prob buy me some political/kinky stuff both of which i have no use for. LOL! actually no lahz...vinc is alot more decent than A. prob political stuff/clothes.
then when i met tc jut now...first thing i tot of when i saw him wasn't 'i passed e certs to shir' but rather 'i wonder if he gave vinc a farewell dinner' LOL!!!! but of coz e first line tt left my mouth was 'i passed e certs to shir'
no choice.
and i realized sth very true and very impt. can put into my handover report. to be e president...u better not fall sick. still got mountains of work to do.
oh well. =D. stepping down. stepping down. stepping down.
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a super funny excerpt of a conversation:
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i'm sick..=(.
tblog was down for e past few days so i cldn't blog...so here's a summary:
1. i love my students.
2. it was fun emcee-ing for grace's party though i was pretty sick near e end of it
3. i demonstate e spirit of resilience so emphasized by 'crying-since-sch'. coz i was feeling nauseous...faint but i took a bus home! LOL. i almost had to crawl to my door. but i survived! yea!! and i learnt to swallow medication. swallowed panadol cold relief and normal panadol yah? =)
4. SGH A&E charges exorbitant prices with very chatty doctors who asked me tons abt uni. -_-.
5. nua-ed ard so much tt i slept for like 20hrs yest with medication in betwn. and today i'm so awake tt i'm finding stuff to do.
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shall talk abt my attachment so far...attachment at crying-since-sch. LOL!!
1. my fellow scholars.
-_-. bunch of weirdos..LOL!! we're all weird lahz. one atas gal studying in london, stupid benG, one weird guy who doesn't like to go home but wld instead walk ard any shopping mall in sg.
let's start with e gal...refuses to eat canteen food, only drinks carrot juice everyday, typical taitai who has a bf living in bukit timah who's also on scholarship. LOL!!! typical atas. she speaks dreamily of her celery juice everyday. speaks with a brit accent.
then ben of coz...still as flirty. still as vulgar...will always rem wat he said today...'any c*nt will do'...wth. sometimes i can't stand him..other times it's just amusing watching him try to hit on e atas gal. though of coz he confesses tt she is too atas for his taste. and i can tell y. his ex, his present look abt e same...behave abt e same. LOL. and it's funny noeing how scandalous he is coz he can't even rem where his working shoes are and he called his gf to ask. LOL.
of coz..last but not least...e most normal of e grp. he's so normal he fits into e physics teacher mould which makes him not so normal of coz given tt e rest of us are all into humanities. anyway given e extreme flirting betwn benG and atas gal....i'm stuck with PB(physicsboy) most of e time...making us all feel like we're stuck in an entropy of double dating gone wrong. anyway...i did e physics test administered for sec 3 students today. i failed. LOL!!! and i cld only answer e qns on atmospheric pressure..coz at least tt's vaguely geographical *proud*
e teachers:
generally they all hate us. coz we sit ard doing nth..they are afraid of giving us stuff to do for fear of us airing our grouses to HQ. so we sit ard and play scrabble or games with e tiles...or pc games (which means rummy and minesweeper and other MSwindows games). generally they can't stand us coz we make noise but they like our vibrancy. most of all they detest e fact tt a bunch like us may become their superiors really quick. which explains y they typically keep out of our way even when we leave sch during sch hrs.
my mentor:
she gives me no work to do, requests tt i only attend her 'interesting' lessons. but of coz i find all her lessons interesting coz e kids are cute. but anyway...due to her many concerns...i am stuck at e staffrm most of e time. she has a brilliant smile though. and i have a soft spot for nice smiles.
beng's mentor:
gosh..my new idol. 'nuff said. okie lahz...say more. he hates scholars. which explains y benG keeps acting benG(aka ah beng)...LOL. and speaking hokkein though his pronounciation's all wrong. anyway he makes it obvious tt he hates scholars. and reminds us to make policies for e forgotten NT students. i think he's e most interesting character with his extremely fierce disposition in e mornings and how he disciplines e kids...but he smiles at his students in class...in a smile tt's rather disarming in it's childlike nature. LOL. maybe frenships, relationships, admiration and love works like tt..in disarming each other. we disarm him with hokkein..he disarms with a smile and telling us something super personal like how he got alcohol poisoning after his breakup 5 yrs back. like HELLO!! totally random.
our overall mentor:
she's super crazy. i think i'll be kinda like her. she tells her kids to not even think abt jio-ing e atas gal. quoting her 'u got no looks, no brain, no personality...how to chase this kind of gal! at least got money still can! u still so poor!!!' gosh. then she makes fun of all her kids and tries to matchmake me to her son by tempting me with a taitai lifestyle after her son takes over e family accounting firm. like hello!! wld i marry an accountant?! -_-. a quiet and shy one at that.
e NTU-NIE gal sitting near us:
she's just honest in a weird way...LOL!! like she tells us how she cannot get into NUS??? which made us feel super guilty abt it. and she tries to speak to us...but somehow atas gal just doesn't click with her (like i wonder y). and stupid benG just applies his usual attitude of any gal will do. -_-.
e students:
i realized tt kids at tt age really have looks that speak abt their personality. e.g. 'i am polite to teachers' look with e gal in qn bowing to us when she walked pass. and e 'i am shuai and will take part of campus superstar' look. and indeed e boy in qn just sweeps e floor almost every lesson coz he nvr does his hw. he even holds e broom as if it's a mic stand. LOL. and e 'i am a smart aleck' kind who insist on writing to billy wonka when e qn requires them to write a formal letter to a choc factory.
and of coz e most interesting boy i saw today. at queensway shopping centre at 11am in sch uniform. he went 'wah!! *** *** **** sch teachers!!' (insert name of sch). and i turned ard thinking. wah liew..where got boy play truant play until so stupid. teachers see him nvr say anything. he acknowledge us. -_-. then i wanted to shout back 'wah!!!!!!! *** *** **** sch student ah!' LOL. anyway after tt we went to observe his class....and we told his teacher tt he's at queensway. pow toh. LOL!!!!!!!!
and there are kids who dunno how to tikam/copy...and write names tt sound fake e.g. ike kie. (sounds like icky kia...which is wat i call him). he didn't write anything except his name on e physics test paper lahz. then i was telling PB tt he shld get e guy to come out and give e guy an eraser and tell him to number each side...number from A to D and just toss it then answer. but of coz benG gave a better idea. teach him to copy. but i still prefer e traditional tikam method. i wld tell him this:
me: boy..u dunno how to tikam izzit?
boy: ...
me: cher teach u...u go sit in tt corner...throw this eraser...write down e side tt comes up. then u do more good deeds k. maybe got better luck. GO!
where got ppl go thru so many exams..but dunno how to tikam. cmi.
and seriously...this attachment is stretching my personality lahz. i am more atas yet more vulgar. i'm speaking better english yet i am speaking even better singlish. gosh.
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just have a 'er ay' conversation with C. LOL. had to use 'er ya' alot coz i had to censor alot of wat i noe abt him and his er ay scandal with er ay. all censored parts are replaced with 'er ay' so u can imagine him telling him wat e gal told me replacing all e keywords with er ay. but i think he noes wat i mean.
anyway. happier stuff. eg ppl missing me..=D. it feels gd to be missed. i'm missed in e day by my family coz i'm away from camp esp by nu-er..and i'm missed at nite by my msn buddies eg C and E who have so much to tell me. LOL. ;). and i miss so many ppl too being stuck in sch doing nth most of e time.
update abt sch later. anyway...everynite..when i go down to ethe...i really feel very sorry tt i cannot be there in e day. but really..everynite was fun and busy and of coz i enjoyed myself e most on e last nite when finally i stayed over. next to e old changi hosp somemore!! it was fun running after e log van in my heels at vivo and absolute fun giving directions to GH. who stares intently ahead in full concentration, not talking nor looking anywhere else. and i told him to keep right after e u-turn which he didn't. and he told me to tell him earlier next time. -_-. for rich who wld understand this...we were driving along e HSA stretch...-_-. e u-turn was like how much earlier lahz. and i told him before e u-turn. LOL!!!! anyway after a very very very stressful ride...at least we were safe. which kinda amazed me after seeing how all e log ppl drive. they just drive up and down curbs lahz. oh well. then i finally got to do log stuff..i just love log stuff lahz. i was more than happy to prep e SP log stuff and i must say tt i felt like a florist as me and a freshie (still dunno his name) prepared e roses. was fun shortening them and cutting excess leaves off. felt like a florist. then i got to blow many many balloons and think of how to keep them from flying off. and i got to help GH and YZ with e PA sys which was so fun!! felt like a DJ..really a highlight. esp coz YZ kept falling asleep and GH is stressed as usual. realized tt he's stressed by every single possible thing lahz. he was so stressed he cldn't even select songs on e laptop. -_-. LOL. so i ended up doing most of e PA though i wasn't meant to even be there. YEA! then of coz we ended up ultimate saikang...moving log back to sch!! i must say tt i love my family. moving log from 2am to 5am is great for bonding. and most amazingly..after i showered and everything and got to sleep...i still woke up at 7. and felt super awake coz tt's when i wld reach sch and sit in e staffrm..meaning tt i need to wayang my energy. so at 7am..i got out of e room to go to e toilet and guess who i saw!! bryan of coz...my fellow teacher..so we stood ard talking abt our teaching experience so far...-_-. LOL!!! like how boring. then coz it looked like it was going to rain...i woke family up to talk abt contingency plans.
of coz...it ended well. though yah...some internal politics and stuff..but still alright. e most touching part was when we ended and laogong gave his speech to e OC and he was still so grateful tt i came to help though i felt as if i shortchanged e proj coz of my attachment and coz nu-er was so eager to free me of work. sigh. and when he finally hugged me at e end saying how much he really appreciated e things i did and he actually said so many nice things abt me and my work...i cried too...sigh.
but at least i cried prettily and so did nu-er and er zi...i passed down e gd genes. LOL...not like tiong and chris esp!!! horrible...LOL.
anyway yah..didn't cry much...coz there are so many more things worth crying abt maybe.